hehe..mase aku carik2 cerpen kat tokeikedai,aku jumpe la bende nih..btul ke nih..ke org memain wat lawak jek..bole ke doa camni?
aku bukanle amik nih utk amalkan,tp saje jek sbb aku pk cam plik jek.
..:: Doa Cari Jodoh ::..Posted on: Dec 06, 2003 - 02:58 AM by bee0311
"Ya Allah, kalau dia memang jodohku, jodohkanlah...
Tapi kalau bukan jodohku, Jodohkanlah jugak...
Jika dia tidak berjodoh denganku, maka jadikanlah kami jodoh...
Kalau dia bukan jodohku, jangan sampai dia dapat jodoh yang lain, selain aku...
Kalau dia tidak bisa di jodohkan denganku, jangan sampai dia dapat jodoh yang lain, biarkan dia tidak berjodoh sama seperti diriku...
Dan saat dia telah tidak memiliki jodoh, jodohkanlah kami kembali...
Kalau dia jodoh orang lain, putuskanlah! Jodohkanlah dengan ku....
Jika dia tetap menjadi jodoh orang lain, biar orang itu ketemu jodoh dengan yang lain dulu dan kemudian jodohkan kembali dia dengan ku ... "
Amin...".
26 July 2005
20 July 2005
erm..patut ke
td mase adik aku baru balik skolah..diorg cite kat kitorg satu family la..psl sorg cikgu nih pukul students..mmg slalu dah dgr psl cikgu nih adik cite..adik kate die garang..
tp mase adik cite td rase sian sgt kat student yg kene tuh...dahla cikgu tuh pukul dlm klas..tampar2 n etc..malu dak tuh satu hal..n sakit satu hal.mmg la dak tuh salah tp budak lg kan.die ponteng klas ptg katenye.maybe ade sbb die ponteng.adik kate die membaca pon tak reti.cube pk,kalo die tak reti membaca,ape prasaan die nak g klas ptg2 yg latih tubi utk upsr..mesti psikologi die pon dah lain psl skolah nih..pukul die bukan caranye,rase aku lah.sian gile r aku dgr.
dak tuh nak ngadu kat parents pon tak brani kot.or maybe dak tuh jd camtuh sbb parents pn cam tak kisah.so cam best jekla cikgu tuh wat pape pon.hampeh tul la.aku nih mmg tak reti bg pendapat intelek,tp cume cam rasa sian sgt2 kat dak tuh.adik ckp kwn die sampai nangis sbb tak sampai hati tgk cikgu wat camtuh.isk sian dak2 kene tgk keganasan dpn mata.dlm bilik darjah plak tuh.tpt yg dikatakan dpt ilmu.
tp mase adik cite td rase sian sgt kat student yg kene tuh...dahla cikgu tuh pukul dlm klas..tampar2 n etc..malu dak tuh satu hal..n sakit satu hal.mmg la dak tuh salah tp budak lg kan.die ponteng klas ptg katenye.maybe ade sbb die ponteng.adik kate die membaca pon tak reti.cube pk,kalo die tak reti membaca,ape prasaan die nak g klas ptg2 yg latih tubi utk upsr..mesti psikologi die pon dah lain psl skolah nih..pukul die bukan caranye,rase aku lah.sian gile r aku dgr.
dak tuh nak ngadu kat parents pon tak brani kot.or maybe dak tuh jd camtuh sbb parents pn cam tak kisah.so cam best jekla cikgu tuh wat pape pon.hampeh tul la.aku nih mmg tak reti bg pendapat intelek,tp cume cam rasa sian sgt2 kat dak tuh.adik ckp kwn die sampai nangis sbb tak sampai hati tgk cikgu wat camtuh.isk sian dak2 kene tgk keganasan dpn mata.dlm bilik darjah plak tuh.tpt yg dikatakan dpt ilmu.
14 July 2005
can we dream of perfect love?
this is a story/article/wutever-u-call-that taken from fanfiction.net.
an adaptation from 'a walk to remember'.reading it tearfully in the middle of the nite made me ponder upon many things in life.as the title goes,can we dream of perfect love, can we?
That night was still one of the most unforgettable nights of my life. Of course it seemed to be the loneliest part of my life. I knew what could have happened even when I asked her to marry me. I knew what life would be for the two of us. I knew how love could be unfair for lovers like Jamie and me.
I never moved on after that incident. I could never accept that Jamie was gone until I finally came to my senses that she would never come back. I love her dearly and I knew she loved me back. I knew it was true love when we held each other’s hands, when we looked at each other’s eyes, and when we heard each other’s voice. It was love that could never be broken. It was the kind of love that could never fade away.
Jamie told me that I should never mourn for her. She told me that I should move on with my life. She wanted me to be happy. How could I be happy when everyday the only person I could only think of is Jamie?How can I ever be happy when up to now I only see her face whenever I close my eyes?
There can never be someone else who can just be like Jamie who became the most important part of my life. There can never be someone else who can inspire my life as much as she did. She was the only girl in my life.
I loved her and even though I know where she is right now, I still love her and this love seems to grow more as each day passes by.
Sometimes I hope that we wouldn’t have to go through all these. Sometimes I even get stupid that I hope that no one would ever have to die so that everyone could just live happily ever after.
But no, there isn’t a happy ending as described in fairy tales. Life is not a fairy tale.
“Landon, I have no reason to be angry with God.”
Those were the words of Jamie when she told me that in time, she would die. At first I didn’t believe her; I was really angry that I almost lost my faith in Him. One thing I didn’t know is that even in my last breathe of life, He will still be the one who will guide me all the way to Jamie.
“Landon, I don’t want to give you false hopes. Please do not have all these dreams with me. You know what may happen.” Jamie silently said those words. We were just talking about how we would spend the rest of that summer.
