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30 October 2006

stress

saye sgt takut skrg nih
sdikit tensi (sdikit je?)
esok sudah exam
saye blom bace :
law n ethics
sociology
MSE
saye juge risau kalo2 sleeping habit saye takle dibaiki pd mlm pekse... n saye juge risau jika kecepatan pemikiran terjejas dgn tido yg tdo btol ini!!!!

2 days before exam

i received a shocking news last nite.adi involved in an accident a day before raya.he's still in ICU. cant open his eyes n cant talk. he's in critical condition.quite worried about him but cant do anything besides doa. worried about jun as well.she didnt sleep last nite after the news till subuh.she was crying all nite.i cant think of anything to console her.i knew that i'm not good at it. but i'll always be there for her if she needs anything.worried about her coz she cant concentrate on studying.the exam will be on the day after tomorrow. i went to library alone today,thinking of getting jun kebab.i know she wouldnt eat anything.but i bought nasi instead bcoz kebab's stall was closed. went to jun's room. i know i have nothing to say, but i just want to keep her company. just listen to whatever she wanna say. it was just like the cerpen2 i read.. but in the cerpen the hero will fully recovered at last. i hope for that cerpen-like ending for adi n jun. they are besfrens. nobody wanna lose the besfren,rite. i will also b like jun if i'm in jun's shoes. nauzubillah.
at the library... desks in the quite study area are all occupied. hurrm... monashians become nerdies ^_^. so i just take a seat at the desk in front of the group-study room. i can see the ppl going to the end side of the library where i always sit. and.... suddenly....huhuhu.. kakak-tok-nyang passed by... hurmm, i was wondering whether tok-nyang was also in the library.n wondering whether i overlooked him at that end-side of the library... after enough wondering, i moved on with my studies. there's still alot to do!! this sem's craig hassed's, revisit muscles n pharmaco , ian's MSE... and again, suddenly, kakak-tok-nyang walked pass in front of me.. i was looking at her n she saw me.. she waved her hand.. said hi.. n i waved back.. i tot she'll just gonna leave but... she came to my desk n ask how i'm going... then she said she's doing the pharmaco n 'that's not very exciting'.. yeah, pharmaco isnt very exciting when exam is just 2 days away... she said good luck before she left.. hmmm... it's weird how she can affect me although she's only the 'kakak'.. ^_^ chaiyo2!!!

28 October 2006

kapal pecah

saye takkan kemas bilik sampai exam
saye mls
saye hanya akan basuh pinggan nasi sahaja
bekas2 sume tidak perlu disusun
quilt tak perlu dilipat sampai rabu
lalalalala
too much studying is really not good for me~
i cud be insane
but a pt to be argued is.. have i really studied too much??
i shud say i havent.to b honest.
how can u have too much study when u can finised hundreds of drama episodes??
to do some maths.. 1 episode = approx 1hr
1 series = approx 15 episodes
5 series = 1 x 15 x 5 = how many hours have i wasted??
that's if i watched 5series, while the fact is i have loss count the series i watched.
but obvioulsy more than 5!
okay, put it more positively, the time is not wasted but just not being used more productively.
sleeping could aslo be productive bcoz u could wake up fresh n move on with life effectively after that.
so i've sacrificed hundreds of hours on the drama.
the justification is - i need refreshements n i cant sleep without them.
whatever la sarah, let bygone be gone.
but, i think today i'm gonna watch 3 more fullhouse !!
just hoping that it wont affect my results~
hmm.. rethink bout it, how can u tawakkal when ur usaha is not enough
but how do u know u had usaha enough??
*sigh*sigh*
~jgn mengeluh~

27 October 2006

a few entries previously r taken from dakwah-info.com
it has been a while i didnt go there.
i didnt go for jemaah prayer tonite, really feel guilty.
but i was late.
astarfighullah.
so to ease my mind, i went to dakwah-info.
just realised how lagha i was recently.
~moga air mata ini bisa menjd saksi~
usaha semata tidak bernilai di sisi Allah jika kita hanya mengharapkan usaha kita sedangkan kita lupa untuk meletakkan Allah sebagai yang Menentu.
Jangan sekali kita meletakkan usaha kita menjadi neraca hasil kerana bukankah itu seolah kita mengiktiraf diri kita bagaikan berkuasa dan tidak perlu mengharap pada Ilahi?.
Andai inilah yang kita lakukan, secara sendirinya kita menghitamkan hati kita dengan riya’ dan takabbur.
Sedangkan hasil suatu itu adalah ketentuanNya,
nikmatnya untuk memberikan menurut pertimbanganNya.
Mungkin terjadi, mungkin tidak
Betapa bertuahnya kita menerima hidayah Allah swt di samping ramai lagi manusia di sekeliling kita. Kita juga telah dipilih Allah untuk memahami suatu pemahaman Islam di mana ramai orang Islam masih kabut dengannya. Kita telah dipersilakan Allah utk berjuang di jalanNya sedangkan tidak ramai orang Muslim yang mengetahui tanggungjawabnya. Allah telah merahmati kita dengan satu jalan yang tidak ramai mereka yang boleh bersabar dengannya, jalan tarbiyyah ke arah mardhatillah. Sedangkan ramai umat Islam masih terkapai mencari solusi permasalahan peribadi mahupun permasalahan antarabangsa.
Ya Allah..sudilah pandang kami yang tidak berharga ini..jadikanlah kami hambamu yang terpilih…
urusan kesurirumahtanggaan
~domestic chores~
lalalalalala

