i feel like crying thinking of aye sakit perut. the most i can do is text her. why am i being this emotional? i guess bcoz i cant stand my sister in pain. esp when i'm this far far away. n she's only with baba at home. of coz baba wont know what to do. if i was there, at least i can gosok2 aye.
wuaaaaa..seriously!pls dont cry sarah. u cant afford to be homesick now! my God, i miss her so much!

m i??

forgot already la what to write. today is not a very productive day although i did kickboxing in the morning. but then i slept from 10.30am-12.00pm..huhuhu.time wasted! i took the whole day (until now) to finish up the anato! n yet i havent even started the facial region,which is nxt week's topic. but i'm determined to stay up till i finished my facial nerve slides. chaiyo2!


went to clayton, yey, i spent only on-the-list stuff!!yeyey!!

hpkm...pls dont b my irritant! i havent really searched the journal for it.. n i also need my easter break from midsem xm.. so i need to finish it up in a few days =(( can i???? eh nope, 'can we??' is more accurate.

currently listening : insan bernama kekasih by unic.. muahahaha =)) so funny!

i promised myself to write on the summary of my summer holidays, but i kept procrastinating..n now, it's already the 4th week of the second yr. 2nd yr is fun! yeaah, that's to b positive, but i need not to lie here(like what i always did to the outsiders).. take today as an eg, i white-lied a couple of times. of course u have to say u r fine n u r enjoying ur course when u r under the school program... get what i mean? but honestly, i enjoy CPP. but PCL and anat had been a very dreadful things to look fwd to. scary i should say. last yr's was a lot more stress-less for pcl and anat.

good points about CPP today:

• we got to see the meals on wheels kitchen.interesting!
• halcyon day centre!!! had a good time.amazed with few little2 things. eg : how they measure the temp of every food, how the birds r really observed by ppl, how community care affect ppl.
• being briefed on our project - dont have to think much bout it as everything is being outlined.
• we've got our id card - swapping the card is fun (a bit childish though!) . they got my name wrong- sarah binti dahlOn..n kemal's - nurakmal binti sOm sudin. what a laugh!!
  
• went to the stationeries cupboard - interesting fact: the ballpen is made in malaysia!
• didnt realise it's already 4.30 --> that's quite important
• bought an eyeliner at theglen
• borrowed 4 story books from the public library
  

"The Rose"

Some say love, it is a river

that drowns the tender reed.

Some say love, it is a razor

that leaves your soul to bleed.

Some say love, it is a hunger,

an endless aching need.

I say love, it is a flower,

and you its only seed.

It's the heart afraid of breaking

that never learns to dance.

It's the dream afraid of waking

that never takes the chance.

It's the one who won't be taken,

who cannot seem to give,

and the soul afraid of dyin'

that never learns to live.

When the night has been too lonely

and the road has been to long,

and you think that love is only

for the lucky and the strong,

just remember in the winter

far beneath the bitter snows

lies the seed that with the sun's love

in the spring becomes the rose.

appalling event

arinih p bank utk bukak acc baru dlm maybank.the issue is.. why cant the ppl be more postive n not bersangka buruk kat org n perli2 without asking? i AM in a good mood now, but i tot i wanna write about it here. citenye camnih... i am not really familliar with the bank here(bkn nk blagak biase ngan bank kat oz, tp i feel waaay comfortable to go to any bank in oz even for the 1st time), so i just get into the queue and wait.before that my dad got me forms for 'bukak acc'. i'm not sure whether the form is the right one or not so i just wait til i get to the teller. at the counter the teller told me that he needed a copy of my driving licence n ic. so my dad went for the xerox stuff and i take a corner to fill in the forms.then, i get back into the queue,npody behind me...1 lady in front of me..so i waited..then the teller asked me to sit first,maybe because he needed a while to finish up with the lady. after a while, there's a few ppl get into the line.but i still sit because i wanna wait for the teller to call me. then the teller call me after the lady is done and i went to the counter. but suddenly i heard a voice behind me.. 'ngelat sungguh.. tak beratur..'.. it was soooo ******.... then i pusing and say 'saye dah dtg awal td..'..tuh je yg mampu aku ckp.. then i just ignore him bcause of course i dont need to explain further to him if that would make a scene. in my heart at that time, i was so appalled with the guy's remark in that kind of situation. die igt aku suke ke potong org ke ape ke. he could have been more polite by taking it easy..not perli2..ckp elok2 ke..then i can explain. then to make it worse, i heard he told his friend sth like the teller mengorat2 aku when the teller had just started a conversation about the fact that my ic is 03 but the add is in trg n i live in mzms. hmmm.. what a jerk!! its' not that i wanna take this seriously, but imagine my feeling at that time. i think that's the one bad memory about 2006 summer,other than that, everything went well.

