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26 December 2010

:(

dah lame tk sempat updet...
baaanyak sgt bende nk upload tp overwhelmed
tp skrg nih mmg sgt tensiii
terpaksa gak luah
make-up artist saye tibe2 last minute die sendiri nk kawin gak on the same date!
tensi nye saye
bukan salah die utk kawin
tp it's tooo last minute
tertekan nyeee saye utk cari yg lain
and it's not something that bole main pilih je
kalo tukang buat langsir yg batalkan tak kisah la kan sbb camane pon jahit langsir tuh tetap same
tp ini make-up artist!!!
:(
:(
nape disebalik baaaaanyak sgt bende2 best
baaaaanyak sgt dugaan2
katil yg kami tempah from indon tuh patut dh sampai
tp tgk2 kat port klang arituh katenye katil saye tertinggal, tak terinclude dlm shipment tuh
aaaa tensi!
tp acik aih dh ckp kat tokey tuh yg camane2 pon die kene dptkan gak katil tuh!
tk kire from kedai kawan2 die seluruh malaysia nih ke ape ke
tertekan kan bende2 camnih
pastuh florist from cameron tuh mmg bg harapan palsu je arituh
mmg raye cine tak mungkin akan dpt bunge kalo kite nih stakat utk personal use
raye cine nih mmg sgt high demand and org2 kat cameron kate mmg tk mungkin dpt aa bunge tuh
tertekan kan?
so nak kene bli bunge from florist kat tanah2 rendah nih mmg sgt la mahal kan
RM1.25 sekuntum utk carnation
saye nk baaaanyak bunge...
so kene sediakan lebey $$$$
sedangkan sekarang mmg dh flat-broke!
mmg mengharapkan $$$$$ ayah ibu sahaja skrg nih :(


07 December 2010

Wishing Well

how i wish i am rich enough to entertain my parents leisurely as my graduation gift
how i wish i could drive them by the victorian coasts and enjoy the sceneries
how i wish i could take them to every single park and ride that i had been to
but there is only so much i can give..
people usually get things from other people for the graduation
but i think i need to do things the other way around
i owe my parents and family a lot for this ONE SCROLL
they have been my everything..everything!
but no, i am not rich enough
i am not rich enough, YET!
mami, baba, i will do my best to thank both of u..
as i think about this, my eyes cant stop raining..
both of you are my strength
i still remember few times i cried on the phone talking to u
i dont cry often
but i can still remember the few times i cried
the 1st one was in 2006 u went to UK and i couldnot call u
and i cried because i regretted having a half-hearted conversation when u called me
i was sleepy at that time and u r still wide awake in UK
i cried when i woke in the morning because i cant call u to tell u i was missing u
luckily u called me again the next evening and we both cant say much for the tears are pouring down heavily

then there was one time this year
i was soooo worried and unsettled thinking about how poor i was
and suddenly i was so unfortunate to get my windscreen bashed anonymously
and need to spend at least $400 on that
i am so flat-broke
i cried and cried and cried when i told u about this
but then u calm me down
u banked-in the money for me
i was soo guilty having u guys spending so much for me
because everything needs to be tripled in dollar
u calmed me down and said soothing words
'kok, Allah nak uji kita..kalau ujian nih masa kok ado duit, mesti kok tok terasa apa2..inilah tujuannya kok diuji skarang'
i was sobbing again 

if i have time, i'll write a book on ur parentings tales
sometimes Allah just want to show us the hard way for us to think
Alhamdulillah, thank you Allah for my mami and baba..

05 December 2010

kusut masai

saye sgt la overwhelmed ngan sume bende
mcm2 bende tk setel
the nearest adelah ketibaan family
dh try plan as detail as possible 
tp still la mcm resah gelisah takut miss pape sbb nanti saye dh takde komputer
and internet takde kot mase duk tumpang umah junior
kemudian ade grad
yg tuh takde hal sgt
tp cuak gak kalo takde byk gmbr2 best
kemudian akan risau psl shipping2 brg
masalahnye adelah sume bende akan pk $$$$ mengalir!!
aduh bikin gua pusing!

Am I??

hahah saye tergelak arituh asma' ckp saye sounds like a bridezilla
baru terpk 'aah la, ngade2 saye nih'
:))
tp saye tak pnah being b*tchy pon kat family saye
cume saye personally ade few requests
and saye kan jenis expressive..
tp for the umpteenth time saye sangat sangat sangat bertuah mempuanyai keluarga saye
mereka dh buat segalanya utk wedding saye
cume hal2 yg sendiri kene uruskan je tak brape nk smooth lg
sbb saye sendiri tk balik lg kan..

29 November 2010

ずっと愛しているから


dh staun lebey duk ingatkan external hard drive saye rosak
dh siap2 bukak ebay nk cari casing baru 
tp tgk2 bile cek tuh dh elok dh
pastuh jumpe file2 yg dah laaame sgt tk tgk..
mmg sgt2 la sentimental la bile tgk
natsukashi!!! 
banyak nyeee kenangan2..


