sambut new yr??erm...tak pnah2 sambut pon..sblum nih stakat tunggu dpn tv jek la sbb mesti ade cite best kan...tp dok sinih bunge api pon tak nmpk..kunun2 kuar bilik nak tgk kalo2 nampk bunge api..tp tak nmpk pon..jauh sgt ek clayton nih dr city?? spatutnye g baring kat padang tuh kan..dok sinih jek mmg la terhalang ngan segale bangunan2 tuh kan....or maybe kalo g howitt naik jek mane2 tingkat yg atas2 tuh mesti nampak kan?? dahla pasnih maybe dah tak merase new yr kat oz sbb insyaAllah aku nak balik mesia every summer... skrg sgt la pns..aku kat bilik ash nih...nak bace cerpen dlm tokeikedai tp susah nak feel sbb panas sgt..hehehe...feel?? jgn sampai banjir lg dah la...wuaaa....mau !!!!!!!tanye aida la aku mau ape....hehehe....... erm td dgr balik lagi unintended..dah lame gile tak dgr lagu tuh..tp dgr balik r skrg nih..pastuh nyanyi lagu not me not i yg delta goodrem tuh...hahaha...menyusuri kembali kenangan..chewah~dlm cite muhje dosti karoge tuh kate jgn hidup dlm kenangan masa lampau..tp kan, skrg nih bosan gile...so mesti la nyanyi ape2 yg ade kenangan...ade satu lagu westlife nyanyi nih kan..suke gile r...forever...tp kan, tak jumpe kat you tube...ape la you tube nih!
26 July 2005
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hehe..mase aku carik2 cerpen kat tokeikedai,aku jumpe la bende nih..btul ke nih..ke org memain wat lawak jek..bole ke doa camni?
aku bukanle amik nih utk amalkan,tp saje jek sbb aku pk cam plik jek.
..:: Doa Cari Jodoh ::..Posted on: Dec 06, 2003 - 02:58 AM by bee0311
"Ya Allah, kalau dia memang jodohku, jodohkanlah...
Tapi kalau bukan jodohku, Jodohkanlah jugak...
Jika dia tidak berjodoh denganku, maka jadikanlah kami jodoh...
Kalau dia bukan jodohku, jangan sampai dia dapat jodoh yang lain, selain aku...
Kalau dia tidak bisa di jodohkan denganku, jangan sampai dia dapat jodoh yang lain, biarkan dia tidak berjodoh sama seperti diriku...
Dan saat dia telah tidak memiliki jodoh, jodohkanlah kami kembali...
Kalau dia jodoh orang lain, putuskanlah! Jodohkanlah dengan ku....
Jika dia tetap menjadi jodoh orang lain, biar orang itu ketemu jodoh dengan yang lain dulu dan kemudian jodohkan kembali dia dengan ku ... "
Amin...".
aku bukanle amik nih utk amalkan,tp saje jek sbb aku pk cam plik jek.
..:: Doa Cari Jodoh ::..Posted on: Dec 06, 2003 - 02:58 AM by bee0311
"Ya Allah, kalau dia memang jodohku, jodohkanlah...
Tapi kalau bukan jodohku, Jodohkanlah jugak...
Jika dia tidak berjodoh denganku, maka jadikanlah kami jodoh...
Kalau dia bukan jodohku, jangan sampai dia dapat jodoh yang lain, selain aku...
Kalau dia tidak bisa di jodohkan denganku, jangan sampai dia dapat jodoh yang lain, biarkan dia tidak berjodoh sama seperti diriku...
Dan saat dia telah tidak memiliki jodoh, jodohkanlah kami kembali...
Kalau dia jodoh orang lain, putuskanlah! Jodohkanlah dengan ku....
Jika dia tetap menjadi jodoh orang lain, biar orang itu ketemu jodoh dengan yang lain dulu dan kemudian jodohkan kembali dia dengan ku ... "
Amin...".