Remembering So Much
by Hope


On lingering memories
Once more I play
I’m missing you more
Than yesterday


So many paths that led
To memory lane
My mind travels back
I am there again


Feelings and affections
I had plenty to view
In letters and pictures
Archives of you


Remembering so much
Its all held in here
As I fondly reminisced
From yesteryear


Of things said and done
Love I can still find
Revealed in memories
Always on my mind

i've been working hard these few days.. but i didnt put any pressure, i take my own time finishing everything.. there are still a lot to do upstairs.. my main motivation is to get lost of my spare tyres ^___^ the sides r trying to be a real anak-dara-dok-rumah. i really wanna do well. i'm feeling good about it. before this i've been living in guilt. living unrealistically. just wanna have fun but in the end there's not fun at all. sooo, now is the real fun!!! i woke up n did some vacuuming.. then cont with the lipat-baju-yg-bertimbun-tuh.. then do the cookings... then rewards myself with bawang-putih-bawang-merah.. then reward some more with theOC.. then cont vacuum other rooms.. then do some reading.. i promised myself that i'm gonna finish up all the Reader'sDigest...reading it is some kind of destressor.. i cant really put what i feel into words.. i'm soo teruja ngan my new spirit!!! go go chaiyo! now is the reward time.. the OC.. the bigger reward is waiting ie : final episode of Goong~~ . i'm saving it for the last.

i just luuurve this pic

shin goon is not s handsome s others that i like

but i like his way

can a guy over a girl like u?

-lindsay to mourissa-

this is why i didnt give out my blog to others.

it's full of worldly quotes picked all over the places.

ppl will take it as jiwang.

but i know..dot dot dot.......

why & why

Q : why does nyang heart tok nyang soo very2 much?

A : bcoz tok nyang is very the handsome, very the cool, very the gentle, very the sweet, very the understanding, very the thoughtful, very the ultra-cute ^_^ . all in all he's the most handsomest creature nyang had ever seen. let alone all the cute events happened. ie: how thoughtful of toknyang to stop at the door and not stomp right away to the kitchen as jamil did. how cute was that when he looked at those shoes at the door. n also how cute was him when he lost words to talk after telling me about his fren's-21st-in-Aubury. and one more thing that i realised is he resembles short-haired-Rangga. n Rangga is someone i've always like. this obsession is a mere admiration towards fellow homo-sapien who has superior traits. i realised that being over-obsessed with another creatures besides Allah is totally unaccpetable.

get excited guys!

it's not that i am really excited for this coming new yr, but lately i've been thinking a lot about my new house, my new furnitures, n all the new things ahead.. i need to be a new hardworking med student who dont give a damn on what's happening far far away in korea or japan. oh ok, i'll get a new entry for the whole story of my new yr's resolution ^_^ n here is the something i copied from my.monash. be excited guys!!!

Synopsis:

In each semester students are enrolled in one integrated unit within which is embedded material from each of the following 4 themes:

THEME I: Personal and Professional Development;

THEME II: Population, Society, Health and Illness: Health, Knowledge and Society;

THEME III: Foundations of Medicine;

THEME IV: Clinical Skills. (For more information refer to the website)

Unit objectives:

Theme I:

1. develop a perspective on issues of social equity and justice, particularly as they relate to the practice of medicine;

2. develop knowledge of the welfare system and its relevance to medicine;

3. appreciate the operational philosophy and service delivery components of key agencies working in the areas of social action, social justice and advocacy;

4. understand the concept of the 'whole person' and in particular, the social and economic context of health and illness;

