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29 June 2010

sgt byk tekanan idup sampai tkde mood nk tulis pape
sbb byk sgt bende nk tulis
tekanan idup utama adelah nk jual kete tp tk laku2 lg
dh 2minggu lg je nk balik mesia :((
tertekan!!!
nsb baik ade paih
die la satu2 nye perkara yg menggembirakan skrg nih
bukan la paih tuh menggembirakan sampai gelak stp masa....haha
tp he's the only good thing happening to me at the moment
in fact he's the best gift in my life.
bukannye tk pnah gaduh
stp mlm pon ade berlawan kata2 sbnrnye sbb saye ngade2
lg2 dgn tekanan skrg, lg senang saye nk terasa ati
gaduh tk semestinye tanda tk syg kan
tekanan lain dlm idup adelah  nk temuduga SPA
mmg la bole main hentam je
tp ikut rezeki la jugak kan dpt sape jd interviewer
pls jgn tanye sgt detail2
saye tk smpt nk prepare
ade exam jumaat nih
utk exam tuh nk ready pon kdg2 ter pk tekanan2 idup yg lain sampai buang masa saye
tekanan lain adalah termasuk keje2 modules yg ntah bile nk present
dokter2 saye sgt sibuk
n die pon sgt cerewet
cuak ok!
tk tenaaaang......

26 June 2010

:))

alhamdulillah setakat nih sume lancar :))

dh lame tk berblog..sorority life pon tk main sgt
bukannye ape, wayar internet tk cukup panjang utk berinternetan...
skrg nih plak nekad nk start buat past yr CKT tuh
tp sblum tuh konon2 kene gak updet blog
26 June kan!!!!
syg sekali saya tiada
tp biarla
nk tunggu saye ade, tertangguh la sume2 plak kan

stakat nih masih belom dpt gmbr2 dr ibah lg sbb asyik error je td
tatau masalah pada connection saye ke or pada ym version yg saye baru install smalam
plg lawak adalah ibah tuh g rekod perbincangan2 penting org tua2
mmg menjalankan tugas reporter dgn baiknye!



22 June 2010

21 June 2010

i hate presenting this.
i like my learning experience with the team
but i hate the sucking-up part..
cant we just deal with the condition
and forget all those hierarchies and politics of impressing the superiors
cant we just do things with a pure sincerity..without the intention of showing off..

15 June 2010

lirik lagu the climb nih sentiasa menyentuh jiwa saye
especially skrg
sbb start2 ayat die tuh kan ckp 'i can almost see it, that dream i'm dreaming'
yelaa..dh dkt2 nk grad nih kan mcm2 perasaan ade
sume org yg dh start intern sume ckp hargai masa2 jd student
tp bile kite tgh jd student ofkos tk sbr nk grad
ye laa..dh grad rase secure skit kan...
mmg lirik the climb tu sgt mendalam
sbb mcm sgt berusaha gilee
ofcourse i'm enjoying my course
it's my passion
but sometimes things just went out of ur control
sometimes u are stuck with tasks u dont like
tasks that arenot even ur job in the 1st place
i really2 like clinical medicine and physiology
but i think i'm quite stressed out with my current reg
she's very2 nice
but i think her mind is quite rigid once she fixed her mind on something
she's not open new information
i always looks like a complete confused student in front of her
eg: when she taught us about cortical and subcortical stroke,
i told her that i only knew about cortical and subcortical dementia
she said that she havent heard of cortical and subcortical dementia and she thinks that there's no such thing
i looked like a complete fool infront of her
but the truth is....cortical and subcortical dementia do exist!!! 
everytime i came across them again during my reading, i kept thinking about her and how she looked down upon me
i cant understand how she could not know about the dementia categorisation
she's going to be a geriartrician in a few years time!
it's not that i looked down on her now, but i could appreciate her more if she showed some interest in finding things out instead of just dismissing my opinion
she kept shutting my info off
as if i dont know things
hello, i know my physiology ok!
another occasion is our discussion about incontinence
i better not start on that
i'm soo pissed off!


hati dirobek..

seriously nk nangissss
homesickkkk
tk tahaaaannnn....
keje banyaaaaakkkk....
sblum nih pnah je ade keje jauh lg byk tp tk seteress mane pon...
saye rase saye makin byk dosa kot...
tuh yg hati bergelora tk tenang...
esok nk pose!
nk kene bersihkan jiwa
yaAllah, ampunilah dosa2ku...