20 July 2005
erm..patut ke
td mase adik aku baru balik skolah..diorg cite kat kitorg satu family la..psl sorg cikgu nih pukul students..mmg slalu dah dgr psl cikgu nih adik cite..adik kate die garang..
tp mase adik cite td rase sian sgt kat student yg kene tuh...dahla cikgu tuh pukul dlm klas..tampar2 n etc..malu dak tuh satu hal..n sakit satu hal.mmg la dak tuh salah tp budak lg kan.die ponteng klas ptg katenye.maybe ade sbb die ponteng.adik kate die membaca pon tak reti.cube pk,kalo die tak reti membaca,ape prasaan die nak g klas ptg2 yg latih tubi utk upsr..mesti psikologi die pon dah lain psl skolah nih..pukul die bukan caranye,rase aku lah.sian gile r aku dgr.
dak tuh nak ngadu kat parents pon tak brani kot.or maybe dak tuh jd camtuh sbb parents pn cam tak kisah.so cam best jekla cikgu tuh wat pape pon.hampeh tul la.aku nih mmg tak reti bg pendapat intelek,tp cume cam rasa sian sgt2 kat dak tuh.adik ckp kwn die sampai nangis sbb tak sampai hati tgk cikgu wat camtuh.isk sian dak2 kene tgk keganasan dpn mata.dlm bilik darjah plak tuh.tpt yg dikatakan dpt ilmu.
tp mase adik cite td rase sian sgt kat student yg kene tuh...dahla cikgu tuh pukul dlm klas..tampar2 n etc..malu dak tuh satu hal..n sakit satu hal.mmg la dak tuh salah tp budak lg kan.die ponteng klas ptg katenye.maybe ade sbb die ponteng.adik kate die membaca pon tak reti.cube pk,kalo die tak reti membaca,ape prasaan die nak g klas ptg2 yg latih tubi utk upsr..mesti psikologi die pon dah lain psl skolah nih..pukul die bukan caranye,rase aku lah.sian gile r aku dgr.
dak tuh nak ngadu kat parents pon tak brani kot.or maybe dak tuh jd camtuh sbb parents pn cam tak kisah.so cam best jekla cikgu tuh wat pape pon.hampeh tul la.aku nih mmg tak reti bg pendapat intelek,tp cume cam rasa sian sgt2 kat dak tuh.adik ckp kwn die sampai nangis sbb tak sampai hati tgk cikgu wat camtuh.isk sian dak2 kene tgk keganasan dpn mata.dlm bilik darjah plak tuh.tpt yg dikatakan dpt ilmu.
14 July 2005
can we dream of perfect love?
this is a story/article/wutever-u-call-that taken from fanfiction.net.
an adaptation from 'a walk to remember'.reading it tearfully in the middle of the nite made me ponder upon many things in life.as the title goes,can we dream of perfect love, can we?
That night was still one of the most unforgettable nights of my life. Of course it seemed to be the loneliest part of my life. I knew what could have happened even when I asked her to marry me. I knew what life would be for the two of us. I knew how love could be unfair for lovers like Jamie and me.
I never moved on after that incident. I could never accept that Jamie was gone until I finally came to my senses that she would never come back. I love her dearly and I knew she loved me back. I knew it was true love when we held each other’s hands, when we looked at each other’s eyes, and when we heard each other’s voice. It was love that could never be broken. It was the kind of love that could never fade away.
Jamie told me that I should never mourn for her. She told me that I should move on with my life. She wanted me to be happy. How could I be happy when everyday the only person I could only think of is Jamie?How can I ever be happy when up to now I only see her face whenever I close my eyes?
There can never be someone else who can just be like Jamie who became the most important part of my life. There can never be someone else who can inspire my life as much as she did. She was the only girl in my life.
I loved her and even though I know where she is right now, I still love her and this love seems to grow more as each day passes by.
Sometimes I hope that we wouldn’t have to go through all these. Sometimes I even get stupid that I hope that no one would ever have to die so that everyone could just live happily ever after.
But no, there isn’t a happy ending as described in fairy tales. Life is not a fairy tale.
“Landon, I have no reason to be angry with God.”
Those were the words of Jamie when she told me that in time, she would die. At first I didn’t believe her; I was really angry that I almost lost my faith in Him. One thing I didn’t know is that even in my last breathe of life, He will still be the one who will guide me all the way to Jamie.
“Landon, I don’t want to give you false hopes. Please do not have all these dreams with me. You know what may happen.” Jamie silently said those words. We were just talking about how we would spend the rest of that summer.
“No, Jamie. I will build my dreams with you. Don’t think of those. We will live the rest of our lives to the fullest, together.” I reasoned out. After all, she was the person who really taught me how to dream, how to love. I could have almost cried. I just didn’t want to cry in front of her since I was trying to cheer her up. I could only say happy thoughts. I wanted to tell her how afraid I was during those times. I feared that one day I would just wake up and see her breathless beside me. I didn’t want to think of that but it never left my mind. Fear was always in my mind. I didn’t want to lose her.
