Priority Seating

setiap kali naik bus, saya amat tidak selesa duduk tingkat bawah

sebab rase amat conscious terhadap penumpang-penumpang lain..

terfikir 'eh makcik ni cukup tua tak utk saya bangun and offer my seat?'

memang benda ni tak perlu penat fikir sangat pun

kalau di Malaysia memang saya rasa clear-cut sikit antara tua dan muda

tapi di sini kadang-kadang yang tua tak rasa tua sangat

semangat juang mereka masih kuat sampai ke bongkok tiga

kadang-kadang risau kalau mereka feel insulted anggap mereka tak mampu berdiri..

so daripada saya confuse2 fikir perlu offer ke tak seat saya kepada orang-orang lain, saya akan terus naik ke tingkat atas kalau perjalanan bus melebihi 10 minit..

macam besar la sangat kan masalah saya ni

cuma di sini cuma saya nak kongsikan bahawa orang tua mereka berbeza

haritu ade sorang pakcik tu mcm dah jalan pon takdela stabil sangat..

saya bangun dan offer seat saya..

lantas die berkata 'so, what about you?'

erk..takkan saya nak cakap yang saya masih muda dan masih bertenaga gagah perkasa kan

so saya jawab aje 'my stop is just few stops away'..

tiba-tiba teringat naik #londonredbus ngan Mummy and Daddy aritu

winduuu...

Angan-angan...

This is my new wallpaper for the aifon... 

I can feel some kind of peace in my chest looking at this pic.. 

It perfectly describes my definition of a perfect day, sitting down with probably hotchoc in my type of mug, doing things with no due date.. 

InsyaAllah, one day i can find that peace.. 

Pic source : Google

One Step At A Time..

i have been waiting for this first meeting with my project supervisor since last year, before the christmas break.. 

and finally today I can slightly feel at ease knowing that we kind of agreed on the specific research for the dissertation

i know that i want to do this project with him since the first time i heard his name during the orientation week

he has a big name in PCOS

i find PCOS interesting not because of my own experience living with it..

but i know this is the area that can cover almost every system in human body

..i hope everything will turn out well with this project

so here i am feeling motivated..

but for how long this will last?

this coming module (Breast and Reproductive Cancer) demands my whole weekdays..

plus that it's is not my 'thing'.. not my passion..

oh btw, i learned one interesting trivial fact today

the ratio between your second and fourth fingers can say a lot about your early life as an embryo in the past..

 i'll try to find any paper supporting the theory, and i'll share later okeh!

Footnote:

sistem MSc kat UK generally sama je camni.. untuk yang amik full-time, it'll be one whole year.. September-June akan ade taught classes and/or exams.. then starting June - September, akan sepenuhnya work on a project for dissertation..walaupon project lambat lagi tapi dah knee start apply for ethics approval etc.. and dah patut buat background reading/literature review..

NUR MARYAM...

7 hari yang lalu Nur Maryam hadir dalam hidup kami

masa tu dah lewat malam di sini..

dalam pukul 2-3 pagi la masa tu..

memang tak lena tidur tak tahu kenapa, jadi saya duk menonton drama melayu je la bersilih ganti

terkejut tiba-tibe mendapat berita Nur dah dilahirkan

sangat sangat excited!

rupenya takde entry pasal Nur langsung lagi..

sebab gambar-gambar Nur semua dalam aifon..

semoga Nur akan menjadi seorang gegurl yang ayu..

dan penyayang seperti abang Umar nya itu..

semoga Nur boleh menjadi rakan kepada makcik-maciknya ini

tak sabar nak spoilkan Nur pulak lepas ni..

gegurl lagi best laa nak spoilkan sebab banyak option..

jangan salah faham,saya memang tidak menyokong mendidik anak-anak terlalu mewah atau manja..

tapi tu tugas ibu bapanya la untuk disiplin kan die..

bile die bersama makciknya, ini sahaja peluang untuk naik lemak ok Nur!

ini pula gambar terbaru Luqman yang menjadi favourite saya

macam sangat happy kan Luq!

tu pon masa die tak berapa sihat, muntah-muntah and tengah tunggu nak jumpe dokter kat klinik

ini pula seorang budak yang baru menjadi Abang..

dia sangat menyayangi adiknya..

tak putus-putus duk cium Nur Maryam..