26 November 2010

Merry Cherry!!


i cant wait to tell my kids
'dulu ibu jd kuli kat kilang cherry tau utk kawin ngan ayah'
:))
stp hari saye menghitung brape jam keje utk pk
'hmm..arinih nye gaji nk bli ape'





saye nih kan sentimental..
mmg stp hari rase terharu kat diri sendiri sbb berkorban demi nk tlg mami utk saye kawin :)
hahaha
seronok je duk survey2 pre-christmas sale td
tp masalah utama adelah stp bende saye akan pk
'eh ke bende nih ade lg murah kat mesia?'
kalo la beya tuh mmg duk keje tepi Sogo je tak kisah la kan bole mintak die survey stp hari
tp die sendiri pon sibuk..


saye plan nk bli yg nih...
namuuun, kite tunggu dulu ye kalo christmas btol2 nanti lg murah...
or kalo boxing day nanti murah lg..
kat mesia brape ek?
 
yeaay, kat mesia pon ade SALE!!!
so ape lg, beya la bertanggungjawab!
:))
rase haaaapppy sgt!!


23 November 2010

sooo kiut!!

if only i'm a millionaire.. 
i wouldnt mind spending thousands of dollars utk cute flowergirls like this..
soooo kiut!!

19 November 2010

Beribu-ribu Lemooon~

saye ade baanyak jumpe gmbr2...
cantik2..
saye google gmbr2 nih sume sbb nk cari idea..



mmg saye duk wonder la kan psl lime2 tuh sume...
adekah ia hanya utk rupa atau ade something else..
slame nih tau panadol je la kan...

then saye google..


ooo camtuh rupenye...
nanti nk kene cari lime2 yg cantik ah kat mesia
susah skit kot nk cari
kalo kat sinih kan kalo g kedai sayur tuh sume bende pon segar bugar mcm dlm cite katun
kat mesia tatau nape sume mcm tak mengembang..ade je yg berkeriput..

12 November 2010

mami ckp KKHomeDeco bukak cawangan baru kat kb!!
so mmg offer gile ah
byk bende half price
soooo SuTi dah belikan doorgift lg utk saye :))
and SuTi dah bli gak 10special doorgift utk VIP kat meja pengantin :))
and SuTi dah beli gak bakul/bekas utk hantaran
and mami pon dh ckp kat SuTi kalo nk start bli bunge2
i muaaaaah u al!!!
so the plan is...this weekend mmg siapkan btol2 plan sume
edit2 pages tuh..
betul2 edit website tuh
tp smple2 je la
yeaaaay!!

11 November 2010

brain


ward round td mcm sibuk gile je..
this week patientlist tibe2 exploded
ramai plak
tp td sume tk complex pon 
so lps dh g radiology sume tuh saye duk kat ward update bloods
saye tk phm sgt sorg reg saye tuh
die agak baik ngan saye
takdela saye baik ngan die
tp saye tk pnah kene pape ngan die walaupon die mcmlaser
tp die kdg2 buat remark yg saye tak suke
td mase saye tlg updet bloods tuh die ckp 
'oh very good sarah, u r helping with the bloods, u r not getting paid for that'
ayat tuh mcm best kan
tp cara die terkejut tuh mcm sblum nih saye tk pnah tlg pape
saye pon tak paham camane saye ade rase vibe tuh
sbb sblum nih pon arituh tgh kejar2 mase wardround
die ckp kat team 'come on guys,let's move on..'
pastuh saye je yg ikut die sbb org lain tgh menulis
pastuh die ckp la 'come on sarah, come..' dgn baik la
pastuh saye ckp kat die bed number utk next patient
pastuh die ckp 'u know where are we going next, u r very good' 
then die ckp kat reg sorg lg 'hey, sarah is very good, she knows what's next'
kalo ditulis camnih mmg rase mcm positif kan..
tp saye tatau nape saye rase mcm die perli
sbb bende2 yg saye buat tuh sgt la trivial..
so die nye pujian sgt la tk disproportionate
so saye rase insulted..i mean saye rase insulted sbb die mcm amaze ngan small things
so adekah die sgt ade sgt low expectations terhadap saye?
die tk pnah pun quizing2 saye...
tp arituh adela skali die ckp 
'ok sarah, tell me about appendicitis'
pastuh duk ckp2 tuh die interrupt n tanye ape symptom kalo utk org ade retrocaecal appendicitis
and die agak surprised/impressed bile saye jwb diarrhoea
serious mase tuh saye kecik ati...
bukannye ape..saye rase mcm die sgt ade low expectation kat saye kot..
soalan tuh saye tatau la susah ke ape...tp tak perlu kot nk terkejut saye dpt jwb..
sblum nih bukannye die penah quiz2 saye pon..so die tk patut judge saye
bukanla saye rase die patut pandang tinggi kat saye...
tp somehow ade rase insulted bile low expectations sgt...