14 June 2010

saye rindu adik...
saye suke adik nyanyi utk saye
saye save gmbr tuh utk sabotaj adik :D
mase tuh saye suruh adik nyanyi lagu jaclyn victor tuh
'ku berjalan di bawah pohon asmara'
adik ofkos kene berjoget2 kan kalo nyanyi lagu tuh
mlm2 yg saye tk lena tdo mmg saye pasang earphone n suruh adik nyanyi utk saye
saye mmg sunyi tdo sorg.. :(

12 June 2010

1908

look what i found while i was researching for the exam
102 year-old journal!
i still cant get around myself on thinking how things were done in 1908
it seems so far far far away in the lost time for me
never thought they even have the journal that looks so academic like this
but ofcourse la, it makes sense kan
things dont just suddenly 'boom!' and invented kan
it's only 100 yrs back (only eh?)
to get to what we've reached now, 1908 musnt be that old kan

Lending a Cashmere Jacket in The Winter Peak Hours - unforgettable

life is soooo stressful right now
i think my brain is not working enough due to exhaustion of thinking too much about side problems..
my mind rarely goes wild seeing things around me these days..
that means i'm sooooo un reactive..
usually my mind couldnt stop criticising everything around me
anything at alll
but i'm more of a 'noble gas' right now; hence the emptiness of my blog

the only interesting thing happened around me was on the way back from the city after the dementia visit,
the train stopped at Carnegie for a while and suddenly they said that they will be there for a little longer because one of the passenger in front carriage collapsed and they were waiting for the ambulance
then we decided to get out from our carriage and have a look at the collapsed person
there were a huge crowd outside the carriage and few people doing something around a person who was lying on the floor
we dont know whether he's conscious or not
it will be different management if he's unconscious
there's one other med student with us asking around about the person's conscious level
but i was so put off by a bystander who said
'why do u need to ask that.. isnt that enough to know there's somebody sick on the floor..give him a privacy'
OMG kerek macik nih
ckp leklok bole tak
macik tuh tatau pon sape2 adelah sape kan
manela tau ade yg kami bole tolong ke ape kan
so budak tuh ckp 'we want to know because if tehre;s something we can help with'
n macik tuh kerek gile ckp 'there;s nothing u can do, there's already ppl helping him out there'
OMG (lg!!).. 1stly, we dont even know whether yg keliling org tuh tlg tuh ade medical bakcground ke tak
sbb ofkos la sume org akan tolong kan sbb that's ethics!
2ndly, macik tuh tatau pape jgn byk ckp bole tak.
but me and adlina sticked out for a little while longer
then they brough him out from the carriage so that the train could leave because it's peak hour 5pm and there'a already queue of trains behind us!
then other people get back into the train
we still stick around
he was soo cold and severely shivering  being outside
ofkos la! it's winter and he hadnot got thick jacket or anything because it has been used to alas the platform for him to lie
so i take off my thick cashmere long jacket and put it on him
and another bystander spare him his jacket as well
he was still shivering
we were still waiting for the ambulance to come
only 2 other people left
we stayed in case there;s a need for resuscitation or anything
i dont know how to describe the feeling of self accomplishments after lending a hand to the people in need
i know i didnt do much but the slightest care to stay is big enough for me if i was the patient
we did even let go few trains after that just to make sure he's alright
we hoppped on the train again after the paramedics arrived
the patient even said thanks
the other volunteer also said thanks
we rode the train with mixed feelings.
i'll never forget this experence.

(i dont even have time to explain about the patient's condition)
it's the feelings that counts.

