esok sudah ahad

esok sudah ahad.
skrg pule sudah pukul 3.47
.ape yg buat saye tk tdo lg nih.
nk buang je komp nih dlm sungai rasenye.
perosak alam!
saye ade sgt byk bende tk study lg.
saye sgt byk buang mase.
mcm la bukan student je.
ape nk jadi
ape nk jadi
sampai skrg tk tdo lg.
:(
sgt best dok dgr lagu 'tell him' nih
walopon sedey2 dok kaji maksud ngan aimi
sedey kan lagu tuh


saye masih tidak puas hati dgn layout skrg
tp apekan daye tiada pilihan.
saye mahu mkn nasi briyani
di tgh mlm begini??

rindu.rindu sgt2.sedey.rindu.
:(

saye suke tutor saye

aduihla, parah btol td.mcm ape je dok buat2 sign kat nora.tak sangka excited camnih stlh 3 minggu tk jumpe martin.dahla ade plak scene gelak sakan dpn die.isk2 malu!malu la!mesti die pk 'apelaa budak2 mesia 3 org nih, bende tuh pon gelak ke?'.isk jatuh saham!

pastuh plak nk dijadikan cite td kat singapore kite jumpe junior kite dulu2.kite mmg la dah tahu ayah n mak die ade sinih 3 bulan.tp tk sangka jumpe die plak.tatahu la die knal kite lg ke tk.tp die senyum je la td.dah 8 tahun dah mestila tk cam kan.

mane ah nih tk online nih, kite nk tanye die kalo2 die igt lg dak tuh.

nemui desuka?

muke baru bgn tido.
muni candid.
mashamnyee.
moody plak tuh bgn tdo.
tk sbr nk g kfc tuh, tuh yg tdo tk bukak tdung.

menjaga hati

sronoook!!! chaddy VIPsale last night was superb!! the sale was 'so-so', but i'm sooo excited with my new bling-bling (eventho it needs to be resized).also got me that MNG jacket that i've always dreamed for (not the same colour la tp).the jacket was black,mcm org naik motor la plak.but the white one is sold out for my size :(.

but at the back of my head there's this thought 'btol ke nih aku bli bling-bling nih sampai $149.99 nih??' is it too much.am i too 'ikut nafsu'?? but as effah put it in a phrase 'as long as u r happy'..mmg la happy dpt tuh, tp takut nanti sedey2 kalo bankrupt.tp takpe, saye akan cube sdaye upaye tidak berbelanja sampai la akhir tahun (walopon ayat ini sudah berbulan2 lamenye digunekan).

then went to Roxy-storewide 40%!! nothing got my attention pon (except for that $84 jacket, that $40 purse, that $200++ green polka jacket etc.. hahahaha nothing la sgt!). but proud to say i didnt buy anything for myself from Roxy.

saye mendengar lagu 'menjaga hati' yg zaza suruh dgr.sgt suke juge!

nana dan exxon dan sticker kuning

paih dh anta dh surat tuh kat utusan.kuar ke tak pon tatahu la.kemal ckp kene attach real name and ic baru la utusan terime.kite pon tatahu la.klakar btol la!

esok jumpe martin balik.sronok! smoge dpt dok sbelah die or dpn die.tanak ah si L tuh dok sbelah kite lg.tk suke la.tk suke! tp sbnrnye tk siap pon lg keje pbl esok.dh siap dah roughly,tp cam tk puas hati la kalo main copy je dr talley,plannye nk tmabh few more points so that nmpk genuine skit kan.haha.

moony pule tgh happy tuh.kite pon happy sbb effah n nana n muni igt juge kat kite utk menggunekan harta exxon tuh utk kesenangan hati kite.tp still tgh pk nk tampal kat mane ek.tpt yg selamat supaya tak kantoi but yet tpt penting n meaningful.

kite lapar la.kite nak nasi meeting point.sedap.

td blaja psl tido.seriously kite ade big problem.psychological one.

clucky

kite dh bgn awal2 pg td dah.lps mandi tuh tdo balik n tibe2 dpt idea tanak g ward utk wat keje/study.tp tgk2 bgn kol 12 plak.frust! lg frust bile jun cite richard maybe jumaat nih last day die.mane die nk pegi pasnih?uaaaa kecewenyeee.dh tk bole la usha2 die tgh ward round.tgk die nye loving and caring terhadap patient tuh.kecewe teramat seh! jom nangis! hahahaha.