“Landon, please…” she pleaded. Why did she have to make things harder? Why did she have to put in my mind that she would die any time? “Please don’t. I want you to be happy. I want you to move on. Please don’t build these dreams with me when I can’t even fulfill them with you.” She said in a very solemn tone. I understood her. She didn’t want to make me hope that we would still be spending a very long time together. She knew her condition more than I knew it.
“Okay, let’s stop talking about this. I just wanted to tell you about my suggestions.” Somehow, I just tried to change the topic but I still wanted to dream with her. “We’re going to live at the house in front of your father’s. I already contacted the seller of the lot. What do you think?” I asked. I tried to hide my sadness. I didn’t know if we would still have the chance to live in that house together. The doctor told me that she would no longer live for more than a month. She would die any day. I was really grief-stricken when I heard it from the doctor. I couldn’t do anything. Leukemia was slowly eating her. It took away her life. It was because of that that we’re no longer together right now. Why did she ever have to have Leukemia?
“Yes, of course, it’s really great. I can’t wait to see the house. Is it built already?” she asked. I wondered why there was no trace of fear in her voice. Didn’t she feel bad about her situation? She was dying and she knew it.
I couldn’t help it anymore. I let my tears fall down from my eyes. At nights, I would cry as I watched her sleeping. I would always talk to her even though she was asleep. I told her how much I really love her and how afraid I was to lose her. I was never prepared to lose her but it seemed as though she was already contented with her life.
More tears fell down and hers suddenly began to fall, as well. “Landon, please don’t cry.” She begged. She couldn’t stop me from crying because it was what I’ve been longing to do for ages. I just couldn’t do it in front of her. I would still spend each and every day with her but sometimes she would fall asleep and those times were moments I cried because of fear. Couldn’t I just bet my life? I would have sacrificed my life for her, if only I could. I was more prepared to lose my own life if her life would be the bargain to my death. I would do anything for her; I would do anything to be with her.
“Aren’t you afraid?” I asked. Tears were uncontrollably streaming down from my eyes. It seemed as though I held too much of those tears I couldn’t cry.
“Death? Landon, I love you and you know that. The only thing I am afraid of is the fact that I am going to lose you. I’ve accepted this long ago; I guess I was prepared for it before you came into my life. Now that you’re here, I have a reason to fight death. And I tell you that I will fight death as long as I can because of my love for you.” It was really heart whelming but at the same time, I found it heart breaking. She told me that she’s been prepared to death for how many years already and the only reason she was fighting it is because she didn’t want to let go of me. But I could see that she got weaker every day, every hour, every minute, and every second. I knew she was already in agony. That was the feeling I suffered during those moments. I was afraid to let go of her; I was afraid to lose her.
Crying, I held her hands. She was still lying on her bed when she spent the days most of the time. I wiped her tears off her pale cheeks.
“I love you, Jamie.” I said. I wished she understood how deep my love for her was, is, and will forever be.
I looked at her hands and she was still holding on. I could feel her trembling. I saw how hard it was for her to say: “I love you so much.” Then I realized that with those trembling hands, she finally let go of me.
She was indeed the most colorful part of my life. I never thought that there was real love. All my life, I didn’t have faith in love. I thought that love was just something that people play with as if it were a game.
Jamie, on the other hand, taught me the real meaning of love. It was the love someone would feel when every time he would close his eyes, the only thing he would ever think of is that person he loves most; those eyes that seem to say every loving word in the world; with her voice that would only be heard even though it wasn’t really her exact words. Finally, the lessons that she shared with you, including all those dreams she made with you.
an adaptation from 'a walk to remember'.reading it tearfully in the middle of the nite made me ponder upon many things in life.as the title goes,can we dream of perfect love, can we?
That night was still one of the most unforgettable nights of my life. Of course it seemed to be the loneliest part of my life. I knew what could have happened even when I asked her to marry me. I knew what life would be for the two of us. I knew how love could be unfair for lovers like Jamie and me.
I never moved on after that incident. I could never accept that Jamie was gone until I finally came to my senses that she would never come back. I love her dearly and I knew she loved me back. I knew it was true love when we held each other’s hands, when we looked at each other’s eyes, and when we heard each other’s voice. It was love that could never be broken. It was the kind of love that could never fade away.