5. develop an understanding of social and public policy and how it impacts on people's lives; 6. understand that from their position of responsibility within the community, they have knowledge and skills that can contribute to the well-being of those people who are disadvantaged;

Theme II:

7. articulate the relationship between data, information, evidence, knowledge and informed care; 8. demonstrate in applied situations the following: - enhanced information technology skills (searching and medical database identification skills, including computer presentation skills) - application of critical skills to clinical and research questions - application of a range of knowledge based systems in clinical practice (bibliographic software, decision support systems); 9. appreciate the different perspectives in health promotion through the application of the 'sociological imagination';

10. define, compare and contrast medical, behavioural and socio-environmental approaches to health promotion;

11. understand the application of a range of health promotion theories of change, ranging through individual to social;

12. understand and participate in the basic health promotion process of program development, planning, implementation and evaluation;

13. systematically apply critical appraisal and knowledge management skills to evaluation of health promotion intervention strategies;

14. identify appropriate strategies for health promotion interventions, including targeting high risk and population-based strategies;

Theme III:

15. describe the structure and function of the healthy cardiovascular, respiratory and renal systems and the formation and function of blood;

16. appreciate the mechanisms and effects of selected pathologies affecting these systems;

17. enumerate and understand the mechanisms of action of therapeutic agents commonly prescribed to combat disorders of these systems;

18. give an account of the interactions of these systems in the maintenance of homeostasis, drawing upon knowledge acquired in preceding semesters;

Theme IV:

19. understand the framework for clinical reasoning in the cardiovascular, respiratory, haematopoietic and renal systems;

20. demonstrate focused history taking in the cardiovascular, respiratory, haematopoietic and renal systems;

21. perform and understand the relevance of an examination of the patient's cardiovascular, respiratory, haematopoietic and renal system;

22. work cooperatively with peers to achieve specified tasks;

23. gain experience with patient interviews and examination on hospital wards;

24. gain an appreciation of the range and types of disorders in the cardiovascular, respiratory, haematopoietic and renal systems encountered in general practice;

25. understand the complementary and diverse aspects of clinical disorders in the cardiovascular, respiratory, haematopoietic and renal systems encountered in general practice and in hospitals; Selectives - As a result of the chosen Selective, the student will develop existing and/or acquire new, interests and skills that lie outside the traditional ambit of 'medical education' Rural Placement:

26. describe and discuss how rural contexts impact on the assessment of health conditions;

27. recognize the importance of context and clinical reasoning in relation to focused history taking;

28. describe and discuss how a rural context impacts on the clinical and non-clinical management of patients.

Goong's fever

i dont ask to be a princess.. who lives on ppl's taxes for her own comfort. i dont as to be a queen..who has everything brought to her foot. i dont as to be the first lady.. who has millions to travel.. i dont ask to be them who has money to be wasted.. who has money to buy the world.. i just ask to be a GIRL who could live her life watching korean or japanese dramas around the clock.. the girl who dont need to think about school, the girl who dont need to think about lunch to be prepared, the girl who dont need to think about the washings in the machine, the girl who dont need to think about floor to be swept.. i just ask to be a girl who could stay reading love stories all the time as she please.the girl who is happy all the time ^_^ can i be her?? i suddenly thought of this while watching Goong.. how bored it is to be the Queen, being in self-control all the time, the crown princess, all activities are scheduled out for her.. i'm not even jealous of them although the have millions of won to be spent!

fall n catch

"..she cant fall for u if u r not there to catch her..."

it was said by alex/whatever her name is to zach.i like zach but i knew summer n seth will finally end up together. if only zach replaces ryan!! i kept criticising the OC, i have no choice but to keep watching it bcoz i like scandals..hahahaha.. ok here i'll repeat, i despise mourisa sooo much! eeuww~haha, that's summer's line.

i hate mourisa.i dont like ryan.

but caleb's 'purple eyes' reminds me of toknyang(why does it has to b on cales's????).

hihihi, still remember when we talked in anat museum.

i did this 1 caress test..n guess what..

wants to know which woman r u most like???

congratulations! based on your answers, you are most like

BROOKE DAVIS

You are most like Brooke Davis;

a dedicated leader who is sophisticated,

sometimes restless, cultured, and delicate.