“No, Jamie. I will build my dreams with you. Don’t think of those. We will live the rest of our lives to the fullest, together.” I reasoned out. After all, she was the person who really taught me how to dream, how to love. I could have almost cried. I just didn’t want to cry in front of her since I was trying to cheer her up. I could only say happy thoughts. I wanted to tell her how afraid I was during those times. I feared that one day I would just wake up and see her breathless beside me. I didn’t want to think of that but it never left my mind. Fear was always in my mind. I didn’t want to lose her.
“Landon, please…” she pleaded. Why did she have to make things harder? Why did she have to put in my mind that she would die any time? “Please don’t. I want you to be happy. I want you to move on. Please don’t build these dreams with me when I can’t even fulfill them with you.” She said in a very solemn tone. I understood her. She didn’t want to make me hope that we would still be spending a very long time together. She knew her condition more than I knew it.
“Okay, let’s stop talking about this. I just wanted to tell you about my suggestions.” Somehow, I just tried to change the topic but I still wanted to dream with her. “We’re going to live at the house in front of your father’s. I already contacted the seller of the lot. What do you think?” I asked. I tried to hide my sadness. I didn’t know if we would still have the chance to live in that house together. The doctor told me that she would no longer live for more than a month. She would die any day. I was really grief-stricken when I heard it from the doctor. I couldn’t do anything. Leukemia was slowly eating her. It took away her life. It was because of that that we’re no longer together right now. Why did she ever have to have Leukemia?
“Yes, of course, it’s really great. I can’t wait to see the house. Is it built already?” she asked. I wondered why there was no trace of fear in her voice. Didn’t she feel bad about her situation? She was dying and she knew it.
I couldn’t help it anymore. I let my tears fall down from my eyes. At nights, I would cry as I watched her sleeping. I would always talk to her even though she was asleep. I told her how much I really love her and how afraid I was to lose her. I was never prepared to lose her but it seemed as though she was already contented with her life.
More tears fell down and hers suddenly began to fall, as well. “Landon, please don’t cry.” She begged. She couldn’t stop me from crying because it was what I’ve been longing to do for ages. I just couldn’t do it in front of her. I would still spend each and every day with her but sometimes she would fall asleep and those times were moments I cried because of fear. Couldn’t I just bet my life? I would have sacrificed my life for her, if only I could. I was more prepared to lose my own life if her life would be the bargain to my death. I would do anything for her; I would do anything to be with her.
“Aren’t you afraid?” I asked. Tears were uncontrollably streaming down from my eyes. It seemed as though I held too much of those tears I couldn’t cry.
“Death? Landon, I love you and you know that. The only thing I am afraid of is the fact that I am going to lose you. I’ve accepted this long ago; I guess I was prepared for it before you came into my life. Now that you’re here, I have a reason to fight death. And I tell you that I will fight death as long as I can because of my love for you.” It was really heart whelming but at the same time, I found it heart breaking. She told me that she’s been prepared to death for how many years already and the only reason she was fighting it is because she didn’t want to let go of me. But I could see that she got weaker every day, every hour, every minute, and every second. I knew she was already in agony. That was the feeling I suffered during those moments. I was afraid to let go of her; I was afraid to lose her.
Crying, I held her hands. She was still lying on her bed when she spent the days most of the time. I wiped her tears off her pale cheeks.
“I love you, Jamie.” I said. I wished she understood how deep my love for her was, is, and will forever be.
I looked at her hands and she was still holding on. I could feel her trembling. I saw how hard it was for her to say: “I love you so much.” Then I realized that with those trembling hands, she finally let go of me.
She was indeed the most colorful part of my life. I never thought that there was real love. All my life, I didn’t have faith in love. I thought that love was just something that people play with as if it were a game.
Jamie, on the other hand, taught me the real meaning of love. It was the love someone would feel when every time he would close his eyes, the only thing he would ever think of is that person he loves most; those eyes that seem to say every loving word in the world; with her voice that would only be heard even though it wasn’t really her exact words. Finally, the lessons that she shared with you, including all those dreams she made with you.
an adaptation from 'a walk to remember'.reading it tearfully in the middle of the nite made me ponder upon many things in life.as the title goes,can we dream of perfect love, can we?
That night was still one of the most unforgettable nights of my life. Of course it seemed to be the loneliest part of my life. I knew what could have happened even when I asked her to marry me. I knew what life would be for the two of us. I knew how love could be unfair for lovers like Jamie and me.
I never moved on after that incident. I could never accept that Jamie was gone until I finally came to my senses that she would never come back. I love her dearly and I knew she loved me back. I knew it was true love when we held each other’s hands, when we looked at each other’s eyes, and when we heard each other’s voice. It was love that could never be broken. It was the kind of love that could never fade away.
Jamie told me that I should never mourn for her. She told me that I should move on with my life. She wanted me to be happy. How could I be happy when everyday the only person I could only think of is Jamie?How can I ever be happy when up to now I only see her face whenever I close my eyes?
There can never be someone else who can just be like Jamie who became the most important part of my life. There can never be someone else who can inspire my life as much as she did. She was the only girl in my life.
I loved her and even though I know where she is right now, I still love her and this love seems to grow more as each day passes by.
Sometimes I hope that we wouldn’t have to go through all these. Sometimes I even get stupid that I hope that no one would ever have to die so that everyone could just live happily ever after.
But no, there isn’t a happy ending as described in fairy tales. Life is not a fairy tale.
“Landon, I have no reason to be angry with God.”
Those were the words of Jamie when she told me that in time, she would die. At first I didn’t believe her; I was really angry that I almost lost my faith in Him. One thing I didn’t know is that even in my last breathe of life, He will still be the one who will guide me all the way to Jamie.