10 June 2010

yaAllah...kuatkanlah hatiku menempuh dugaan ini...
tenangkanlah hatiku
ujian2 nih utk igtkan saye supaya jgn lalai sgt
jgn happy sgt kot...
tp mmg stress sampai sakit kpale..
bende2 tuh sume org nmpk bende kecik
tp org yg senang risau mcm saye mmg sakit kpale
sbb semua masalah mcm takle nk selesai terus
semua luar kawalan saye
kdg2 rase down gile n mcm tk sedap hati sgt
hati tk tenang
:(

07 June 2010

Saye nk jd dokter yg baik kpd medical student la nanti

sebelum g skolah rase cuak kot2 reg baru tk best..
tp alhamdulillah..reg sgt baik
die suke mengajar gak sbb die stress nk clinical exam plak...
die nk  buat prektis on all cardio n neuro patients 
so selamat la saye tayah buat :p
last week liat la nk admit patient bile pk kene examine patients..
idung saye tersumbat
n saye ade sdikit sakit2 kpale sbb mcm rase panas kpale kan
pg2 mase drive nk g spital tuh mmg niat di hati nk buat muka tagih simpati
harap2 ade dokter yg ckp 'u r not looking good today..why dont u just go back n rest' ke ape kan
tp sampai2 je spital tgk2 resident saye lg la tk sihat
die siap ade flu lg the whole weekend
die dtg jugak harinih pon sbb die tk sampai hati reg baru nk orientate diri sendiri
sure kalut satu ward kalo resident tuh tk dtg arinih
jd terpaksa la saye yg sakit kpale nih blagak2 lg sihat kan
tp best sbb die blanja hot choc arinih
tp hot choc zouki tk sedap
reg tuh baik gile..mase die examine patients, die suke tanye soalan
n die awal2 dh ckp 'if u dont know, that's ok..i'll tell u'
die sbnrnye saje nk buat running commentary nye examination
so it works both way la kan
saye untung die pon untung
spanjang saye buat aged care nih mmg saye rase sgt menarik
sbb org2 tua kan ade sume penyakit
so luasla skit scope pembelajaran saye
even mase kat general medical ward arituh pon tk blaja sebanyak  nih
ye la, sume patient ade sakit jantung, sakit tulang, sakit buah pinggang, deranged LFT, bla bla bla
so di pk2kan balik mmg review the whole general medicine la kan
tp td mmg saye agak terkilan tk look impressive dpn consultant tu
die mmg baik hati gile
tp napeelaaaa saye tk pk panjang skit
kalo dh kene tanye on the spot tuh mmg main hentam je
die tanye nape queitiapine and sinemet takle bg same
saye pon ckp queitiapine tuh antipsychotics so ia adalah DOPAMINE AGONIST
and sinemet tuh adelah levodopa
so saye cam buat2 pk dpn diorg n ckp 'so there might be a state of hyperdopaminsm'
hahahahah i'm making fool of myself
firstly there's no such word as hyperdopaminsm as far as i know
secondly...saye silap perhitungan...antipsychotis are not dopamine agonist
it's a DOPAMINE ANTAGONIST!!!
camane bole silap ckp ntah tu!!!
tp takpela...dokter tuh baik
n die takkan jd supervisor saye pon :p
aduh smangat plak pk psl ward aged care nih
sbb sume org baik
tp in a few weeks time saye akan stress
sbb in 3 weeks time saye akan kene present case
pastuh saye akan stress sbb mls bace buku
ade cKT exam on 2july
org ckp takde org pon yg fail bende tuh
n org ckp bende tuh tk affect graduation pon
tp takkan la tk studi kan
*sigh*

06 June 2010


saye sedang cube stadi ok :p
ofkos kalu tgh hangat stadi mmg lg hangat main blog sbnrnye :p
kalo jarang tulis blog tuh tandanye tgh hangat nonton je :p

The Date

tersedar harinih 6Jun!!
it was supposed to be the day 'ore mari tanyo'
tp dh postponed ke 26Jun plak sbb ade spupu2 belah sane kenduri n etc in these coming 2 weeks
tp masih tetap meaningful gak rupenye sbb arinih en.PaRah bersama ibunye keluar ke kedai
'ke kedai' kata ibunya kpd ibuku td
hahahah
en.PaRah tk smpat nk mms hasil belian sbb ibunya terus menyimpannya
takpe2..bg seprais skit :)
tidak sabarnyee saye
tk sbr nk balik
tp...sesungguhnya saye kat sinih ade pelbagai lg utk ditempuhi
nk jual kete lg 
nk pk masalah kewangan saye lg :p
saye rase mcm semua masalh bertimpa2
kalo tiada encik PaRah dan angan2 saye yg sentiasa menemani saye, mmg kelam laa pandangan
tp ape2 pon insyaAllah semua akan lancar2 sahaja...