kuch kuch hota hai

next week ade due another mcr.tk best la.dahla turn xm plak.kalo history bole main hentam je.pastuh ade keje pbl nih,tp ngantuk gile utk otak berfungsi.smlm tido 4jam je kot.tgk cite kuch kuch hota hai kol 2.30pg slps attempt to sleep n bergolek2 slame almost an hour.tp still tk abiskan kuch kuch hota hai tuh sbb takut mamai sgt time jumpe richard nanti.so bile lg ntah nk sambung lg, tp i'll probably start balik dr awal balik.besh.mata cam takde kelopak dah time tgk tuh sbb bercucuran air mata kesedihan biarpon dah tgk bape kali dah.sbb tuh la kite bli dvd die tuh. something precious to treasure.hahah precious la sgt kan.

another accomplisment!buat nasi krabu dan pgl brownies mkn skali.within 2 1/2 hours siap sume2 tuh.dahla abis kelas dah kol 4.beria jln ke clayton nk bli lesung dan keperluan2 lain.luckily ade daun kesum,baru la ori skit nasi krabu! then balik kol 5 start masak utk diorg nk dtg kol 7. nk kate rushing tuh takla jugak,tp rase lame nyee laa kat dapo.lame jugak ek nk buat nasi krabu camtuh.slalu kat umah ade la part2 yg ade sape2 bole tlg kan.tp seriously sgt puas hati sbb tercapai hasrat ku.mengidam lebey2 plak kite nih.

skrg still contemplate nk tdo kol bape nih.mata nih mmg ngantuk.tp sgt la bersalah tk wat keje lgsg.alaaa, tak suke la task lymphoma minggu nih.

tgk gmbr2 effah kat melben zoo ngan nana.sedey :( tk dpt join arituh.even kalo kite g nanti lg ke situh, mesti tk same cam kalo g ngan effah n nana n muni cam arituh kan.mungkin la kan ade je lg chance, tp sedey sbb dah missed the great one.byebye nana.walopon kite tk suke kucing, tp somehow felt touched to be her anakkucing.i'll be missing u nana!

oh lupe nk ckp psl sorg grupmate nih yg tdak disukai.
mengapala asyik terduduk sblh die,tk sukelaa!
tp sume grpmate lain sgt la best!

enam bulan dr sekarang

hahaha once dh update blog rase nk tulis2 lg.mls nk tdo lg sbenarnye.pretty slack gak la minggu nih sbb tk g surgery pon.hoping for a great rotation next week kat AMUA..kene la motivate diri sendiri utk rajin kerana sudah nk abis satu sem dah nih.and tgl 6 bulan je lg nk exam..6bulan!!!! myGod..takutnye..slalu sgt la semangat gile nk study tp cam bile nk start bace buku tuh rase bosan gile.nyampahla camtuh.esp kalo keadaan cam skrg nih.dahla tk rajin praktis xmn. tp td HEP class kate tk perlu la stress2 sbb tk gune.tp masalahnye akan stress kalo tk wat ape2.tkpe2,i'll do sth!! this weekend pon dan occupied dah, but i dont mind sbb i like making ppl i like to be happy. win-win pon.i get to jln2 after such a looong time tk jln2 mcm tourist.thanks nana!oh thanx to mobil juge sbb anta nana..hahaha.looking fwd for the weekend, bh and kwn2!

tgh2 mlm begini

haru biru jadinye semua.ape nk jadi, ape nk jadi sampai sekarang tk online lg.hahahahaha.sedar jugak dah lame sgt tk tulis blog nih.tp mls nk membebel2 sgt.tp kuciwa kerana episod15 one tree hill mcm tkle bukak je.sdey la lindsay lari dr wedding.sian lucas.and sgt suke brooke tuh..sgt la comel die nk baby. anak effah si jamie yg kecik comel itu pon sgt2 la cute nye.. mulutnye tuh haa, becok!!!saje start membebel psl one tree hill supaya tk membebel psl bende yg berlegar2 dlm kepale.esok sush suruh wat gastro xm.wuaa mls la.tkde motivasi plak tuh.pls.pls.pls.ee jahatnye mempergunekan saye.isk.isk.isk.alaa nk nyanyi lagu 'saat ku pejamkan mata' tuh.. wuaa, saat pejam mata, bukak mata, sume nk nyanyi..tp susahnye nk cari nk download.so dgr je kat imeem tuh.