aaand sblum nih saye mmg tk pnah sgt tulis dlm progress notes mase ward round sbb dah terlebih kakitangan dah
intern ade 3 org
and diorg slalunye efficient je
tp arinih sbb bz and sorg intern takde, 
ade few times yg saye the only junior 'doc' utk tulis notes
bile saye dh start tulis skit baru dtg intern
so intern bg je saye tulis
tp....tgh2 tuh si reg tuh mcm tegaskan kat intern utk mereka kene tulis sendiri
die nk accurate
saye tk kisah je die tanak student tulis..
tp kalo tk efficient die gak yg marah intern2
saye mmg penah dgr previously die penah yelled at 3rd yr student yg tulis notes
sbb tuh saye mmg bg intern je yg tulis
tp bile dh terpaksa mmg la kene tulis kan
aaa die nih confusing la, kejap baik, kejap tak baik
kejap die nk intern je buat sume keje, kejap lg die ckp
'sarah, help leo!' time tuh leo mmg dh tgk bende tuh pon
tk paham saye!!
previously bile saye yg tgk chart tuh die suruh intern sendiri yg tgk
tp bile intern dh tgk sendiri die suruh saye tlg plak
serious die pelik!
tp mmg intern pon ckp camtuh
so saye takdela take it personal sgt
 

otak saye dh half otak student half lg otak bride
saye jumpe gmbr tuh mase saye google2 
takdela accurate sgt gmbr tuh sbb 
  • saye takkan pk saye pretty dlm my dress sbb saye tau psl perut saye
  • saye takkan minum so saye takkan ade hangover
  • saye takkan tukar name
yg tepatnye adelah sbb
  • i love looking at my diamond ring :)
  • i dreeeeam about my groom all the time
  • i'm worried abt the dress-fitting  
  • i hope there wont be anything embarrassing happen
  • i am suuuuper stress abt the photographer
  • i really think this wedding-planning adventure is fun!!! 
so one more hurdle!!
tomorrow's presentation!!! 

10 November 2010

STRESS

tertekan sbb mcm takutt gile dh takde photgrapher yg best :((
rupe2nye photographer la yg org tempah awal2 ek
:((
sblum nih saye serah kat encik.paih la utk decide
tgk2 die tangguh2 dan tangguh 
last2 sume yg kitorg survey skrg dh penuh utk dates tuh
:((
camaneeeee
camaneeee
rase nk nangis...

Ibu Tuo

I am sooo blessed having My Ibu Tuo 
(i know everybody feels the same way towards their mom)
tp mmg saye rase saaangat blessed dpt mami yg sgt sejiwa
especially skrg nih mami la pening2 buat sume bende utk wedding saye
ape2 yg saye sendiri tak terpk pon mami dh buat
the latest update adelah mami tgh uruskan psl tokimam dtg rumah
mami contact TokkiSim
TokkiSim dah anta borang ke rumah saye dh
pastuh ptg nih encik.paih g amik borang tuh utk setel2 sume
bile saye msg yg saye lega dpt tokimam tuh mami msg
'ye laa, ibu tuo nih laa sokmo2 nyo pon'
haahah tuh ayat yg mmg slalu sgt mami utarakan
ibu, walaupon ibu dah tuo, tp ibu tetap muda dlm hatiku :)
ayah su juge sgt penting
ayahsu kan kene masak nasi special dio utk mlm nikah tuh :)
dan ayah su kene jd motivator utk SuTi siap2kan brg kawin saye :)

09 November 2010

Gilak gilak!

makin menjadi2 hasil google ku
makin menjadi2 la rase kekurangan $$$$$
tp tetap rase puas hati sbb at least ade impian2 
browse through bride.com pon bole gile...
dh nk penuh pendrive kot
pendrive saye berumur at least 6 tahun dah
zmn tuh dh kire canggih la kan 256MB..hahahaha
pandaikan saye jaga :p
pastuh plak baru terpk nk cari brg2 kat ebay
mmg baaanyak sgt choice especially brg2 from china
semua brg pon from china kan
so kire lg murah dr beli kat sinih
tp problemnya adelah saye tatau range kat mesia camane
takut balik nanti nyesal gile tgk kat mesia lg baaanyak gile range pastuh harge bole tahan



saye yg 'busy' nih kan mmg rajin
so saye buatla thank you tag tuh
dan saye tgh decide whether patut cari tempat printing sendiri ke tak utk thankyou tag tuh
takdela mahal pon kalo tempah
around $100-$200 utk 1000keping...


menarik2 gak tp rase takut membazir je sbnrnye kan sbb dh ade tempah something yg ade name PaRah
hmm...usaha lg sarah dlm mencari tempat print!

08 November 2010

Ada Apa Pada Nama

saye jumpe article menarik aa kat e-magazine arituh
article psl name2 org tua jd trendy balik
tp tuh utk omputih la kan
contoh2 name lame yg org start gune balik adalah
Olive, Eva, Iris, Hannah, Grace, Ivy, Isabella
menarik gak sbnrnye pk trend2 name nih
mmg tk rase feel sgt kalo pk omputih punye
tp utk org melayu..
kite pk2 kan...kalo umur2 kite, dlm satu kelas tuh ampir almost sume budak pompuan name nurul
pastuh junior staun dua dr kite ade ramai gile name fatin
and ade mcm2 la lg name yg setiap batch kat skolah akan ade ramai kan
and skrang nih adik saye ckp mase die jd cikgu tadika
ramai gile budak name daniel or danish or lebey kurang camtuh la
skrg name dh canggih2 kan
pastuh saye gune satu application nih utk cek statisticname
die ikut registry kat new south wales kot
name saye mmg mak saye sendiri berkenan
sbb nama isteri nabi ibrahim A.S la kan
tp baba saye nih moden skit kan..
oo ok siti, i stuju, sarah ferguson!
hahahaha sempena fergie la plak baba nih kan
ape2 la asalkan dua2 stuju psl name saye

hahah seperti biase la kan, sume org pk name ape utk anak
tp serius tade idea sgt lg yg btol2 saye akan stuju
mmg tade keperluan lg
tp sume org dh ade idea masing2
saye pernah terpk nk namakan anak saye sempena the 1st baby saye tgk delivered
name die Lily
saye pk nk spatah tuh je
Lily
then adik die Rose
then Orchid
hahaha
tp sudah tentula tk logik utk dipersetejui!