“Landon, I don’t want to give you false hopes. Please do not have all these dreams with me. You know what may happen.” Jamie silently said those words. We were just talking about how we would spend the rest of that summer.
“No, Jamie. I will build my dreams with you. Don’t think of those. We will live the rest of our lives to the fullest, together.” I reasoned out. After all, she was the person who really taught me how to dream, how to love. I could have almost cried. I just didn’t want to cry in front of her since I was trying to cheer her up. I could only say happy thoughts. I wanted to tell her how afraid I was during those times. I feared that one day I would just wake up and see her breathless beside me. I didn’t want to think of that but it never left my mind. Fear was always in my mind. I didn’t want to lose her.
“Landon, please…” she pleaded. Why did she have to make things harder? Why did she have to put in my mind that she would die any time? “Please don’t. I want you to be happy. I want you to move on. Please don’t build these dreams with me when I can’t even fulfill them with you.” She said in a very solemn tone. I understood her. She didn’t want to make me hope that we would still be spending a very long time together. She knew her condition more than I knew it.
“Okay, let’s stop talking about this. I just wanted to tell you about my suggestions.” Somehow, I just tried to change the topic but I still wanted to dream with her. “We’re going to live at the house in front of your father’s. I already contacted the seller of the lot. What do you think?” I asked. I tried to hide my sadness. I didn’t know if we would still have the chance to live in that house together. The doctor told me that she would no longer live for more than a month. She would die any day. I was really grief-stricken when I heard it from the doctor. I couldn’t do anything. Leukemia was slowly eating her. It took away her life. It was because of that that we’re no longer together right now. Why did she ever have to have Leukemia?
“Yes, of course, it’s really great. I can’t wait to see the house. Is it built already?” she asked. I wondered why there was no trace of fear in her voice. Didn’t she feel bad about her situation? She was dying and she knew it.
I couldn’t help it anymore. I let my tears fall down from my eyes. At nights, I would cry as I watched her sleeping. I would always talk to her even though she was asleep. I told her how much I really love her and how afraid I was to lose her. I was never prepared to lose her but it seemed as though she was already contented with her life.
More tears fell down and hers suddenly began to fall, as well. “Landon, please don’t cry.” She begged. She couldn’t stop me from crying because it was what I’ve been longing to do for ages. I just couldn’t do it in front of her. I would still spend each and every day with her but sometimes she would fall asleep and those times were moments I cried because of fear. Couldn’t I just bet my life? I would have sacrificed my life for her, if only I could. I was more prepared to lose my own life if her life would be the bargain to my death. I would do anything for her; I would do anything to be with her.
“Aren’t you afraid?” I asked. Tears were uncontrollably streaming down from my eyes. It seemed as though I held too much of those tears I couldn’t cry.
“Death? Landon, I love you and you know that. The only thing I am afraid of is the fact that I am going to lose you. I’ve accepted this long ago; I guess I was prepared for it before you came into my life. Now that you’re here, I have a reason to fight death. And I tell you that I will fight death as long as I can because of my love for you.” It was really heart whelming but at the same time, I found it heart breaking. She told me that she’s been prepared to death for how many years already and the only reason she was fighting it is because she didn’t want to let go of me. But I could see that she got weaker every day, every hour, every minute, and every second. I knew she was already in agony. That was the feeling I suffered during those moments. I was afraid to let go of her; I was afraid to lose her.
Crying, I held her hands. She was still lying on her bed when she spent the days most of the time. I wiped her tears off her pale cheeks.
“I love you, Jamie.” I said. I wished she understood how deep my love for her was, is, and will forever be.
I looked at her hands and she was still holding on. I could feel her trembling. I saw how hard it was for her to say: “I love you so much.” Then I realized that with those trembling hands, she finally let go of me.
She was indeed the most colorful part of my life. I never thought that there was real love. All my life, I didn’t have faith in love. I thought that love was just something that people play with as if it were a game.
Jamie, on the other hand, taught me the real meaning of love. It was the love someone would feel when every time he would close his eyes, the only thing he would ever think of is that person he loves most; those eyes that seem to say every loving word in the world; with her voice that would only be heard even though it wasn’t really her exact words. Finally, the lessons that she shared with you, including all those dreams she made with you.
13 July 2005
pada harapan dan impian lalu
KiniSetelah lama waktu itu ditinggalkan
Kita cuba mengembalikan
Pada jarak yang memisahkan
Kerana kita tidak lagi sehaluan
Tetapi segalanya tinggal sepi
Kecuali waktu yang berlalu itu
Telah kita tinggalkan jauh
Bersama nostalgia....
.....Pada Harapan dan Impian Lalu ....
12 July 2005
a girl a the window pane
hehehe..baru lps iklan cite 'just one look'..erm, background nye gune lagu lame..aku tatau r tajuk lagu tuh..tp ade ckp psl sorg pompuan at the window pane tgk hujan turun...
erm..cite 'take my word for it' td pon aku sudah jatuh cinta lg..jatuh cinta sama yeung kwong..heheh..bape kali aku nak jatuh cinta nye??
erm..ape lg ek..rase cam byk jek nak ckp td..skrg trus tak ingat..erm..seriously aku rase nak mase grak slow2 jek..sbb rase syg sgt ngan lifestyle camni..free jek..bgn tido mkn tgk tv online bla bla bla...lps nih start jek masuk u mmg dah takkan rase camni..lps grad pon kene keje lg..lg pnat.. cane nih?bole stopkan jam tak?
nape asyik takde idea jek???
uihs
lantakla
eee sejuknye...pakai stoking dlm umah pon sjuk lg..siap kene pakai jacket plak tuh..