Are there too many caesarean sections?

so we had a 'debate' session earlier this week

i was in the group for 'There are too many Caesarean Sections'

so i think i would share a few points here

so what are our recent rates of C-section ?

huge variation of caesarean section rates depends largely on which setting you are looking at

u may find a relatively higher rate in tertiery setting where they get all the complicated referrals

..but even higher rate is seen in private setting

while preparing for the debate, i tried to look for the prevalence of 'non-medically indicated caesarean section rate'.. but i doubt the figures that i found, it's too low!

in private setting (where most of the non-medically-indicated), u can always justify your indication

and caesarean-on-maternal-request is now becoming more acceptable..

so the statistics may be inaccurate

people argue that why would you be denied the right for a caesarean section if you can afford it?

i might be bias in saying this, but did all of the mother know the exact risk they are dealing with?

yes, women rarely die from childbirth nowadays, but do you know the financial burden and morbidities caused by this increasing rate?

doctors are seeing more rare conditions such as 'placenta accrete/percreta' nowadays

and evidence are saying this is due to the increasing rate of caesarean section

but in some parts of the world, the caesarean section rate is too low

this underuse of c-section is reflected by its high neonatal mortality rate

it's not fair right?

some parts of the world, we are overusing it, 

but somewhere else, people are dying without it...

but it's never going to be fair..

the main point is,

even if we live in a place where you can pay for everything,

think wisely

is the risk taken worth the benefit?

*end-of-module-blues*

#ilikethismodule

Aglio E Olio On Saturday

Believe it or not this is my first time making my own Aglio E Olio.. seriously!

the best i had so far was Enab's.. and i will never forget it..

and why now? 

Paih has been like 'awak...saya rasa terliuur sgt nak olio olio' for quite sometime..

and being me, i could never live without nasi, so his wish were left hanging..

but on my way home yesterday, suddenly it struck me that..

'hmmm ape salahnye tak makan nasi esok kan'

so here we are.. 3 rounds of Aglio E Olio in 1 day!!

(i couldn't find fresh parsley and parmesan @Tesco today)

but mine was quite dry because i haven't got enough olio d'oliva

but it tastes yummy nevertheless!!

but it doesn't look good enough without sprinkles of green fresh parsley

i know it's the simplest italian meal, but i'm still super excited because i don't know why i haven't tried this earlier

the trickiest part is 'garam gula secukup rasa' part

most recipes will say 'a pinch of salt' or 'secubit garam dan gula'

no no no, it's not that simple okay!

 Chef John  mentioned about the key part of the recipe is toasting the garlic..

"No two spaghetti aglio e olio recipes are alike, but this one is pretty true to the classic method. The key is slowly toasting the garlic slices to a perfect golden-brown in the olive oil. If it's too light, you don't get the full flavor and if it's too dark it gets bitter. My advice? Do it perfectly."

So here is the one that i used from Food Network

Happiness is..

Suke tak suke tak? Sukeeee.. 

Italian Lace

During our stay in Italy, we noticed that laces and needleworks are a common part of their life.. The first house that we rented in Chianni, Tuscany were full of these.. All the beddings, napkins and table runners were sooo sweet and mouth-watering (yes!!that's definitely the word i intent to use).. The owner had a hard time trying to think where can we buy them as almost everything in their house are hand-made by their moms and grandmoms.. 

And this little kitty is on the front door of a lace-shop in Lago Maggiore, but unfortunately it was closed on that day. 

In Florence, we went into a shop that sells maybe this kind of thing,towels and   napkins. It was not 'made-in-china' usual thing.. It was said to be pure 'Tuscan Fabrics'.. Omg really drooling! But as it is in the middle of Ponte Vecchio (the main tourist attraction in Florence), the price was ridiculous..so we didnt buy anything from that shop. 