07 November 2010

yeay!

reg itu membunuh moodku utk berseronok spanjang wiken ini!
tp saye cube utk tidak risau sgt
sbb bende tuh takkan affect pape pon
so perception sendiri je yg kene tukar kan
sume org dh bole tayah dtg skolah minggu nih..
tp saye kene g skolah sbb takut nanti saye dipandang serong bile dtg present hari jumaat


saye cube utk seronokkan diri sendiri memikirkan progress utk ketibaan hari bersejarah itu
so far everything went well
td baba dan mami dan beya singgah umah machang
umah machang tgh renovate, tmbh bilik utk kawin :p
mami dgn tk malu tanye 'mane bilik pengantinnye?'
isk, malu i :p
mami juge updet psl fresh flowers n doorgift
dpt great deal utk bunge from cameron
ade parents pd budak mrsmkt yg buat bisnes tuh
and die suruh call lg sbulan sblum tuh utk confirmkan n pilih bunge
yeaay! legaaa rasenyee
sblum nih saye mmg cuak sgt kesian mami kalo bunge2 mahal sgt
kemudian mami ckp dh dpt good deal gak utk doorgift tuh
seronok nye saye :)
borak psl wedding nih mmg bole buat saye lupekan reg saye itu...
kemudian encik.paih pule arinih bz juge
pegi daftar kursus kawin n pegi Orange utk bli barang2 dlm bilik nanti
tidak kesabarannyaaa saye!!!

04 November 2010

over tak kalo saye nye slides gune background nih utk next week's presentation
ke nampak too tak professional sbb mcm girlish?
tp dh last day pon
i'm inclined to do whatever i wanna do
last time i picked just a plain background to make it look formal

but this time i dont care!
i am what i am !

03 November 2010

Assignment Terkini


saye amat kecewa ngan reg saye
die sgt bz
saye mmg kesian kat die
tp kalo die nk isi assessment saye tuh, kejap je pon bole
nih die tangguh2 plak
saye nih plak jenis suke sume cpt2
aaa terpaksa tunjuk muka lg esok lusa..
next week tunjuk pg2 dh laa..
nk lari pastuh sng je kot sbb dh tanda PIA
tp tk suke la intern2 asyik suke nk suggest2 masuk theatre la ape la
igt saye suke masuk theatre ke ape?
hahah saye mmg tk minat :p
kemudian saye spt biasa lameeee sgt duk kat common room mase cari reg saye td
pastuh mule tgn gatal...
bertambah koleksi..
pastuh siap susun folder2 dlm pendrive nih lg
rajin kan saye kalo bende2 tk membawa faedah :)
stp hari tuh je la kejenye
mmg bawak pendrive stp masa sbb kalo2 tgh lari dr intern at least ade keje nk buat
hahaha
bile folder sume dh susun, sng skit skrg nk edit step by step
terima kasih, saye mmg rajin :p


bestnyee kalo saye dpt buat bende nih utk surprise anak2 saye nanti...
tp tuh angan2 je...
tidak mungkin terjadi..
tidak berbakat seni...

01 November 2010


sblum nih kan, slalu je kan jumpe pisau potong cake yg menarik2 kan
tp bile nk beli nih takde la plak jumpe kan
saye sbnrnye tatau lg worth saye cari ribbon kat sinih ke kat mesia
mungkin harga lg murah kat mesia
tp kdg2 ape yg ade kat sinih takreti nk cari kat mane kat mesia
tp sweeet sgt gmbr nih kan...
saye bukanla peminat pink
tp kalo tgk2kan, in the end bende2 pink gak yg saye kate cantik..

Angan-angan ku belum musnah :)

saye sgt ingin ade tempat rehat yg sgt cosy bercushion2 camnih
tp ia terlalu grand utk letak depan tv
dan terlalu grand utk mempunyai anak2 aktif mcm anak2 kami
nanti susu tumpah2 from botol sbb suke minum sambil baring
(mcm kami kecik2 dulu mmg penat mami nk membebel)
tp ape2 pon saye tetap tertarik jika satu hari saye dpt kerusi rehat classic sebegitu
walaupon pattern lame, sbb jenis button yg tenggelam2 camtuh, ia tetap classy saye rase
especially kalo gune colours yg lembut2

yg ini pule saye rase akan sangat damai kalo dpt tidur di atasnye
veeery soft pink
ngape ntah saye dpt bayangkan kelembutan gmbr2 yg saye jumpe arinih
mungkin sbb dh kuat sgt berangan kot..
terasa nk baaaring je spanjang hari sambil rehat
tp nk tolak aa rase pening2 kpale
sbb slalu nye skrg nih kalo saye baring spanjang hari menonton cite, kpale jd sakit...



bestkan kalo anak2gadis kami nanti rajin mengemas camnih
kalo ikut perangai ibunye, mmg rupe2 katil camnih hanyalah sekali sminggu je kot
tp let us just wish anak2gadis kami ikut prangai 'toknyangwan ngan toknyangki'
sweeetnyeee tgk bilik nih....

mmg saye mengeluuuuh aje tgk gmbr2 nih sume
bukang mengeluh negatively
tp mengeluh sbb penat denyut jantung laju2 bile excited
oleh yg demikian marilah kite same2 berdoa rezeki dilimpahruahkan
amiiin....