11 July 2005
burpp
aku kenyang
nak muntah plak rase
aku tgh suke nih..sbb cam snang la plak aku nak update fotopage aku..
yg penting..ade kesabaran..hehe..
hari nih busy skit..skit jek la..
bgn awal la..[nak dkt kol 7]
sbb nak ikut mak g kuantan
ade majlis ape ntah
nuaramalina yg dpt 17 A tuh dtg
erm..okla kot..cume busan2 sbb lame sgt
just imagine la,dr pagi sampai kol 3 dok atas kusi dalm dewan tuh
nsb baik kitorg sampai lambat..kitorh masuk kol 11
then g umah kwn mak..cik norlela..kat indera mahkota
umah die lawa
tudor style
husband die DR.
they r both australian grad. =)
balik umah trus ngadap tv
ade take my word for it
dah nak abis pon.cite ganti die cam tak best
oh!feel young pon dah nak abis..ganti ngan cite jepon
full house..rasenye best sbb byk jumpe kat frenster senior eire..
then dr kol 9.30 td sampai skarg..online la..
ape lg!!!
nak muntah plak rase
aku tgh suke nih..sbb cam snang la plak aku nak update fotopage aku..
yg penting..ade kesabaran..hehe..
hari nih busy skit..skit jek la..
bgn awal la..[nak dkt kol 7]
sbb nak ikut mak g kuantan
ade majlis ape ntah
nuaramalina yg dpt 17 A tuh dtg
erm..okla kot..cume busan2 sbb lame sgt
just imagine la,dr pagi sampai kol 3 dok atas kusi dalm dewan tuh
nsb baik kitorg sampai lambat..kitorh masuk kol 11
then g umah kwn mak..cik norlela..kat indera mahkota
umah die lawa
tudor style
husband die DR.
they r both australian grad. =)
balik umah trus ngadap tv
ade take my word for it
dah nak abis pon.cite ganti die cam tak best
oh!feel young pon dah nak abis..ganti ngan cite jepon
full house..rasenye best sbb byk jumpe kat frenster senior eire..
then dr kol 9.30 td sampai skarg..online la..
ape lg!!!
09 July 2005
nape busan?
busan..nape makin busan
baru balik psr mlm
punyela balik cpat2 sbb ingatkan cite cine tuh kol 8.30
rupenye kol 9.30
ape aku nak buat nih
busan sgt2
smlm aku ade bace satu novel ke cerpen ntah
download dr address yg ade kat blog sorg nih
aku pon tak knal org tuh
tp aku bace jek
mule2 aku mcm tak minat r nak bace
sbb cam dakwah nye cerpen
tp bile bace btol2
tibe2 aku mndpt kesedaran
n tibe2 rase meremang bulu roma
nak kate insaf sepenuhnye tuh tatau la
tp mmg sdar byk bende r
[bukan riak]
nak paste address cerpen tuh pon dah tatau kat mane
tp skrg mmg aku dah a new me la
aku dah wat btol2 kat profile frenster
watpe aku nak tipu2 lg
saje jek tipu diri kununnye
=)
busan
nape tuh jek yg aku slalu sbut?
skrg nih kat tv ade majalah 3
pasnih ade cite cine
pastuh ade one tree hill
spatutnye ade AF gak..tp mls r nak tgk
sbb nanti adik aku tgk same
mak aku tak bg diorg tgk
ROSAK!
cerekarama pon ade kat tv3 nanti
tp aku akan pastikan aku yg menang
aku nak tgk 8tv!!
selfish nye aku!
aah, mmg aku selfish!
pnat
baru balik psr mlm
punyela balik cpat2 sbb ingatkan cite cine tuh kol 8.30
rupenye kol 9.30
ape aku nak buat nih
busan sgt2
smlm aku ade bace satu novel ke cerpen ntah
download dr address yg ade kat blog sorg nih
aku pon tak knal org tuh
tp aku bace jek
mule2 aku mcm tak minat r nak bace
sbb cam dakwah nye cerpen
tp bile bace btol2
tibe2 aku mndpt kesedaran
n tibe2 rase meremang bulu roma
nak kate insaf sepenuhnye tuh tatau la
tp mmg sdar byk bende r
[bukan riak]
nak paste address cerpen tuh pon dah tatau kat mane
tp skrg mmg aku dah a new me la
aku dah wat btol2 kat profile frenster
watpe aku nak tipu2 lg
saje jek tipu diri kununnye
=)
busan
nape tuh jek yg aku slalu sbut?
skrg nih kat tv ade majalah 3
pasnih ade cite cine
pastuh ade one tree hill
spatutnye ade AF gak..tp mls r nak tgk
sbb nanti adik aku tgk same
mak aku tak bg diorg tgk
ROSAK!
cerekarama pon ade kat tv3 nanti
tp aku akan pastikan aku yg menang
aku nak tgk 8tv!!
selfish nye aku!
aah, mmg aku selfish!
pnat
aku mmg suke bace cerpen kat tokeikedai..cite yg camni mmg byk dah aku bace..tp nih pendek skit utk aku paste kat blog aku.
.:: Realiti buatku..... ::.