But at least we had our time in La Rosa, a small suburb in the valley in Tuscany.. The owner of the first house suggested that place, Magazzini Mangini. It was a big outlet of home supplies, but there was a big section that suits our taste.

Kak Noni said that Mummy's smile was the most obvious thing in this picture.. 

We were all sooo over the moon! Grabbing whatever we think will look nice  in our house! Aaaa even thinking about it makes me cry out of joy!! 

And then my thoughts were back to my previously mentioned 'intention' to learn knitting or crocheting. I dont have any basic knowledge about either of them, so i Googled. So i guess maybe i'll give crocheting a try (later). Firstly, I have to get myself a 'crochet for beginner kit'.. But the angan-angan can start from now kan.. 

All this crochet images are from Google.. Aisya, i will make you this baby elephant one day.. InsyaAllah.. Because i know your have the loudest laugh at the moment! Hihi. 

Gastronomy

This is some of our daily meals for the past 10 days in Italy. They were the simplest and cheapest way to keep our tummy happy 😘 some of them were prepared with only vegies and onion without any frying..

On good days, we had Tonno (tuna) with our pasta.. For kelantanese tastebuds like mine, Riso is easily available at the supermarceto.. And throughout our long drive, I had my crackers or pancakes with Nutella dip..the best snack ever,!!!

Seventh Anniversary!

Be prepared! my entries will be flooded with our winterbreak pics soon.. Oh i missed the entry for 26th of December and 1st of January, the dates that reminds me how lucky I was to find him *blush-blush* ^_^

So now we are back to London after TWELVE days in Italy! Omg, seriously it was the trip of our lifetime..we have dreamt for this trip for six(maybe) years.. We had so much fun compiling our 'travel-the-world-with-us' wishlist back then.. *soo childish!!* we promised ourselves to update that blog while ticking off the list, but time passed by, we were carried away with 'growing-up' that we forgot about it. 

So Sayang, Happy Anniversary to us! Hope you had a great time, as much as i did, during this winter break with Mummy, Daddy and Balqis. 

You are my Hunny Bunny

You are the Love that can never be replaced. 

You are my perfect imperfection! 

Imagining myself doing this..

If only i have the talent and the gene..i know my sis are laughing their lung out reading this..

but seriously my heart flutters a bit thinking about how fun it is to be doing this while sitting on a comfy fluffy English armchair.. I know someone who can do this just from online lessons, but i still doubt my own 'tangan tak berseni'..

Maybe one day...

Each Year I Fall In Love Again With You

When I first (erkk, wasn't totally the first time) met you all those years ago,
I fell in love so fast, I knew right then,
You were the one and only one for me;
I'd never have to look for love again (seriously!!).

Each anniversary finds us happier;
You are my light--my moon, my star, my sun.
You show me what real love is all about,
You fill my life with pleasure, joy and fun.

As time goes by, our love grows stronger still.
You're the most amazing man I ever knew.
Each year I fall in love again with you.

By Joanna Fuchs

Angin malam..

omg!! saya tengah sepenuh perasaan melayan lagu-lagu broery!!

lagi haru sebab tak dapat terus nak share dengan aisya and balqis sebab dua-dua sibuk nak exam..

saya ni org dah abis exam..kikiki..

arrghhh nak duet ngan mereka sekarang jugak!!! 

lagu yang paling saya terbuai adelah lagu 'angin malam'..

tapi tk jumpe la pulak nk download kat mane yang tak perlu register.. 

saya bercadang nak dengar lagu-lagu broery la mase jalan-jalan kat Italy nanti..

feeling skit :p

Jane Austen Land

seumur hidup saya, walaupon sering mendapat peluang membaca tulisan Jane Austen, saya tak pernah terpanggil untuk membacanya..mungkin kerana terlalu banyak perbincangan mengenainya menyebabkan saya merasakan ia adalah bacaan serius dan takut tak bersesuaian dengan jiwa saya...