31 October 2010

Hampir Kesitu..

perlukan daya tujah utk saye sambung siapkan module!
aaa sape nk menujah saye nih?
please la sarah jd rajin! pleease, kalo awak rajin  mlm nih, esok dh bole hooray!
pleeease sarah.just one more night!

and this is the 'turquiose green' that my mom n sis picked today

i know it's not like what PaRah discussed
tp ofkos la bile g kedai akan ade lg byk choices kan
and saye sukee sgt sbb i sgt soft pastel colour..
the most left tuh adelah kain alasnye..yg tgh2 tuh chiffonnye...
yg the most right tuh plak encik.paih's nye...
saye sgt beruntung dpt mami yg saaangat semangat psl my wedding
sume mami yg tanggung!

Sharing The Journey

again, this weekend my family spent their day-off with going up and down the shops for my wedding..
i'm soo blessed to have them
they know i couldnt do anything without them
i can only browse over the internet from afar
honestly, i've done nothing of impact for the wedding!
i'm keeping myself busy with the photo editing and websetting..
i'm loving it but i know it's not enough..

just a sneak-peek of what i'm working on...




Monk

sambil tgk cite monk, teringat kat encikpaih
dlm cite nih tunjuk natalie paham morse code
so teringat laaa zmn2 muda dulu
saye yg cheesy nih anta morse-code-telegram kat encikpaih
zmn tuh zmn pendam2 tp sayang :p

kat museum nih die ade service anta telegram...
saye pon ape lg kan...
anta warkah cinta across the ocean..
hahaha..
romentiknye i! :p

29 October 2010

Bulan Madu

semalam pagi saye ade buat canulla kat sorg macik
macik tuh 3weeks postpartum kot
pastuh die nangis teresak2 ok mase saye buat canulla tuh
cuak gak saye mula2 tuh kot2 saye salah hit the valve pastuh tolak2 ke ape kan
rupe2nye die mmg camtuh
tp pastuh die tanye saye from mane
saye cakap from malaysia
and die pon ckp laa
'really? we went to malaysia for honeymoon'
'it was 10yrs back'
hahaha macik nih buat saye nk animun la :p

if only i could find a cheap way to make this initials!
mahal gak la bunga kat mesia
even yg bukan fresh flowers, kalo nk kelopak cantik mmg mahal...

28 October 2010

$-$

wuaa lps skrg dh seronok2 sentiasa dpt buat IV,
td frust sgt terpunctured vein macik nih
die 90tahun ok!
dh lps dpt skit darah tuh tibe2 keliling vein die swells up
aaa time tuh gak saye tau it's failing!
and die hanya suke buat kat tgn kanan je
tgn kiri die sakit die kate
pastuh dh ade canulla on that hand
so lg la limited choice kan
and saye tanak la try2 lg sbb nanti abih puncture sume vein die
die dhla nk masuk theatre arinih
so saye called the intern
so agak frust la kan!
arinih not a good day pon
ward agak bz sbb tibe2 ramai patient
jd saye mcm takde alasan nk bermalasan
skrg nih lunch break la kononnnye kan
pastuh saye rase petang nih ade emergency theatre list
mcm menarik
tp saye takdela rajin nk stay
tp saye pk nih pluang nk tunjuk muka kat surgeon lg kan
hmm dilemma!
 
 
and baru dpt reply from Kak Lina
die jual doorgift
saye baru reply kat die utk confirmkan adekah we are talking about the same box
because i cant believe the price she's giving me
it's too cheap to be true :D

 


but i do hope it's true!
dh bole settle half of the doorgift issues kan kalo order terus pasnih
amiiin...
 

27 October 2010

more and more..

i've been googling for a lot of things
i did mention before that i still cant decide on the brand of my shoes
but i did save some of the pics that i think suits my tase
buuut most of them wont suit my feet i think
i have lebar penyek hideous foot.. 

these...i really want something like these or almost like these for my reception
but where do i get them in malaysia???
i mean is there a one-stop shop that have this style of footwear?
it has always been a struggle for me when comes to shoes
 


and these peep-toes, i drool over them to be on my hantaran
but again, where do i get them?



i'm certain of what kind of days i'll go through right afer i touched down for good in tanah melayu
i am really looking forward to it..
but let me prepare myself for all the frustrations to come
it's not that i am pessimist about my wedding
but with limited funds, it is only so much can be done!