library

yeyey~berjaya spent the whole ptg kat library
eventho my ptg started quite late
woke up at 12++ /nearly 1pm :D
so went to library at about 2
was thinking not to go at 1st coz it's raining
tp rintik2 je. bole je nk test payung baru kan :p
then it stopped.
in-room-study is extremely slow
so at last, went to library.
alhamdulillah finished all theme3 lecture notes
(except for cranial nerves coz it's too long)
but stil a lot to memorise.
aslo returned ken jones' green book.
so for tonite... epidemiology n summary notes!!
wah, when's anat?????

26 October 2006

"yaAllah, lapangkanlah dada hambaMu ini"
takutnyeeeeeeee saye nk exam.
takut.it's not that i didnt study but i'm not confidence with the berkah of what i did.
i've been watching drama for months.
cant be helped.
now on ken jones abnormal behaviour.
printed the summary n hope can finish it by tomorrow.
i need to keep going.
need to move on to anatomy really soon!!!!
Allahumma najjihna pi kulli imtihaaan..
najjaahan mumtaazan baahiran.
hihihi, here's the explanation for previous entry
the pic isnt related to the words
the words r from hye-won when he told min-hyuk that she's gonna stop loving him
she's gonna let him go
not related to me as well
but it just captured my attention
esp the words 'i kinda respect myself too'.
aja aja!fighting!
i'm all over him~he's the perfect bf~but not perfect husband la

ok, i missed special entry for raya
nothing much happened, but all events r meaningful.
the smayang raye was extraordinarily best.
perut buncit the whole day!!
but 2nd day ade lecture n spent in library
3rd day pon kat library
today is the 4th day.. supposedly kat library jugak, tp ngantuk.
hopefully bole spent spjang ptg kat library gak la esok.
really need to finish revising theme3
wuaaa, craig's, ken jones', epi, anat!!!

20 October 2006

new baby

Welcoming Umar Al-Faruq to the world.
congrats kak ana n husband. 3.7kg healthy baby boy is such a bless.
cant wait to see Muhammad b Abdullah but i didnt buy anything for him yet.
cik lalah will definitely find something for u.
okay, havent done any reading yet today =(
missed imaging lecture - overslept.
pcl was so damn bored but ok more informational than with susan.
last sem's pcl party is so much more fun.
but elliot's cake was ok.only that it's too sweet.
the interview was ok.
didnt prepare anything for it, so hentam je.
but, only at this pt realised that 'city of monash' isn't suitable for me.
i din like working in the office like that.
i want more hands-on. i mean not in the project.
i tot cpp will just b like CAS.
but it is definitely not~
i really wanna go on the field.
meals on wheels, respite care, home care~they all sounds interesting.
i dont wanna be the one in the office working out the plan.
i just wanna be out there caring for them
*sigh*
focus group ~ our next yr's project. whoa, really not my thing~
i can imagine that i'm really gonna hate it.
tuesday will b a nitemare.
okeh2, good part.
went to the glen.
cant be helped. spent.
but it's for the good cause.
purse for my Tok $65~hope Tok will like it~genuine handcrafted leather tuh Tok~
bought 'cakes&sponges' book ^_^
jgn hangat2 taik ayam nk wat kek ye.
also bought 2 nike cute little backpack~light blue n light pink~sgt cute
lastly, bought auto umbrella~pink~
ops, not to forget, deliciously thick raisin toast~
nantuks~really worried that i didnt spent much time on study.
tomorrow afternoon need to go out to clayton.
need sarawan.chicken.
also wanna have a good morning sleep (read : don wanna wake up too early. 10 or 11 is fine. u r too much la sarah).. but the prob is, i'll get stressed out every time after i woke up that late. but the fact is that i really love that sleep. sleeping in the morning is one of the most precious nikmat that i have to thank to Allah.
raye~i'm not really in the mood to celebrate.
okeh, truth : i wanna celebrate it but not here n now.
i cant wait to be back at home~raye~
heaps more studying need to be done.
weekly lecture notes, epidemiology, anatomy, pharmacology neal, ken jones n craig