satu-satunya Jane Austen-related story yang perch saya baca adelah 'I Was Jane Austen's Best Friend' hasil karya Cora Harrison. Sesungguhnya saya memang amat meminati buku tersebut kerana saya memang amat menggemari setting klasik hasil tulisan zaman moden seperti karya Julia Quinn. buku ini membuat saya sering tergelak seorang diri dan saya tidak dapat meletakkan buku itu sehingga ke mukasurat terakhir (unsur exagerasi sedikit di situ sebenarnya).

sejak dari itu saya menyimpan azam untuk memiliki novel kedua hasil karya penulis yang sama yang amat rapat persamaannya dengan buku pertama tersebut, namun belum pernah ketemu. tidaklah saya sampai mencari di Amazon pon kerana bagi saya jika ia hadir di hadapan saya, saya anggap ia adalah Jodoh... jodoh bukan untuk dicari, namun untuk ditemui... itu pendapat saya, pegangan saya secara amnya.. ia seperti kehidupan saya...tidak perlu terlalu menginginkan sesuatu, ia akan datang jika ia milik kita. tapi tidaklah bermaksud tidak bole bermimpi tinggi ke awan, tapi lebih selamat jika tenang begitu. oh sudah kisah kehidupan lain pula. 

so inilah buku kedua kesinambungan dari buku tadi, 'Jane Austen Stole My Boyfriend'. melihatkan tajuk sahaja pun sudah memadai membuatkan saya melompat di dalam hati...insyaAllah, suatu hari.

 selain dari itu, tidak pernah terlintas untuk mempunyai koleksi Jane Austen yang sebenar.

tapi pada suatu hari, saya ke British Library Gift Shop. terdapat satu ruang khas untuk Jane Austen's Collection. bukan, bukan buku-bukunya dijual di situ...yang terdapat disitu adalah collector's item untuk peminat  tegar Jane Austen..terdapat buku-buku seperti 'Jane Austen's Guide to Modern Life Dilemma', 'The Jane Austen Handbook' dan sebagainya.. terdapat satu rak penuh dengan barang-barang bertemakan penulis tersebut seperti 'ipad cover', jewellery boxes etc.. pada masa itu saya dapat bayangkan bahawasanya Jane Austen sudah tentu memberi impak besar kepada para pembaca hasil-hasilnya. 

lantas saya terfikir, kenapa tidak saya cuba?

sambil menunggu bus 56 di Angel Station, saya singgah sebentar di The Book Warehouse, sebuah kedai buku yang sering saya kunjungi. wah terdapat promosi buku-buku klasik... 3 bijik £5.99 sahaja.. terus sahaja saya mengambil peluang tersebut sebagai motivasi menanti tamatnya peperiksaan..

sejurus selepas peperiksaan, saya menonton sebuah filem 'The Jane Austen Book Club' untuk mendapatkan mood yang sesuai sebelum memulakan pembacaan saya.. sekadar mendapatkan mood dan emosi yang sesuai..

benar seperti dijangka, filem ini membuatkan saya tertanya-tanya apakah kisah dalam novel-novel asalnya..

cube tengok trailer ini,  antara anda amat menyukainya atau langsung tidak berminat.. ia adalah bersifat 'all-or-nothing'.. filem ini bukanlah adaptasi novel-novel Jane Austen secara terus.. ia mengisahkan 5 wanita menghadapi liku-liku kehidupan namun bersatu melalui 'book-club' mereka...sudah tentu la lelaki sorang tu menjadi perhatian saya :p

banyak lagi dalam perancangan saya...setelah menghabiskan tiga novel ini, saya bercadang mau mendapatkan 3 bijik yang lain pula... kemudian mula satu persatu menonton filem adaptasi novel-novel tersebut pula.. selepas itu saya akan cube membuat koleksi hasil-hasil adaptasi karya Jane Austen yang ditulis oleh penulis lain.. yang santai-santai je la mcm Cora Harrison punye tadi tu.. banyak rupanya..contohnya 'Mr. Darcy's Daugters', 'Little Miss Austen',  'Young Mr Darcy In Love' and etc..

ok, sehingga ketemu lagi..

saya ingin meneruskan pembacaan...

selamat malam..