26 October 2010

M A M I

Age 4, we think: Mom knows everythng! At 8: Mom knows a lot. At 12: Mom doesn't really know everythng. At 14: Mom doesn't know anything. At 16: Momdoesn't exist. At 18: She's old fashioned. At 25: Maybe mom does know about this! At 35: Before we decide let's ask mom. At 45: I wonder what mom thinks about this? At 85: I wish I could ask mom about this. Repost if you have the best mom in the world...
 
i found that on fb..but i totally disagree with that..
for me, my mom always knows everything, anytime anywhre
i've always think the idea of daughter-mom conflict is overrated
but if it does exist,  it's only true for the westerners
i know i'm not the perfect daughter in the world
but i couldnt get why should the stages of life makes u treat ur mom differently
honestly, i started thinking about this few years back when we have a whole chapter of 'ADOLESCENCE' in IB syllabus of English Higher Level
the issue were so remote to me, i couldnt understand why they have to rebel
i dont know why it is so hard for them to express evrything up to the point they have to isolate their parents
we thought they are more open-minded with their kids right?
but what with all the rebelious attitude and the desperate need to become independent?
i know there are times i did not agree with my mom..but that's just a plain disagreement in taste.
in short, i dont think why the statements on fb should be ppl's status who really love their mom.
anda lot of ppl 'like' it some more.
i do feel like backstabbing..wrting this here instead of directly comment on the fb
but i dont wanna make it controversial..
mami, i LOVE u forever and ever, and u're always my everything..

I K E A

hmm terase nk g IKEA la wiken nih
ade sesuatu ingin di cari
penah pegi IKEA kat sinih skali je
time2 muda2 dulu
bli mattreses
semoga weather sgt best
sbb nk kene turun naik publictransport kan
so semoga tk panas sgt
tp tk sejuk sgt
saye nk shooppping!
saye dh buat ade satu file khas utk compare harga brg2 yg saye nk cari tuh
saye compare malaysian and australian IKEA
certain things murah kat sinih
certain things murah kat mesia
so before pegi kene btol2 buat list
bestnyee!
indahnye kan idup ini :))

(tp nanti adela tuh entry2 tk indah kalo saye pk mls nk buat MCR :p)

25 October 2010

Again!

skali lg saye berada dalam common room ini
td lps dh bosan2 duk dilemma2 tuh saye pon naik la ke ward
nampak reg saye
die tanye saye baru lps ade tute ke..
saye tk smpt menjawab tibe2 dh dtg org lain yg nk berbincang dgnnya 
pastuh saye stay je dlm doctor's station yg kecik itu
saje nk tunjuk muka kan
biar nampak kite keen :D
tp sbb lame sgt perbincangan mereka,
saye mula mengeluarkan print-outs utk dibaca
harapnye reg itu nampak saye yg saye sedang membace psl medic :D
hahaha
kemudian lps org tuh pergi, saye pon bertanye2 la kat reg itu mengenai theatre
buat2 tanye psl apa care terbaik utk masuk emergency theatre kan
buat2 tanye adekah saye patut sentiasa follow reg yg pakai scrub
hahaha
nk bg nampak keen skit, cite la kat die yg saye slalu masuk elective list je
(padahal sminggu skali dua je saye masuk elective list pon :p)
pastuh ckp la saye baru skali masuk emergency
pastuh die  pon explain la psl oncall reg la ape la
die ckp bagus gak kalo tgk emergency theatre tuh bla bla bla
sbnrnye amat tidak berminat laaa begini
membuat sesuatu hanya kerana nk tunjuk rajin dpn org
kemudian lps dh ckp2 skit ngan die saye pon menyambung membace
kemudian intern dtg
kemudian saye bertanye kat intern terdapat ape2kah utk saye tlg
tp tiada apa2
lgpon intern tuh mmg jenis yg tk suke student buat paperwork pon
ok, fine with me!
saye pon tdela nk berebut pon stakat buat paperworks tuh kan
tp sbb tatau nk buat ape dh kan
saje  nk tunjuk bergune skit
oh saye amat senang hati dgn diri sendiri sbb dh buat cannula hari ini
sng hati sbb saye yg offer nk buat
yelaaa sblum nih guilty sbb mmg mls nk volunteer ape2 yg tk disuruh 
jumaat arituh wat skali
hahaha jumaat harituh kire last day of 3rd week of the rotation dh
baruuuuu nk buat 1st time tuh :p
confidence yg hancur terhadap cannulla zaman genmed dgn interjahat itu sudah terbina kembali
saye berharap setiap hari ade at least 1 canulla utk saye tlg mereka
terdapat kepuasaan setiap kali melihat darah flashback kat dlm cannula tuh...



A W K W A R D

ok harinih intern baru
up to last few minutes evrything was fine
tp....
baruuuu saje td diorg sume nk g coffee-break la kononnye kan
and saye ofkos tanak join pon kan
tp rupe2nye diorg expect saye join
saye sedar itu setelah sampai lift
satye mane bawak duit!
and diorg pon nk g ressies
saye takde minat nk bersosial pon
gelak2 senyum2 kat ressies adelah sgt tk mnarik ok
so saye meloloskan diri di keramaian org depan cafe itu dan lari ke student room skrg ini
namuuun sgt awkward jap lg saye nk bg excuse ape
'hmmm...i dont drink coffee, so i went to the student room'
tp diorg akan pk saye nih antisosial plak kan
tp akan lg awkward kalo saye stay kan
hmmmm....tk suke la baik sgt camnih la intern2 nye
baik2 yg separa baik
hmmmm...
AWKWARD!!
this is why i'm not staying here!
saye tk suke dan tak reti bersosial dgn mereka
gelombang lain.