You enjoy shopping and having fun.

hmmm..wondering whether its' true or m i hallucinating??

hmm.. the result is supposed to be today but... the fac DECIDED to make us wait a little longer.. to test our patience and perseverence..hahahaha.. it's 18days late!!!

it seems like 24hrs isnt enough ~what a cliche!~ i woke up at 9/10, then my day is full of everything.. i havent got time to feel bored, in fact i have so much more things to do in queue =))

i'm scared~a real scare~ that i'll wake up one day realising it's already feb. hmm.. i guess this is when i need to apply mindfullness..hihihi.. i have a big jigsaw puzzle to solve.. 4(at the mean time) malay novels to read.. and uncountable english books to read... i really need to read english books.. my english is so in the 'beginner' state. u can tell from my blog la.reading is fun if everyday is like today...i mean, holiday! not any holiday, but summer holiday!!!!!!!! hmmm... what am i going to cook for lunch? hmm.. have something in mind but let us just wait.. just eat what i'm gonna cook..they arent fussy, are u? :p hey, realised the caption 'NAAUC TRANSPORT OFFICER'? hahaha.. google that n see what will u find.. hihihi.. such a small thing being discovered is such an achievement for me.hihihi.i didnt remmber what that naauc stands fr..but it's like national association of australian uni college .. hahaha.. it may sounds like that.. every yr, there'll b a convention held at one of the participating colleges.. so this coming 2007 convention will b hosted by mannix college..ring a bell???n we know tok nyang right.. but i didnt expect him to be the commitee members or sth.. but he did! and kakak-tok-nyang is the merchandise officer.. i didnt know other committee members. but i guess tok nyang n her kakak was very close bcoz they do such things together(of coz!).

bebel

#these posts is written after i tried to read a veryboring story.

okey, i forgot to add in the list of foods i've eaten : laksa-laksa :p

....and i also met Dao Ming Szi...okey, met figuratively la.. he's in The Hospital.. but i cant stand that drama..sooo slow.... n sooo not real.. he's not meant to b a doc. he shud be like Dao Ming Szi,foreva.okey,sounds gdix..but i really am when it comes to those guys in the TV... the list in my xanga answered all.

and also..i've been reading novels these days.. n things kept me wondering.. there's always caption like 'saye suke awak sbb keikhlasan awak,kejujuran awak n bla bla bla..awak jd diri awak sendiri.blablabla..' can ppl see the honesty???can ppl see purity?? how do they judge the partner have been their trueself??how can they say others have not been their trueselves?? bcoz it's in the novels then they can say everything they want..they've been giving false hope to readers.. of cos the main character can say their partner can be trusted n all bcoz the writer of coz could make sure their loyalty etc.. but in real world, can 'trust' be something big like what have been exaggerated now?? dont get me? hmmm.. how to xplain this... i had come across a few 'tips kebahagiaan' or ape2 yg swaktu dgnnya.. n trust will surely b in 1 of them.. hmmm... suddenly felt so mls to cont my xplanation.. after all it's not related to me at all.. :D

i realised that i dont normally write when i'm in great condition.yeah,everything is great now.altho not as perfect as sometime before... i spent my time doing things i've always long for..reading novels,watching tv,gossipping,eating n sleeping... my 24hr seems to b full. but my laziness still win over all other things. i didnt do the cleaning,mopping,sweeping etc..but at least i ORDERED my sis to do all those work..they shud be really thankful to have a wonderful big sis like me who knows to delegate tasks very well...can u count how many sis in the world who knows to delegate works?majority of them only know to do the works themselves..why dun they adopt my way...DELEGATE!hihihihi...wonder why..wonder how..

siannye nye blog ku ini..busy la.. tak smpt nk rase bosan utk tulis2 kat sinih.. so far, evrything is so great...yeah great. and almost perfect...

foods yg dh rase sjak balik :