19 October 2006

yeyey, just finished 32cups of honey cornflakes for tomorrow's pcl farewell party =))
will feel guilty if i come empty-handed.
dahla slame nih jd passenger je.
a very quiet innocent passenger :D
~tomorrow : cpp interview & g bank~
erm, wut shud i bluff about aged care??
okey, how shud u answer to why r u interested in volunteering at the community based aged care when ur main reason is just bcoz it's the course's requirement?
ok la fine, put more sincerity bcoz u r not really forced to.
it's ur choice to pass 2nd yr or to just stay in yr 1, rite.
why did i choose aged care?
bcoz it's the easiest i reckon.
the elders lg kurang songeh compared to teenagers.
u just need to keep them company while they keep talking about all sorts of things.
okies, wish me luck in tomorrow's interview ^_^
~mode : lagu raye~
planned to get to bed early.
but.plan is always a plan.
~good news : duit mara dh masuk~
confused : masuk 100% plak tuh..
okies sarah, jgn lupe plan utk nk jimat.
jgn lupe $3000~~~ hihihihi
rumah kami nanti cantik~
kak ana dah in labour.
welcome to the world, umar.
"setiap anak yg lahir adalah suci maka ibu bapanyalah yg mecorakannya samada menjadi seorang yahudi, nasrani atau majusi" - Riwayat Al-Imam At-Tabarani
o i dinno that he's evan.
my 1st impression about him wasnt a postive one coz..
i dono, it's just natural to think negative :p.
but after all, he's not that heartless n unfriendly person like i tot before.
actually, i'm also wondering why in the world am i writing about him.
ok, my justification is.. maybe bcoz i just know his name today.
n he was the tall guy in front of me in the liz's lecture that i was talking about yesterday.
he kind of made jokes to me during the lecture.
n he was also the guy with tok nyang when 'nyang, tok nyang & cadaver'.
hahaha.
he's not really significant tho.

it's hard

alhamdulillah i let giha to have that seat.
but still,it's hard.
it tests ur lacrimal gland,really.
'oh si baju hijau belang putih sluar kuning'

18 October 2006

just finished the table for drugs at adrenoceptors.~today's lecture~

talking about lecture, there r some ppl who come to the lecture just for the sake of coming. ok, we can put in a positive way 'o maybe they have good brain to integrate two things at the same time :talking to their frens while listening to the lecturer'.. but in fact, that's so impossible coz the lecture wasnt about ken jones stuff or craig hassed's.. it was about drugs n receptors will all the list of bla bla bla. if they dont want to listen, pls dont come~wow, that's harsh~ but seriously, it's quite annoying trying to elicit lecturer's voice in the midst of the noise. n to make it worst, today, i sat at the very back of the lecture theatre, with a rall guy in front of me blocking the slides, n all the distractions of ppl moving.. i love liz's lecture, but today... i missed half of it =(

~i'm sooooooo missing home~miss cite mlayu ^_^

i'm back

i'm having a mug of coffee~planning to stay up~lalala

i donno what call me back to be here.. i've always thinking of writing something here, but there's also something that stopped me*nightmare*..but maybe now i'm quite stress with the xm coming up a few more days, so i end up here.
donno why all of a sudden, i have a thought that i'm so grateful to be here..monash mbbs.. it's not that i wasnt grateful before, but i just tookit for granted.. i feel like 'i'm happy with bla bla bla..' but the thought just now was so different. i thought about how exciting medical course is, bcoz u got to meet a lot of ppl.. n the public will b involved every now n then throughout the course..yeah i know, that's quite lame reason to be excited about the course u r taking.. but i donno how to put it into words.. n i think what sparked the though was my today's neuro site visit. there was nothing special about that, but.. how to say.. erm.. ppl will say that i'm jiwang or etc, but, yeah, nothing is wrong with being sentimental, rite. the experience to be there at The Alfred.. discussing about neuro at that doc's lounge(or wuteva the real name of that room)... walking through the wards.. n everything la.. it's something really GREAT to be pondered upon.
erm, i dont think i'm getting my point clear here.. but who cares *_*

there's one time during sem 1 that i went 'if only i cud turn back the time, i wudnt have choosen to be here,medic monash'.. hahaha.. that was in a kind of distressful time of the sem.. i normally will utter that before theme 2 tutes.. yeah, theme 2 tutes were.. were.. *i don want to put a bad words here*...
this sem, there's no particular tutes that i'm so phobia of.. but, there's no tute that i'm really fond of.. i've persistently complaining about my tutes for this sem esp pcl... 'epi tutor was so not helpful la, pcl tutor was so boring la, n bla bla bla'.. astarfighullah.. that complains really show how ungrateful i am.i really shudnt!!! syukur with what u had now, coz u will only know that u have it when it's gone...

~okies dokies.. shud get back to my revision of population health notes~