Bebelan Orang Bersalah

good job sarah!! good job!!
berjaya spent the whole wiken dlm quilt je!!
tk bace buku!!
camane nk balik serve the people nih??
huhuhu
tp mmg rase nk berehat je
dgn sakit tekak dan idung tersumbat camnih mmg laa...
duk terbayang2 reg baru esok camane laa
mane la nk cari team yg ade 'extra module' mase lunch break
jumaat arituh satu team duk main eyeliner dlm staff nye toilet
resident tuh kan india, mmg pandai sgt la bab2 pakai eyeliner nih
reg kite duk jerit2 tk reti pakai
hahahaha
let's see tomorrow. saye akan try pakai ikut ajaran resident itu
and i'll assure her that by lunch time they will all be smeared...
maybe the trick is by using liquid eyeliner..
tp tuh mcm susah la utk kite kan yg kene amik wuduk tghari2
tk kuasa la kan nk bawak cotton wipes n makeup remover g skolah
beria sgt tuh
dpt break nk smayang pon dh cukup baik kan
owh btw saye nih telah mengamalkan gaya idup tk sihat dh skrg
nk suspend gym nye membership sbb tk smpt nk g dh skrg sibuk sgt
n mlm2 dh mls nk kuar
gelap sejuk!!!
pastuh dh start duk stock up megi dlm cabinet
mentang2 tk exam kan
tp mmg sentiasa lapar
tepaksa
kalo tk beli megi, nanti lapar2 ade plak nk kuar g mkn
lg bankrupt kalo camtuh kan
takpela...gemuk pon gemuk laa...
akan gemuk gak camane2 pon sbb dh nk balik mesia
nih plak saye tk sbr nk mkn...
nk yg freshly baked from the oven
tp arituh resepi from cookie bible tuh tk jd sgt
tk sure sbb resepi ke or sbb butter tk cukup sesuai temperature ke or sbb saye yg stuffed them up

oh saye baru dpt idea mengapa this whole wiken saye tk wat keje lgsg
sbb saye nonton cite korea kot
sbb kalo saye duk tgk chuck ke castle ke desperate housewives ke or mane2 cite mlayu bodoh2 (saye bukan ckp org mlayu bodoh, tp saye suke cite2 ngokngek je yg mlayu..cite2 mlayu yg cube berlagak cerdik agak tidak sesuai dgn saye),
sure saye still bole bace buku sambil dgr skrip
nih kalo tgk cite korea smbil bace buku mmg konfem la dua2 bende tk masuk
lgpon skrg saye overwhelmed tatau nk bace ape...
kalo mase saye ED arituh saye tau la nk aim abiskan buku ED
tp aged care nih mcm keseluruhan medicine
so ofkos la sbijik buku davidson itu diperlukan kan
so tau takkan dpt abis bace
sukar utk pilih....
patut consider buat modules
tp mase kat skolah je rase semangat
dh balik rumah tk kuasa nk buat modules
so saye plan nk stay kat spital stp hari ptg2
insyaAllah dpt siap..amiiin....

04 June 2010

saye sekarang berada dlm common room
sperti biasa utk menjimatkan ink sendiri, print berbondong2 artikel di spital ni aje
i realised that i havent said anything about the new rotation
AGED care!!!
some ppl might think this is like a holday rotation - (at least my previous supervisor does!)
it's too early to say anything
of course i had great week so far
the reg and resident are GREAT!! SUPERB!
most comfortable team i've ever had so far.
but...it's too good to  be true...
the resident is finishing soon..maybe 1 more week..
i dont wanna have high expectations on the replacing resident - dont wanna be heartbroken.
and the reg will be rotating next week to another ward.
this is irreplacable!!!