Loveless Century..

so we've just watched this movie

'My Future Boyfriend'

it's about a CUTE guy *cough-cough* from the future,

from the year 3127 to be exact!

he found a box full of currencies dated 2012 with a novel,

a love story..

he was perplexed by the book, by the words he haven't heard before..

it seems like there'll be no more LOVE, PASSION, LUST in their century

as it was described as some kind of virus that make people act strangely and in illogical way..

they believed that it is the root cause of all the sufferings in this world

*it may be true, right?*

therefore, the word LOVE was erased from their world

so out of curiosity, this guy traveled back to 2012 to meet the book writer

this time-travel was initially solely scientific journey with the purpose of finding out what is LOVE and why is it so dangerous..

yes this movie is beyond logic, but i like the essence of it

the whole story is like trying to define LOVE

which is something to be experienced..indescribable..

oh actually i don't intent to write a review or anything

just wanna keep few of my favourite quotes from the movie

this is how she tried to explain what is love..

It's something that happens when you meet someone that you feel deeply connected to. And, it's not like that connection is a product of anything, intentional, but rather, something outside, of yourself. Something that you can't fight. Something that was, just, meant to be. Something that makes you wish you could live forever so you would never have to be without it.

Something that you can't fight; something that was just meant to be; 
something that makes you wish you could live forever so you would 
never have to be without it..

i was thinking.. what if we really live in a loveless century?

what if people stop needing love?

what if worldly longings replace the need for a pure passion?

what if people never care about it anymore?

how lost the world would be..

how lucky we are to be in love..

Alhamdulillah...

*this wintery weather does make people excessively sentimental*

^_^

I found this cake on fb (credit to whom it may concern) :p 

Sarah : Sayang, saya save gambar cake ni dalam iPhone saye tau.. Nanti balik Malaysia bile birthday saya, awak senyap-senyap cari balik gambar ni dalam phone saye tu and tunjuk kat tukang kek ek? Kire seprais laa..

Paih : haa???tanak!!  Ikut saya la nak pilih cake camane nanti.. 

Now, i'm sooo sad... Sad.. Sad... 

LoveS and London..

Tidak pernah bosan untuk berjalan mengambil angin bercinta di pinggiran Thames.. Walaupon keramaian orang dan pelancong sedikit sebanyak mengurangkan suasana sentimentalnya.. Tapi inilah impianku.. 

Lagi indah jika insan-insan tersayang lain dapat turut bersama.. 

Lagi-lagi indah kalau Paih berjaya membeli kamera DSLR baru untuk menggantikan yang lamanya..kikiki..

Autumn

When I rarely updated my blogs, there's only 2 possible explanations; it's either life is too stressful/demanding or life has been too good... i noticed my pattern of blogging now.. i tend to blog (sometimes can be several entries per day) if life is boring and mundane.. but today, i'm neither boring nor jobless..i just wanted to make sure i have something to look into someday..

it's supposed to be Autumn now, but it was like my Winter in Melbourne..it gets dark at 4pm and intermittently wet.. therefore we have limited time and place to hang out and date..we tried to at least go the park once a week over the weekend though.. i think we've missed the yellow leaves (but we do have a photo with the yellows at the square next to our apartment.. all the parks are brown now.. 

i will never get bored talking about the seasons and how it relates to my feeling.. i've always associate them with movies/songs and i will bore Paih with my stories of how the songs relate to me in the past. so far, i sang Amy Mastura's Kasih Kita and Nora's Hadirlah kekasih as we strolled down the Green Park.. can't wait to play Winter Sonata soon in coming few months..

Judge A Book by Its Cover

this is one of the topic that i searched on YouTube because i think visual learning is easier than textbook reading (plus the fact that the time is running out, exam is next week).. and this video was the first on the search result for 'Comparative Genomic Hybridisation'.. as u can see, the video was not impressive enough, therefore i've tried other videos first... but then, as i read the review for this video, i might need to give it a try..a lot positive comments saying his explanation is very clear and structured.. 

as i try to concentrate on the topic, i can't help but thinking about why does he need to use the big headphones like that..cant he just use small mic attached to his video cam or whatever.. seriously i can't focus! but it seems that he made a lot of biological videos with good reviews.. 