Posted on: Apr 25, 2004 - 12:59 PM by nurul_fatin_fatihah
Mereka kata aku gila menanti yang tak pasti dan bukan realiti. Menagih sesuatu yang tak mungkin aku kecapi. Kenapa semua orang tak percaya pada ku? Kenapa pula ini mesti dijadikan sebuah dongengan kerna ia benar-benar berlaku……..padaku….CLINK ! CLINK!“mm…..sapa plak pm aku nih?”, tersentak dari lamunan ketika membaca email. ID yang tak aku kenal. “Camner lak dapat id aku nih? Oo…maybe kat chat room kot”, getusku sambil membalas salam yang diberi.Aku berbual ringkas dengan nya. Rupanya dia merupakan senior di Universiti yang sama, Cuma kampus yang berlainan. “La…senior ah!”, bisik hatiku. Namun aku rasa senang sekali berbual dengannya walaupun sekadar berbual kosong. Benar-benar kosong! Hari nih tambahlah kenalan ku di dunia cyber…..abg Shaiful….Dunia cyber adalah dunia yang aku kenali sejak habis tingkatan 5. Apatah lagi bila memasuki IPT yang segalanya internet. Nota atau latihan semuanya harus di cetak dari internet. Maklumlah IPT based on Multimedia. Selain dari membuat tugasan-tugasan yang diberikan pensyarah, chatting juga merupakan kegemaranku. Boleh dikatakan, jejak je kaki ke rumah mesti tak lupa utk on PC. Lagipun, jarak rumah dan kampus tak jauh just drive there ma….^_^ so tabiat aku mmg mengadap pc..
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Seperti biasa waktu malam lah, waktu paling sesuai untuk mengadap PC setelah menyiapkan homework dan study. Dimulakan dengan check e-mail, pastu log-in YM. “Nak masuk room apa plak hari nih ek? Mm…brother tu tak online lah…mana dia? Bertapa ker? Hehehe”,aku melayan hatiku sendiri. Sejam lebih aku dok melayan karenah member chatting lain. Pastu rasa bosan... “Ala....surfing lah sat!”, hati ini membuat keputusan. Akibat kebosanan akhirnya aku tertidur di depan PC.CLINK! CLINK!BUZZ!!BUZZ!!“Adus.....sakit telinga aku!”, aku terjaga dari tidur. “Uiks! Brother tu ah!”, terus senyum. Kenapa aku senyum? Dia ker yang aku tunggu? La...apa nih? Tak faham.....Perbualan ringkas malam tu membuatkan aku senyum sampai esok hari. Angah pening tengok aku. Kenapa aku rasa macam dia baik sangat malam tadi? Dia ambik course software engineering rupanya and lagi dia tu senior aku tua dua tahun. Tapi he’s cool tak mcm senior lain yang aku jumpa dalam chatting...asyik tanya pasal study jek. Dia...open and boleh berkawan...best! “Wei along! Ko kena virus senyum ker apa nih?”, aku tersentak dari lamunan. Jeritan Angah buat aku terpandang pada jam yang telahpun menunjukkan aku dah lewat nak pi kelas. Mampos! Dengan sepantas kilat, aku siap ala kadar jek...ala janji wangi dan segar. Start engine and press minyak ala tahap cipan...akhirnya sampai gak kat kelas. Lewat 10 minit....nasib baik lecturer tak mai lagik...heheheDalam kelam kabut aku kuarkan buku nota and bersiap untuk lecture hari nih. OK! I’m ready...hehehe....uiks...pesal dok ingat lagik kat abg senior tu ...alahmak! zizie concentrate bebeh!
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“Zizie ada bf?” , alamak soalan sijil mana dia pakai nih. Apesal aku tiba-tiba blur nak jawab nih. “Zie nih bukannyer cantik...jadik tak mungkin ada yang terlekat”, apesal lah ayat aku nih puitis sangat. Woi, minah jiwang! Wake up! Sejak dari persoalan itulah, aku merasakan perhubungan kami jadi bertambah erat. Dan tajuk perbualan pula lebih menampakkan kematangan. Bila ditanya-tanya rupanya dia pernah belajar di kampus aku nih. Hanya untuk setahun jek katanya sebab pra-degree, macam aku sekarang ni lah. Cuma bezanya aku akan stay kat sini dia pulak sambung pengajian kat kampus sana. Dia janji nak guide aku dalam study. Katanya boleh kasik kata perangsang, nak ajar dia bukannya depan mata. Well, aku tak kisah sebab hari-hari aku chatting ngan dia. Dan aku mengaku...aku memang nak chat dengan dia hari-hari! And one more thing, dia nih budak scorer...boleh kata 4 flat student ah! Alahmak...rasa cam tak layak plak! La.....layak untuk apa nih????!!!
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“Zizie, tak lama lagi hari kekasih kan?”“Ha ah....napa?”“Err...errr...takder apa”“Abang, nak tau tak? Tadi kat kampus ada satu mamat nih...ada ke dia kata dia suka kat zie”“Bis tu? Zie pulak camner?”“Uiks! Zie apa lagi...cakap no lah! Tak mo ah satu kampus...one more thing dia not my taste...”“La....napa kata camtu? Then that guy tak kisah ke zie kata gitu? U really dont like him?”“Tak mungkin zie suka padanya......my hearts is not belong to him”“Then with whom?”Ha....nih yang aku tak mampu nak jawab. Aku sendiri tak pasti. Milik siapakah hati ini? Aku tak pasti ianya realiti atau hanya ilusi kerana ia milikmu abang.....waduh! camner ni?
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“Zie pernah bercinta?”“Pernah! Tapi boleh dikatakan cinta monyet lah..tak kesampaian sebab masih study ma..Abang?”“Pernah gak...tapi tak kesampaian gak”“Zie nih macam mana orangnya?”“Buruk, hodoh...simple and nice....hehehe...Err...kalau zie nak call abang boleh?”“La...why not?”Sejak dari hari tu, aku sering gak call dia. Hanya untuk bertanya khabar. Selebihnya di PC inilah....namun yang sebenarnya aku rindu pada suaranya ^_^“Zie....do u love anyone?” seriusnya.....“Maybe...why?”...“Err....takperlah...tanya jek”“Hmmm...la...napa nih? U sound so different....tell me”“err,,,really nothing...really!!”Ah...tak puas hati nih....hari nih tak kira nak tanya gak!!“Hallo..assalammualaikum...abg shai....”“W’salam...yes zie”“Do u love me?”“mmm........maybe....u?”“maybe too.....hehehe”“nak declare ker nih, bang? Are u sure?”“what do u think?”Maka tepat pada 10 februari 2001 aku telah declare ber couple dengan insan yang bernama Muhammad Shaiful. Bermulalah...kisah cinta cyber yang tak mungkin ramai yang akan menerima hakikat kewujudan cinta aneh ini....