Jamie told me that I should never mourn for her. She told me that I should move on with my life. She wanted me to be happy. How could I be happy when everyday the only person I could only think of is Jamie?How can I ever be happy when up to now I only see her face whenever I close my eyes?
There can never be someone else who can just be like Jamie who became the most important part of my life. There can never be someone else who can inspire my life as much as she did. She was the only girl in my life.
I loved her and even though I know where she is right now, I still love her and this love seems to grow more as each day passes by.
Sometimes I hope that we wouldn’t have to go through all these. Sometimes I even get stupid that I hope that no one would ever have to die so that everyone could just live happily ever after.
But no, there isn’t a happy ending as described in fairy tales. Life is not a fairy tale.
“Landon, I have no reason to be angry with God.”
Those were the words of Jamie when she told me that in time, she would die. At first I didn’t believe her; I was really angry that I almost lost my faith in Him. One thing I didn’t know is that even in my last breathe of life, He will still be the one who will guide me all the way to Jamie.
“Landon, I don’t want to give you false hopes. Please do not have all these dreams with me. You know what may happen.” Jamie silently said those words. We were just talking about how we would spend the rest of that summer.
“No, Jamie. I will build my dreams with you. Don’t think of those. We will live the rest of our lives to the fullest, together.” I reasoned out. After all, she was the person who really taught me how to dream, how to love. I could have almost cried. I just didn’t want to cry in front of her since I was trying to cheer her up. I could only say happy thoughts. I wanted to tell her how afraid I was during those times. I feared that one day I would just wake up and see her breathless beside me. I didn’t want to think of that but it never left my mind. Fear was always in my mind. I didn’t want to lose her.
“Landon, please…” she pleaded. Why did she have to make things harder? Why did she have to put in my mind that she would die any time? “Please don’t. I want you to be happy. I want you to move on. Please don’t build these dreams with me when I can’t even fulfill them with you.” She said in a very solemn tone. I understood her. She didn’t want to make me hope that we would still be spending a very long time together. She knew her condition more than I knew it.
“Okay, let’s stop talking about this. I just wanted to tell you about my suggestions.” Somehow, I just tried to change the topic but I still wanted to dream with her. “We’re going to live at the house in front of your father’s. I already contacted the seller of the lot. What do you think?” I asked. I tried to hide my sadness. I didn’t know if we would still have the chance to live in that house together. The doctor told me that she would no longer live for more than a month. She would die any day. I was really grief-stricken when I heard it from the doctor. I couldn’t do anything. Leukemia was slowly eating her. It took away her life. It was because of that that we’re no longer together right now. Why did she ever have to have Leukemia?
“Yes, of course, it’s really great. I can’t wait to see the house. Is it built already?” she asked. I wondered why there was no trace of fear in her voice. Didn’t she feel bad about her situation? She was dying and she knew it.
I couldn’t help it anymore. I let my tears fall down from my eyes. At nights, I would cry as I watched her sleeping. I would always talk to her even though she was asleep. I told her how much I really love her and how afraid I was to lose her. I was never prepared to lose her but it seemed as though she was already contented with her life.
More tears fell down and hers suddenly began to fall, as well. “Landon, please don’t cry.” She begged. She couldn’t stop me from crying because it was what I’ve been longing to do for ages. I just couldn’t do it in front of her. I would still spend each and every day with her but sometimes she would fall asleep and those times were moments I cried because of fear. Couldn’t I just bet my life? I would have sacrificed my life for her, if only I could. I was more prepared to lose my own life if her life would be the bargain to my death. I would do anything for her; I would do anything to be with her.
“Aren’t you afraid?” I asked. Tears were uncontrollably streaming down from my eyes. It seemed as though I held too much of those tears I couldn’t cry.
“Death? Landon, I love you and you know that. The only thing I am afraid of is the fact that I am going to lose you. I’ve accepted this long ago; I guess I was prepared for it before you came into my life. Now that you’re here, I have a reason to fight death. And I tell you that I will fight death as long as I can because of my love for you.” It was really heart whelming but at the same time, I found it heart breaking. She told me that she’s been prepared to death for how many years already and the only reason she was fighting it is because she didn’t want to let go of me. But I could see that she got weaker every day, every hour, every minute, and every second. I knew she was already in agony. That was the feeling I suffered during those moments. I was afraid to let go of her; I was afraid to lose her.