**lol-ing dalam hati**

The Main Quad

so this is the main building of my uni (this view is taken from Paih's phone while waiting for my class to finish), and it's on the uni's logo..the name of our online student portal is also originally related to this building, Portico. which i Googled, means ..

A portico (from Italian) is a porch leading to the entrance of a building, or extended as a colonnade, with a roof structure over a walkway, supported by columns or enclosed by walls. - Wikipedia

i am, obviously, so excited with all this old building as my Monash building was totally different from these classic 1800s building...  wait till i take more pictures of the Cruciform building, which is now our library..and again, it is totally something to be excited about since it is a 24-hour operating library, yeayy!! (not that i will be there day and night, but the idea of unlimited access to books and knowledge somehow excites me)..

i am yet to take couple pic with Paih in front of these wonderful building! will wait till the crowd is less on campus..

"The important thing is not to stop questioning. Curiosity has its own reason for existing. One cannot help but be in awe when he contemplates the mysteries of eternity, of life, of the marvellous structure of reality. It is enough if one tries merely to comprehend a little of this mystery every day. Never lose a holy curiosity."

Albert Einstein
US (German-born) physicist (1879 - 1955)

That was on the first slide today during our intro week.. a lot to share, honestly..but still a little bit overwhelmed with this whole room/studio searching thoughts.. 

the thought about 'is this the right decision?' kept lingering my mind every time our search failed. i kept thinking about the comfort zone we were in back in our own country, with good pay checks, reasonable power of purchase..suddenly, we became like 'err..that'll cost us 1pound extra!'.. so yeah, until we've found a good place to stay, i think i will keep on worrying about our decision..not that i regret this path, but..doubting our ability to stay strong.. 

leaving everything behind.. we sacrificed.. hopefully for a better future...insyaAllah..

hopefully i can soon say, 'apart from the hassles of house-hunting, London is great' like other bloggers (including balqis's fav blogger) had mentioned hundreds of times before.. i'm not alone, every newcomers found this house hunting very depressing (unless you have unlimited financial source)... 

Packing is hard..so many things to keep, yet so little space to take..

Patut ke tak bawak bear-bear ni?

Patut ke tak bawak bedsheets?

Patut ke tak bawak iron sendiri?

Patut ke tak bawak A4 paper?

It wasnt this hard last time.. Tapi siapa kata jalan ini mudah kan? 

Bercampur pula tenaga sekarang tak sebanyak tenaga ketika remaja dulu.. I'm aging! 

Wishing us all the luck in this world...

My new 4 apps! Excited la jugak sikit-sikit kan.. Risau sebab takut setahun tak cukup masa nak live my dreamlife.. 

Saya berangan nak dating-dating kat park sambil study..

Saya berangan nak visit all the famous places with Paih...

Saya berangan nak capture the moments  dalam susah senang kami mencapai cita-cita..

Dan akhir sekali harapan kami menggunung untuk bergambar bersama dengan graduation robe and hat.. InsyaAllah.. 

Jalan ini tidak mudah...

Tangga-tangga kejayaan..

All these paperworks does not include the academic activities at all! 

Continuously stressed out for almost 7 months! 

I need to write a memoir about this bumpy road later, once everything has settled..

Not my fault!!

Ohmaigod.. Brape ribu photos dalam fon ini untuk di delete.. Ini terjadi setelah Numa mendapat monopod.. Kadang2 die pegang monopod je then pakcik die pegang shutter and clicked repeatedly for  zillions of times.. Kadang2 die letak monopod atas meja and die sendiri pegang shutter.. 

Seriously i tak ajar Numa buat #duckface ponnn bile selfie.. i guess that's primate's instinct laa.. So takle nak blame all the girls yang selfie with #duckface and #bajetkiut itu, it's coded! 

So who wanna take the job of screening these photos and delete the unwanted? But in most of them, Numa's expression is so priceless.. Every smirk,every smile..