24 October 2010

Hati Yang Mungkin Sudah Gelap :(

tatau la rase jiwa terusik atau terganggu atau terkacau
tp plg confirm adelah rase tk sedap hati
kenape?
saye pon tatahu...
nk g skolah esok pon rase berat hati
mmgla perkara biasa mls g skolah
tp sjak masuk surgical rotation nih, mmg tadela teruk sgt nk kene paksa diri sbb team sgt best
tp esok dh ade intern2 baru
so tatau adekah akan dpt get along dgn mereka
dan dh rase saaaayang sgt ngan 2 interns yg sgt best sblum nih
yg sgt low expectations
yg slalu suruh saye balik awal :D
saye tertekan sekarang nih
camane nk buat nih?
td tghari dh bace quran lps zuhur utk tenangkan hati
tp mcm tak tahan lame pon
mungkin saye tk btol2 hayati td...
tp btol2 saye tertekan
tanpa sebab
walaupon ade sebab, tp tekanan yg sgt disproportionate to the problem pon
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!
and i have nobody!!
nobody!!!
paih tk balik keje lg
mami ade keje kat penang
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!
:((
aaaaaa tk sbr nk balik mesia
takde masalah2 camnih
tk sbr nk get it over and done with!

Family Wedding

arituh dh penah tgk cite nih 
tp tgk sparuh je
ade org ckp saye nih bersifat perkauman
sbb tuh takle tgk cite nih :p
tp cite nih saye rase sgt tk sbr nk pulang prepare psl kawin
bestnyee
saye suke colour die
and saye ter pk kalo wedding kite kat mesia, kat mane nk gune bouquet2 sume tuh
sbb kite tadela susun krusi in line mcm dlm wedding diorg kan..
so masih ter pk lg...


23 October 2010

The Hot Spring should be blamed for my Cluckiness

Sedang berjalan kaki di tengahari terik utk ke kereta pokwe
saye berkate kepada aimi
'hmmmm panaas nye kan aimi..kalo dpt bubble tea nih mmg best gile'
ting ting ting!
mentol kepala menyala
terus rase teringggin sgt
oleh yg demikian kami mintak tlg pokwe dropkan kami di busloop sahaja
kami pon menunggu bus utk ke Chadstone
hmmmm...nikmaaaattt....
sedaaaaap sgt...
dah dpt minum tuh kan kenela jln2 kan
so saye dan aimi mmg sgt suke berjalan tanpa arah tujuan kat chadstone
tp kene la konon2 pk something utk biar mcm ade objektif skit..
so kami mencari sesuatu...
sesuatu itu dijumpai di MYER tp masih belom di finalise kan statusnya
jd maybe kene buat entry lain sbb tuh topik lain :p
kemudian kami ke k-mart
kemudian saye mmg saaangat excited kerana terdapat lg byk nighties yg berkilat yg seksi la bole dikatakan :p
saye mmg tgh collect mereka skrg (patut malu tk?)
seroooooonok sgt skrg dh ade 6  nighties
hahaha cite dlm kelambu takle cite kat org kan, tp bole ke cite psl bli bende2 camnih?
hmmm lantak la kan
kemudian saye mmg suke kan pk sangat jauh ke depan
tiba di bahagian buku kanak2
ternampak dan berkata 'eh muraaaahnye tgh sale...'
ape lg kan mmg bagai ilang kesedaran saye menggapai2 ape yg perlu
nk justify die sendiri akan ckp 'mane nk dpt bende camnih dgn harga camnih kat mesia nanti'
'kat mesia buku2 sume mahal2 skurang2nye puluh2 ringgit' bla bla bla bla bla la kan
kene justify byk bende
1stly kene justify penggunaan wang
2ndly kene justify kenapa awal sgt beli kan :p
tp saye slalu ckp 'nape org bli pinggan mangkuk utkmasa depan takpe?'
hahaha
inilah hasilnya yg amat saye excited kerana menambah koleksi




saye sgt excited melihat kat internet bahawasanya buku ini setiap satu dijual asing itu adalah sgt mahal berbanding saye beli satu set
good job sarah dlm berjimat!! :p
saya dah pk utk cari kaset utk nursery rhymes nih
sbb saye pk saye tanak la expose anak saye terhadap tv dan video2 di laptop
a lot of controversies behind it
seriously saye akn cube berusaha utk anak2 saye hari2 penuh dgn 'tv-free activities'
saye kan dh bli buku activity2 tuh :p 
tp kalah ngan buku kak mar
buku tuh '1001 tv-free activities'
saye nye '1000 activitties' so kalah 1 activity :D




 yg nih pule saye beli sbb kiut :p
and again, sgt excited melihat harga yg saye bli jauh lg murah dr RRP nye :)



ini pule saye bli saje2 sbb die satu set
dan sudah tentu harga saye bli jauh lg murah jueg dr harga di internet!

saye bukanla nk paksa anak2 saye jd nerd dr kecik
tp saye percaya bahawasanya sgt bagus utk instil minat membaca dlm anak2 sejak kecil
biar die nampak buku tuh as their friends
sbb seriously mase kecik saye dulu mmg penuh dgn keseronokan dan adventures luar rumah
+ adventures of reading
now i cant imagine how i used to read encyclopedias at 8yrs of age
sgt minat ok!!
time tuh ade encyclopedia yg dewan bahasa dan pustaka translate tuh
yg a set tuh ade psl mcm2
dinosour, bumi, sains, tumbuh2an etc
my parents did a GREAT job to us at that time!
mami slalu bawak kami g skolahnye time die keje pastuh ltak kitorg kat library mrsm tuh
mmg saye sgt enjoy....
time tuh library tuh ade airterjun la, cushion2 besar la..bean bags la..
bestnyeee zaman tuh....
we used to quiz each other about 'what's the biggest tree in the world' etc
what's the oldest bird in the world..Dodo if i'm not mistaken
we were not nerds, but that's how life was zaman2 tuh
budak2 zaman tuh pon sume camtuh rasenye
tak mcm skrg...
 zaman berubah...