"saat aku pejam mataku, oh Tuhanku biarlah dia disitu..menemani diriku.."

It won't be easy,
you'll think it strange
When I try to explain how I feel
that I still need your love after all that I've done

Have I said too much?
There's nothing more I can think of to say to you.
But all you have to do is look at me to know
That every word is true

(from 'dont cry for me argentina')

it's been like yrs i didnt update any enrty here.maybe i'm too indulged in my study, or i could probably be too depressed with everyhting around... and i'm currently listening to 'dont cry for me argentina'.. and also 2 other songs that i'd just discovered from ppl's blog..

saudara yg dirindui

my life had been a real mess last few days.my books n folders are all around my workstation.piles of my washings on the couch.MCR and CAT spinning around my head all the time. but one by one resolved. 1st thing in the afternoon, my BIG CONCERN resolved with quite a heart fluttering surprise. then i did my MCR.. there goes 2 of the big thing.another one is CAT that i'm pretty sure it wont be finished until the day i need to hand it in. there's always things i overlooked and need to be added. plus all the usual stuff everyweek, pbl pbl cbt. but my clinical xmn skills still upset me. i didnt really make the effort to practice it at all!!

~that's how u knooow.. that's how u knoww.... she's uuuuurs....~ (try to imitate amy adam's)

ok.. kalo die pon bersungguh2 blaja sume2 tuh.. saye pon kene la smangatblaja juge kan.. caiyo2!!!

kawin susah. tak kawin susah. kawin dua lg susah.

“Kenapa kau menangis? Kau cemburu?”Aisha mengangguk. Aku memeluknya, “Maafkan aku Aisha, semestinya kau tidak menikah denganku sehingga kau menderita seperti ini.”“Kau jangan berkata begitu Fahri. Menikah denganmu adalah kebahagianku yang tiada duanya. Kau tidak bersalah apa-apa Fahri. Tak ada yang salah denganmu. Kau sudah berusaha melakukan hal yang menurutmu baik. Rasa cemburu itu wajar. Meskipun aku yang memaksamu menikahi Maria. Tapi rasa cemburuku ketika kau berada dalam kamar dengannya itu datang begitu saja. Inilah cinta. Tanpa rasa cemburu cinta tiada.”

kelas dr aishah

aishah siman: hu hu hu..
aishah siman: mmgla
aishah siman: nanti dia rs x dihargai la plak
aishah siman: soklan bodoh mcm dh makan ke?
aishah siman: sihat ke?
aishah siman: penat ke/.
aishah siman: tuh kena la tanye

sharahaila: ooo camtuh kite ade tanye jugak kot
sharahaila: kene tanye lg la psnih
sharahaila: sblum nih kite conscious laa

aishah siman: kena tanye gak pasl family

easter is in the air

saaangaaaaat sukeeeeeee.. it's all started from last nite la.then happiness bertimpa2 even i only had 3-4hrs of sleep. bgn pg. mandi.siap2 utk g bendigo~naik v-line.no words cant describe the feeling. listened to mushy2 songs on the way in the train.sangaaat into the mood la! it's like we r travelling to some wonderland or somewhere of that sort. everything amused me. even the colours of the grass, trees, sky, clouds..everything ok! bendigo was much much more saikou. they preserved all the classic building, n yes they do look classy!

easter breaking

i just realised that my posts are getting more and more on my inner-scream.getting less and less about wards and med stuff.i could infer few things from that.it's either i'm getting used to the ward and nothing really amused me anymore or i'm getting less motivated on ward. i'd prefer it to be the former although it's not really the case now.
few updates abt the ward :

• saw Dr.P, Dr.T and C a few times having coffee together at the zouki.love them!they really made a good team
  
• Dr. S T and Dr. C S is quite good but they didnt really ask us questions so i think i'm not gaining as much as giha n kemal n osama gained because Dr. S H asked them a lot of questions and gave them tasks to be looked up.
• i hate ethics classes.some ppl agreed on debates for next session.oh how i wish i can just be invisible there.
• already felt comfortable with S for cbt and hoped that she'll be tutoring us for the whole yr. it's not that another S isnt as good as her but we have to start it all over again to get the 'comfortness'.
• today's cbt is cancelled bcos S didnt realised they'll be extremely busy this afternoon before the long weekend.met her on the way back from 'looking for the patient'. the patients on bed 1 & 4 must be waiting for us. =( . hahah it's not that i'm soo eager to have the tute, but it's a lucky day bcos the ward clerk was very very generous and kind to offer us pleasent options for the patients.