1. roti tampal n roti sardin
2. nasi kerabu
3. nasi berlauk
4. pulut yg warne coklat tuh
5. sgale masakan raye : rendang, ketupat, satay n etc
6. tomyam cik
7. nasi lemak ayam pg

wuaaa bestnye makan..takkan same kalo wat sendri kat oz..pastuh there's one more yg nk mkn..tp tk smpt bli mase balik kb arituh...iaitu.. jala emas n buah tanjung.. *gulp*gulp*

last night in halls

why in the world i need days to finis packing?soo stress about packing as if i'm taking an xm... okey, tomorrow at this time of the day i'll b the happiest person in the world... :D welcomed by my beloved family at the KLIA. but wut am i doing now? i'm supposed to wash all the dishes n clothes n pack them up already. i've been procrastinating for days already.. but this is the last call, by hook or by crook i need to do it tonite.. erm.. this is the last nite i'll b in halls.. bye bye halls.. it's not really big thing being in halls except that i don have to think about the bills... hot-showering for hours without bothering the dollars.. computers r on 24/7.. drying clothes without calculating n etc... so.. nxt yr i really have to b wise with my dollars.. dont forget ur dream,nyang.. jpon la.. mesir la... oz tour.. okies need to stop.. sth came up.. to b contd....

can u smell the summer?

erm..it's very tiring to write about yesterday's osce..can just wait n tawakkal..after the osce we went to the Den@library.. had latte..then got headache..what a combination! today went to DFO.tomorrow going to the city for baklava... wuaaa packing is soo not fun!!!

'stop, in the name of love..before u break my heart'

ok,that's obviously not my line..

Dengan menyebut nama Allah yg Maha Pemurah lg Maha Penyayang

1. BUKANKAH KAMI TELAH MELAPANGKAN UNTUKMU DADAMU?
2. DAN KAMI TELAH MENGHILANGKAN DARIPADAMU BEBANMU
3. YANG MEMBERATKAN PUNGGUNGMU
4. DAN KAMI TINGGIKAN BAGIMU SEBUTAN NAMAMU
5. KERANA SESUNGGUHNYA SESUDAH KESULITAN ITU ADA KEMUDAHAN
6. SESUNGGUHNYA SESUDAH KESULITAN ITU ADA KEMUDAHAN
7. MAKA APABILA KAMU TELAH SELESAI DARI SESUATU URUSAN,KERJAKANLAH DENGAN SUNGGUH-SUNGGUH URUSAN YANG LAIN
8. DAN HANYA KEPADA TUHANMULAH HENDAKNYA KAMU BERHARAP

i cant wait to write about more cheerful things other than stressful exam stuff.i just need to wait for 2 more days..after that..yeeeehaaaa...cant wait...cant wait... act i need to sleep now coz i need a night-sleep, but i couldnt close my eyes.. i've been under that quilt for more than 1hr.. so i decided to do some more works... wuaaaaaaaaaaa.........risau........... jgn la ngantuk mase OSCE nanti....

exam freak

i havent write anything since the xm. it's not really bcoz i'm busy practising OSCE...it's more like i'm busy freaking out. i've wasted 5days after the exam ronggeng2 watching all sorts of things..cite indon,japanese,movies,etc..maybe i was still in the state of denial bcoz the OSCE's stem was so not fair... it's so much of talking.. there's no bonus station like CPR or other clinical skills.station 1&2 needs us to perform clinical xm to the shoulder and back and leg. and the stem was quite confusing bcoz we r'nt really sure whether we need to do the neuro or musculoskeletal xm. wuaa.. station 3...hmmm..we r the GP,the patient has all sorts of medical condition..bipolar affective disorder,cataract,cardiac failure,osteoarthritis...we need to talk about his driving.. he involved in a few accidents n bla blabla.. maybe bcoz of his cataract or bipolar..nout sure.. i'm afraid of he'll be a 'hard' patient... i'm worried if i stuck halfway lost of words to continue the conversation bcoz there wasnt really any fixed script for this station.i'm really not good in conversation.. really, even in real life i cant bring the conversation on if i'm with ppl i din know. station5..she's a medical student..need to talk about the craig hassed's stuff... basically the ESSENCE.. dont forget to ask the caffeine q.. hahahah.. for this one i really need tp wtite down n make a structure of the conversation in case i got stuck.. station 6.. this one should e really easy for the locals. it's HOPC station for leg pain..arhhhh.. i'm really scared... oki sarah, dont forget to ask 'is there anyhting else u wanna share with me?'... and lastly station 7.. MSE station..wuaa... never expect this station.. evrybody was surprised bcoz they was never in the osce in past yrs.. ok, just relax... just carry the conversation untilthe 5th minutes.. then we have to report to the examiner.. that list of things shud be memorised by tonite... i'm really scared..