Crying, I held her hands. She was still lying on her bed when she spent the days most of the time. I wiped her tears off her pale cheeks.
“I love you, Jamie.” I said. I wished she understood how deep my love for her was, is, and will forever be.
I looked at her hands and she was still holding on. I could feel her trembling. I saw how hard it was for her to say: “I love you so much.” Then I realized that with those trembling hands, she finally let go of me.
She was indeed the most colorful part of my life. I never thought that there was real love. All my life, I didn’t have faith in love. I thought that love was just something that people play with as if it were a game.
Jamie, on the other hand, taught me the real meaning of love. It was the love someone would feel when every time he would close his eyes, the only thing he would ever think of is that person he loves most; those eyes that seem to say every loving word in the world; with her voice that would only be heard even though it wasn’t really her exact words. Finally, the lessons that she shared with you, including all those dreams she made with you.
13 July 2005
pada harapan dan impian lalu
KiniSetelah lama waktu itu ditinggalkan
Kita cuba mengembalikan
Pada jarak yang memisahkan
Kerana kita tidak lagi sehaluan
Tetapi segalanya tinggal sepi
Kecuali waktu yang berlalu itu
Telah kita tinggalkan jauh
Bersama nostalgia....
.....Pada Harapan dan Impian Lalu ....
12 July 2005
a girl a the window pane
hehehe..baru lps iklan cite 'just one look'..erm, background nye gune lagu lame..aku tatau r tajuk lagu tuh..tp ade ckp psl sorg pompuan at the window pane tgk hujan turun...
erm..cite 'take my word for it' td pon aku sudah jatuh cinta lg..jatuh cinta sama yeung kwong..heheh..bape kali aku nak jatuh cinta nye??
erm..ape lg ek..rase cam byk jek nak ckp td..skrg trus tak ingat..erm..seriously aku rase nak mase grak slow2 jek..sbb rase syg sgt ngan lifestyle camni..free jek..bgn tido mkn tgk tv online bla bla bla...lps nih start jek masuk u mmg dah takkan rase camni..lps grad pon kene keje lg..lg pnat.. cane nih?bole stopkan jam tak?
nape asyik takde idea jek???
uihs
lantakla
eee sejuknye...pakai stoking dlm umah pon sjuk lg..siap kene pakai jacket plak tuh..
11 July 2005
burpp
aku kenyang
nak muntah plak rase
aku tgh suke nih..sbb cam snang la plak aku nak update fotopage aku..
yg penting..ade kesabaran..hehe..
hari nih busy skit..skit jek la..
bgn awal la..[nak dkt kol 7]
sbb nak ikut mak g kuantan
ade majlis ape ntah
nuaramalina yg dpt 17 A tuh dtg
erm..okla kot..cume busan2 sbb lame sgt
just imagine la,dr pagi sampai kol 3 dok atas kusi dalm dewan tuh
nsb baik kitorg sampai lambat..kitorh masuk kol 11
then g umah kwn mak..cik norlela..kat indera mahkota
umah die lawa
tudor style
husband die DR.
they r both australian grad. =)
balik umah trus ngadap tv
ade take my word for it
dah nak abis pon.cite ganti die cam tak best
oh!feel young pon dah nak abis..ganti ngan cite jepon
full house..rasenye best sbb byk jumpe kat frenster senior eire..
then dr kol 9.30 td sampai skarg..online la..
ape lg!!!
nak muntah plak rase
aku tgh suke nih..sbb cam snang la plak aku nak update fotopage aku..
yg penting..ade kesabaran..hehe..
hari nih busy skit..skit jek la..
bgn awal la..[nak dkt kol 7]
sbb nak ikut mak g kuantan
ade majlis ape ntah
nuaramalina yg dpt 17 A tuh dtg
erm..okla kot..cume busan2 sbb lame sgt
just imagine la,dr pagi sampai kol 3 dok atas kusi dalm dewan tuh
nsb baik kitorg sampai lambat..kitorh masuk kol 11
then g umah kwn mak..cik norlela..kat indera mahkota
umah die lawa
tudor style
husband die DR.
they r both australian grad. =)
balik umah trus ngadap tv
ade take my word for it
dah nak abis pon.cite ganti die cam tak best
oh!feel young pon dah nak abis..ganti ngan cite jepon
full house..rasenye best sbb byk jumpe kat frenster senior eire..
then dr kol 9.30 td sampai skarg..online la..
ape lg!!!
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