now i should easter-breaking happily!!!!

cintaku forever

hmm... how can ppl be so sure that their love is forever?
kalo tgk pd prasaan skrg of course la kan sgt sng mulut bicara
tp sbnrnye btol ke bole forever.
i mean if sorg tu mati.. nk hidup as a loner sampai tua ke

hhmm... walopon tajuk tuh catchy n i really like that
cintaku forever
tp tk brani la nk jamin
cume bole confirmkan yg saat ini.. masih valid 'cintaku hanya utk mu'
kan?

kanda dan dinda

Setapak melangkah
Dua langkah ingatan kanda pada dinda
Adinda bersumpah, jikalau kekanda tidak kembali
Adinda akan menyusul kekanda
Menginjak pada tanah yang sama
Bernafas pada udara yang sama B
erlayar berbelok-belok
Sauh dibongkar di tempat tenang
Yang tinggal hati tak elok
Yang pergi hati tak senang
Bila sampai waktu, kita akan bersama

i really have a big problem now!

wuaa, camane nih.

what if he misunderstood???

getting better

yeyeeey!!i've finished my pbl for tomorrow's class.
it's really nothing to be celebrated abt, but in current situation i really shud be happy for that.
i havent really do any good thing at all in these few days.. or maybe in this past week.

ok now i shud move on to the delirium and maybe talley for rheumatological xm.

happy birthday omma

hari ini hari ulangtahun kelahiran mama! sgt rindu juge. smlm mama sms mengatakan die berada di penang.sibuk sungguh ye. ingin menampal lirik lagu sheila on 7 'just for my mom' tuh pon tidak rajin kerana perlu melalui internet explorer. tidak mengapalah, saye akan mendengar lagu itu sepanjang hari.

sihat

lega mendengar khabar yg die sihat.hihi.tp saye pule yg kurang sihat.cuaca terlalu panas membuatkan kpale saye juge panas.smlm start sakit tekak.tp alhamdulillah beransur elok skrg. new rotation juge bole tahan,tp kami tidak menanti sampai petang.adekah kami perlu?tidak tahu la, mungkin ade perkara yg akan timbul sepanjang tenghari ke petang, ikut nasib la kan, tp saye malas rasenye nk risk mase saye.sungguh byk lg keje2 saye yg lain tidak selesai,bak kata org2 terdahulu, we have to find the right balance for the time spent in the ward and our own time.

tp yg menggembirakan saye adelah saye dpt mengambil darah pakcik tadi.kesiah pakcik itu. die menghidap kanser esofagus. die sangat kecil dan hilang byk berat badan. dia hidup seorang bersama anjingnye.ksian dan simpati.

i'm still not ok
immunocompromised
i knew the reason
but i cant do anything about that

private practice

just started my new series
private practice
(melbourney hot can be the excuse not studying for the whole day)
argh.. sgt pnas dan kering
i cant stay put
can do nothing
it's already autumn but why??

rhythm of the falling rain

Listen to the rhythm of the falling rain,
Telling me just what a fool I've been.
I wish that it would go and let me cry in vain,
And let me be alone again.

Now the only girl I've ever loved has gone away.
Looking for a brand new start!
But little does she know that when she left that day.
Along with her she took my heart.

Rain, please tell me, now does that seem fair
For her to steal my heart away when she don't care
I can't love another, when my heart's somewhere far away.

Listen to the rhythm of the falling rain,
Telling me just what a fool I've been.
I wish that it would go and let me cry in vain,
And let me be alone again.

Rain, won't you tell her that I love her so
Please ask the sun to set her heart aglow
Rain in her heart and let the love we know start to grow.

masaki, yutaro,rie,yuka,sarah,tatsuya

who's my lucky charm?

but sarah is ok

burger ayam

ngantuk.silap la, sape suruh mkn burger tuh.
byk penambah rase yg memamaikan.wuaagh..
nk study la
.tgh ade mood nk study nih
tp mamai, camane nih.