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Abang shaiful nih strict orangnyer. Dia bukanlah insan yang romantis tapi katanya sejak mengenali diriku dia ingin menjadi seorang yang romantis dan pandai berkata manis. Kalau aku rindu padanya, akan ku peluk bear POOH yang diberikan kepadaku....muah! tak terlepas ciumanku dipipi POOH...aku benar-benar sayang padanya...Kami juga tak terlepas dari pergaduhan. Walaupun tak bersua, pastinya kami juga ada karenah masing-masing. Pergaduhan pertama ku.....selepas membaca email kiriman dari seorang insan di e-mailku dia jadi terlalu marah dan cemburu!“I dah baca ur e-mail! And sampai hati u buat abang begini?” siapa lelaki tu?”Begitulah bunyi SMS yang aku terima......mesti payah nak jawab kan? Aku bukan curang tapi itu adalah seorang insan yang sebenarnya mencintai adik ku....bukan aku....Cuma dia masih menghantarnya melalui emailku...pasti ramai yang tak bleh nak percaya kan? Begitu juga dengannya...setelah ku terangkan dan berjanji untuk suruh lelaki tu stop...ha...barulah dia ok...hehehe...cemburunya dia....muah!
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Benar kata orang.,..indah bukan lah untuk selamanya....dah hampir 3 minggu....abang tak call...tak balas email...aku pun tak mau nak call...sengaja tak nak berhubung...tapi aku rindu padanya...hati nih memberontak!!“Mana nih bang? Napa dah lama tak call zie? Zie tak call... abang pun tak call? Apa masalahnyer nih?” begitulah bunyi email kiriman ku genap 3 minggu tanpa berita....“ Look Zizie! Adakalanya i bukan makhluk yang perfect.,....and i bukannya takder kerja lain. Kalau u rasa i nih mengabaikan u....apa kata kita brake jek?”Retak terus hati aku. Napa pulak dia nak brake macam nih jek? Padahal aku cuma mempersoalkannya? Mungkin kah soalan ku mengguris hatinya.... atau mungkin aku telah hilang dari hatinya....Tau tak betapa aku menyayangimu....tau tak???5 bulan usia perkenalan kita.....kau buat macam nothing....walaupun dunia cyber aku dah rasa cam tamparan hebat...macam mana kalau realiti...aku jadik tak keruan.....jantan all the same!!
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“Zie, i mintak maaf.....i miss u...i dah buat silap....i really want u back”“Why?”“Zie please....i know u takkan maafkan i....but please give me a second chance”“ A second chance will make lots of thing different.....u faham kan?”“Cubaan terakhir buatmu sayang......cubaan terakhir!!” hati ini merintih.Bodoh ke aku menerima kembali dia dalam hidup ku? Walau hanya seminggu kami berpisah, parutnya tetap ada dihati. Tapi....kerana hati ini masih mencintai dan menyayangi nya...aku terima dia hadir dalam hidup ku...Hari-hari selepas ini, benar lain sekali. Aku lebih berhati-hati dalam membenarkan cintanya hadir dalam hati. Aku lebih matang dalam mengenal erti setiap perilakunya...dan aku takkan rasa mudah goyah andai kata perpisahan terjadi kembali. Aku pasti ia akan jadi kembali.
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“Abang, zie rasa kita berdua tau dan sedar apa yang kita mahukan sekarang ini. Dan Zie rasa memang ini merupakan jalan yang terbaik.”“Abang faham...and abang juga setuju....maafkan abang”“Its ok...sebab zie juga dapat merasakannya...sebelum memutuskannya....zie nak ucap Happy Anniversary 1st and last!“Kita still friends kan?”“Of course...and it is forever...”Air mata menitis sebaik sahaja mengucapkan salam terakhir kepadanya. Kad yang ingin diberi remuk ditangan....Benarkan perpisahan terjadi kembali? Walaupun kami telah berpisah kami masih berkawan dan aku telahpun bertemu dengannya....Hari ini aku belek lagi kad yang telah kuremukkan itu....dan bersama kad itu ku baca surat yang tak pernah sempat aku poskan....Assalammualaikum,Buat pertama kalinya, dalam hidup ini.....zie merasakan satu kebanggaan kerana berjaya mencuri hati abang...Tak sangka dalam karenah kita bersama..kita mampu pertahankan tugu ini selama setahun...Sungguh zie tak duga, tugu yang rapuh dan hanya menunggu masa untuk tumbang ini mampu bertahan sebegitu lama....Nak tau kenapa zie sayangkan abang?Segalanya pasti terjawab kalau abang cuba untuk mengingati setiap saat kita berchatting. Kemesraan yang terpamir dalam setiap tutur cara abang menjadi sumber kuasa buat azie. Abang bukanlah sebarangan yang mampu mengucapkan sayang kepada insan lain. Abang punya prinsip diri...Tak semua lelaki mampu mempertahankan prinsipnya ketika berkasih...Tapi abang mampu....dan percayalah...zie kagum dengan abang!Biar orang kata abang ego...zie tak endah...kerana zie harus terima semuanya...yang baik dan yang buruk...mengubah seseorang mengikut citarasa kita, bukanlah berkasih namanya..Abang,Adakalanya zie takut..takut sekiranya perhubungan ini berakhir..krn kasih zie terhadap abang sudah terlalu mendalam. Zie tak mampu untuk menahan...kerana setiap hari, kasih ini makin mendalam....Tapi bang....andainya perpisahan terjadi jua...zie pasrah....dan sanggup melepaskan abang. Cukuplah sekadar penerangan ringkas dari abang....Ikhlas dari hati ini....terima kasih menyayangi diri ini...HAPPY ANNIVERSARY 1st..~Zie~Walaupun dia hadir hanya bagai ilusi tapi cintanya realiti buatku...