ya Allah, guide me..

then what will we have to say.. for busy life void of mercy...

stress

saye sgt takut skrg nih

sdikit tensi (sdikit je?)

esok sudah exam

saye blom bace :

law n ethics

sociology

MSE

saye juge risau kalo2 sleeping habit saye takle dibaiki pd mlm pekse... n saye juge risau jika kecepatan pemikiran terjejas dgn tido yg tdo btol ini!!!!

2 days before exam

i received a shocking news last nite.adi involved in an accident a day before raya.he's still in ICU. cant open his eyes n cant talk. he's in critical condition.quite worried about him but cant do anything besides doa. worried about jun as well.she didnt sleep last nite after the news till subuh.she was crying all nite.i cant think of anything to console her.i knew that i'm not good at it. but i'll always be there for her if she needs anything.worried about her coz she cant concentrate on studying.the exam will be on the day after tomorrow. i went to library alone today,thinking of getting jun kebab.i know she wouldnt eat anything.but i bought nasi instead bcoz kebab's stall was closed. went to jun's room. i know i have nothing to say, but i just want to keep her company. just listen to whatever she wanna say. it was just like the cerpen2 i read.. but in the cerpen the hero will fully recovered at last. i hope for that cerpen-like ending for adi n jun. they are besfrens. nobody wanna lose the besfren,rite. i will also b like jun if i'm in jun's shoes. nauzubillah.

at the library... desks in the quite study area are all occupied. hurrm... monashians become nerdies ^_^. so i just take a seat at the desk in front of the group-study room. i can see the ppl going to the end side of the library where i always sit. and.... suddenly....huhuhu.. kakak-tok-nyang passed by... hurmm, i was wondering whether tok-nyang was also in the library.n wondering whether i overlooked him at that end-side of the library... after enough wondering, i moved on with my studies. there's still alot to do!! this sem's craig hassed's, revisit muscles n pharmaco , ian's MSE... and again, suddenly, kakak-tok-nyang walked pass in front of me.. i was looking at her n she saw me.. she waved her hand.. said hi.. n i waved back.. i tot she'll just gonna leave but... she came to my desk n ask how i'm going... then she said she's doing the pharmaco n 'that's not very exciting'.. yeah, pharmaco isnt very exciting when exam is just 2 days away... she said good luck before she left.. hmmm... it's weird how she can affect me although she's only the 'kakak'.. ^_^ chaiyo2!!!

kapal pecah

saye takkan kemas bilik sampai exam

saye mls

saye hanya akan basuh pinggan nasi sahaja

bekas2 sume tidak perlu disusun

quilt tak perlu dilipat sampai rabu

lalalalala

too much studying is really not good for me~

i cud be insane

but a pt to be argued is.. have i really studied too much??

i shud say i havent.to b honest.

how can u have too much study when u can finised hundreds of drama episodes??

to do some maths.. 1 episode = approx 1hr

1 series = approx 15 episodes

5 series = 1 x 15 x 5 = how many hours have i wasted??

that's if i watched 5series, while the fact is i have loss count the series i watched.

but obvioulsy more than 5!

okay, put it more positively, the time is not wasted but just not being used more productively.

sleeping could aslo be productive bcoz u could wake up fresh n move on with life effectively after that.

so i've sacrificed hundreds of hours on the drama.

the justification is - i need refreshements n i cant sleep without them.

whatever la sarah, let bygone be gone.

but, i think today i'm gonna watch 3 more fullhouse !!

just hoping that it wont affect my results~

hmm.. rethink bout it, how can u tawakkal when ur usaha is not enough

but how do u know u had usaha enough??

*sigh*sigh*

~jgn mengeluh~