22 October 2010

Rezeki Perut..

harinih internku last day
so saye pk saye nk blikan la sdikit cokelat ferrero rocher kan sorg satu
sbb diorg sgt baik ngan saye

bukanlah saye bg sejambak sorg
saye bg sbungkus sorang dah la..
tp...nk dijadikan rezeki perut saye
(saye yg tgh diet nih kan :p)
slg sorg intern saye half day off
saye tk smpt jumpe die sbb dlm theatre
oleh yg demikian...
jeng jeng jeng..saye ade extra sbungkus :D
perut sape lg jd mangsa kan...
aaaaa...diet yg tidak menjadi...
mmg tk mampu menahan nafsu
semalam sblum tdo pon camane bole TERmakan cokelat cadbury dairy milk nora ntah
SERIUS tak paham camane...
takutttt sgt kalo nampak perut bile pakai baju kawin nanti
time2 lain saye tk heran
encikpaih mmg kene terime saye seadanya
tp baju kawin itu tak mungkin dpt menerima saye seadanya saya...
:(

18 October 2010

Malam Sekolah :)

esok saye sekolah
tp saye rase tk menarik sbb intern saye beria nk tlg buat MCR utk saye esok mase clinic
saye baru siapkan urusan visa ahli keluarga yg nk dtg 
sekarang saye sedang enak mencari2 idea kasut ape utk dibeli
saye perlu 2 kasut at least
1 utk suruh encik.paih beli utk atas hantaran
1 untuk saye pakai - bg saye kesemua majlis bole pakai kasut same saje sbb bukan nampak sgt pon :D
saye berkenan jenis mcm sharp pointy shoes
mcm sexy skit kan
tp kaki saye tk cantik sgt
kaki saye kembang :p
contoh yg saye suke (walaupon saye takdela nk yg bekilat camtuh)
kasut yg atas hantaran saye tuh saye harap dpt yg mcm sandal je tp pointy
tp saye belom decide on the brand lg...
hmmm no idea!

wuahahaha saye sudah sgt byk collect peeptoe shoes n satin shoes yg saye berkenan


The Heat

Tibe-tibe rase sgt semangat nk plan for the wedding kan :)

slalunye ade mental checklist je utk ape2..
tp this time rsenye kene btol2 tulis so that nampak lg clear ape yg dh n ape yg belom
so saye duk dlm common room nih dgn semangatnye create blogpage utk checklist

saye ade la berkenan kat tudung farahani kawin


saye dh tanye die bli kat mane
mmg la biase je kan
tp kalo tk tanye org mmg sukar utk saye jumpe
and saye suke kat shape die sbb mcm full keras instead of muncung je kan 
so die kate kat dlm tuh tudung biase yg kain satin as die nye awning 
die bli kat Munawwara,PJ
and atas tuh die bli selendang chiffon kat Gulati's Jln TAR
so saye balik nih kene g cari laa
tp kene blaja btol2 camane die lilit selendang die tuh biar nampak kemas
tp takut gak bile saye dh beria2 g ke munawwara tuh tgk2 shape die tk sesuai ngan kebulatan muka saye yg terlebih bulat nih
tp at least dpt idea laa skit2 kan

17 October 2010

Awkward

ok saye skrang awal2 pg sudah berada dlm commonroom
bukan saye nk slacking
tp lps dh siap wardround td kedua2 reg saye bitau intern2 saye yg diorg nk minum2 kat cafe
so die pesan kat intern utk turun jap lg lps request imagings sume tuh kan
then saye stay je ngan intern tuh buat keje
tgh2 buat keje tuh reg tuh tepon intern saye utk tanye nk order ape utk die dan sorg lg intern
so die tk mention saye nk ape kan..die tk igt kot kehadiran student
so saye tanak la nanti kalo saye ikut intern tuh reg tuh cam obliged utk blanja saye air gak
saye plak mmg tk bawak purse kan
mane ade bawak duit g wardround
kalo saye bawak duit at least saye bole kate saye nk byr sendiri kan
tp nih mmg akan sgt awkward kalo die tk igt saye n die kene ckp suruh saye order
segan la saye kan
padahal mmg la not a big deal pon
sume reg akan blanje the whole team
tp the point skrg is die tak igt pon psl saye
saye kene pon blakon2 kat intern saye yg saye nk dtg commonroom time diorg minum2 tuh konon2 saye ade keje
hahaha
saye tgh nk print2 nota2 kat sinih tp tibe2 printer tuh running out of paper plak
Gina plak takde kat office die utk refill
jd terpaksa la saye membuang mase menaip blog ini kan
blakon2 nampak cam byk keje kan menaip tk berenti :p
sarah sarah ape nk jadi nih
sungguh bosan ini hari
theatre pon takde list utk gen surg arinih
*sigh*

bosan!