.:: Realiti buatku..... ::.
Posted on: Apr 25, 2004 - 12:59 PM by nurul_fatin_fatihah
Mereka kata aku gila menanti yang tak pasti dan bukan realiti. Menagih sesuatu yang tak mungkin aku kecapi. Kenapa semua orang tak percaya pada ku? Kenapa pula ini mesti dijadikan sebuah dongengan kerna ia benar-benar berlaku……..padaku….CLINK ! CLINK!“mm…..sapa plak pm aku nih?”, tersentak dari lamunan ketika membaca email. ID yang tak aku kenal. “Camner lak dapat id aku nih? Oo…maybe kat chat room kot”, getusku sambil membalas salam yang diberi.Aku berbual ringkas dengan nya. Rupanya dia merupakan senior di Universiti yang sama, Cuma kampus yang berlainan. “La…senior ah!”, bisik hatiku. Namun aku rasa senang sekali berbual dengannya walaupun sekadar berbual kosong. Benar-benar kosong! Hari nih tambahlah kenalan ku di dunia cyber…..abg Shaiful….Dunia cyber adalah dunia yang aku kenali sejak habis tingkatan 5. Apatah lagi bila memasuki IPT yang segalanya internet. Nota atau latihan semuanya harus di cetak dari internet. Maklumlah IPT based on Multimedia. Selain dari membuat tugasan-tugasan yang diberikan pensyarah, chatting juga merupakan kegemaranku. Boleh dikatakan, jejak je kaki ke rumah mesti tak lupa utk on PC. Lagipun, jarak rumah dan kampus tak jauh just drive there ma….^_^ so tabiat aku mmg mengadap pc..
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Seperti biasa waktu malam lah, waktu paling sesuai untuk mengadap PC setelah menyiapkan homework dan study. Dimulakan dengan check e-mail, pastu log-in YM. “Nak masuk room apa plak hari nih ek? Mm…brother tu tak online lah…mana dia? Bertapa ker? Hehehe”,aku melayan hatiku sendiri. Sejam lebih aku dok melayan karenah member chatting lain. Pastu rasa bosan... “Ala....surfing lah sat!”, hati ini membuat keputusan. Akibat kebosanan akhirnya aku tertidur di depan PC.CLINK! CLINK!BUZZ!!BUZZ!!“Adus.....sakit telinga aku!”, aku terjaga dari tidur. “Uiks! Brother tu ah!”, terus senyum. Kenapa aku senyum? Dia ker yang aku tunggu? La...apa nih? Tak faham.....Perbualan ringkas malam tu membuatkan aku senyum sampai esok hari. Angah pening tengok aku. Kenapa aku rasa macam dia baik sangat malam tadi? Dia ambik course software engineering rupanya and lagi dia tu senior aku tua dua tahun. Tapi he’s cool tak mcm senior lain yang aku jumpa dalam chatting...asyik tanya pasal study jek. Dia...open and boleh berkawan...best! “Wei along! Ko kena virus senyum ker apa nih?”, aku tersentak dari lamunan. Jeritan Angah buat aku terpandang pada jam yang telahpun menunjukkan aku dah lewat nak pi kelas. Mampos! Dengan sepantas kilat, aku siap ala kadar jek...ala janji wangi dan segar. Start engine and press minyak ala tahap cipan...akhirnya sampai gak kat kelas. Lewat 10 minit....nasib baik lecturer tak mai lagik...heheheDalam kelam kabut aku kuarkan buku nota and bersiap untuk lecture hari nih. OK! I’m ready...hehehe....uiks...pesal dok ingat lagik kat abg senior tu ...alahmak! zizie concentrate bebeh!
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“Zizie ada bf?” , alamak soalan sijil mana dia pakai nih. Apesal aku tiba-tiba blur nak jawab nih. “Zie nih bukannyer cantik...jadik tak mungkin ada yang terlekat”, apesal lah ayat aku nih puitis sangat. Woi, minah jiwang! Wake up! Sejak dari persoalan itulah, aku merasakan perhubungan kami jadi bertambah erat. Dan tajuk perbualan pula lebih menampakkan kematangan. Bila ditanya-tanya rupanya dia pernah belajar di kampus aku nih. Hanya untuk setahun jek katanya sebab pra-degree, macam aku sekarang ni lah. Cuma bezanya aku akan stay kat sini dia pulak sambung pengajian kat kampus sana. Dia janji nak guide aku dalam study. Katanya boleh kasik kata perangsang, nak ajar dia bukannya depan mata. Well, aku tak kisah sebab hari-hari aku chatting ngan dia. Dan aku mengaku...aku memang nak chat dengan dia hari-hari! And one more thing, dia nih budak scorer...boleh kata 4 flat student ah! Alahmak...rasa cam tak layak plak! La.....layak untuk apa nih????!!!
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“Zizie, tak lama lagi hari kekasih kan?”“Ha ah....napa?”“Err...errr...takder apa”“Abang, nak tau tak? Tadi kat kampus ada satu mamat nih...ada ke dia kata dia suka kat zie”“Bis tu? Zie pulak camner?”“Uiks! Zie apa lagi...cakap no lah! Tak mo ah satu kampus...one more thing dia not my taste...”“La....napa kata camtu? Then that guy tak kisah ke zie kata gitu? U really dont like him?”“Tak mungkin zie suka padanya......my hearts is not belong to him”“Then with whom?”Ha....nih yang aku tak mampu nak jawab. Aku sendiri tak pasti. Milik siapakah hati ini? Aku tak pasti ianya realiti atau hanya ilusi kerana ia milikmu abang.....waduh! camner ni?
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“Zie pernah bercinta?”“Pernah! Tapi boleh dikatakan cinta monyet lah..tak kesampaian sebab masih study ma..Abang?”“Pernah gak...tapi tak kesampaian gak”“Zie nih macam mana orangnya?”“Buruk, hodoh...simple and nice....hehehe...Err...kalau zie nak call abang boleh?”“La...why not?”Sejak dari hari tu, aku sering gak call dia. Hanya untuk bertanya khabar. Selebihnya di PC inilah....namun yang sebenarnya aku rindu pada suaranya ^_^“Zie....do u love anyone?” seriusnya.....“Maybe...why?”...“Err....takperlah...tanya jek”“Hmmm...la...napa nih? U sound so different....tell me”“err,,,really nothing...really!!”Ah...tak puas hati nih....hari nih tak kira nak tanya gak!!“Hallo..assalammualaikum...abg shai....”“W’salam...yes zie”“Do u love me?”“mmm........maybe....u?”“maybe too.....hehehe”“nak declare ker nih, bang? Are u sure?”“what do u think?”Maka tepat pada 10 februari 2001 aku telah declare ber couple dengan insan yang bernama Muhammad Shaiful. Bermulalah...kisah cinta cyber yang tak mungkin ramai yang akan menerima hakikat kewujudan cinta aneh ini....
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Abang shaiful nih strict orangnyer. Dia bukanlah insan yang romantis tapi katanya sejak mengenali diriku dia ingin menjadi seorang yang romantis dan pandai berkata manis. Kalau aku rindu padanya, akan ku peluk bear POOH yang diberikan kepadaku....muah! tak terlepas ciumanku dipipi POOH...aku benar-benar sayang padanya...Kami juga tak terlepas dari pergaduhan. Walaupun tak bersua, pastinya kami juga ada karenah masing-masing. Pergaduhan pertama ku.....selepas membaca email kiriman dari seorang insan di e-mailku dia jadi terlalu marah dan cemburu!“I dah baca ur e-mail! And sampai hati u buat abang begini?” siapa lelaki tu?”Begitulah bunyi SMS yang aku terima......mesti payah nak jawab kan? Aku bukan curang tapi itu adalah seorang insan yang sebenarnya mencintai adik ku....bukan aku....Cuma dia masih menghantarnya melalui emailku...pasti ramai yang tak bleh nak percaya kan? Begitu juga dengannya...setelah ku terangkan dan berjanji untuk suruh lelaki tu stop...ha...barulah dia ok...hehehe...cemburunya dia....muah!
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Benar kata orang.,..indah bukan lah untuk selamanya....dah hampir 3 minggu....abang tak call...tak balas email...aku pun tak mau nak call...sengaja tak nak berhubung...tapi aku rindu padanya...hati nih memberontak!!“Mana nih bang? Napa dah lama tak call zie? Zie tak call... abang pun tak call? Apa masalahnyer nih?” begitulah bunyi email kiriman ku genap 3 minggu tanpa berita....“ Look Zizie! Adakalanya i bukan makhluk yang perfect.,....and i bukannya takder kerja lain. Kalau u rasa i nih mengabaikan u....apa kata kita brake jek?”Retak terus hati aku. Napa pulak dia nak brake macam nih jek? Padahal aku cuma mempersoalkannya? Mungkin kah soalan ku mengguris hatinya.... atau mungkin aku telah hilang dari hatinya....Tau tak betapa aku menyayangimu....tau tak???5 bulan usia perkenalan kita.....kau buat macam nothing....walaupun dunia cyber aku dah rasa cam tamparan hebat...macam mana kalau realiti...aku jadik tak keruan.....jantan all the same!!
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“Zie, i mintak maaf.....i miss u...i dah buat silap....i really want u back”“Why?”“Zie please....i know u takkan maafkan i....but please give me a second chance”“ A second chance will make lots of thing different.....u faham kan?”“Cubaan terakhir buatmu sayang......cubaan terakhir!!” hati ini merintih.Bodoh ke aku menerima kembali dia dalam hidup ku? Walau hanya seminggu kami berpisah, parutnya tetap ada dihati. Tapi....kerana hati ini masih mencintai dan menyayangi nya...aku terima dia hadir dalam hidup ku...Hari-hari selepas ini, benar lain sekali. Aku lebih berhati-hati dalam membenarkan cintanya hadir dalam hati. Aku lebih matang dalam mengenal erti setiap perilakunya...dan aku takkan rasa mudah goyah andai kata perpisahan terjadi kembali. Aku pasti ia akan jadi kembali.
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“Abang, zie rasa kita berdua tau dan sedar apa yang kita mahukan sekarang ini. Dan Zie rasa memang ini merupakan jalan yang terbaik.”“Abang faham...and abang juga setuju....maafkan abang”“Its ok...sebab zie juga dapat merasakannya...sebelum memutuskannya....zie nak ucap Happy Anniversary 1st and last!“Kita still friends kan?”“Of course...and it is forever...”Air mata menitis sebaik sahaja mengucapkan salam terakhir kepadanya. Kad yang ingin diberi remuk ditangan....Benarkan perpisahan terjadi kembali? Walaupun kami telah berpisah kami masih berkawan dan aku telahpun bertemu dengannya....Hari ini aku belek lagi kad yang telah kuremukkan itu....dan bersama kad itu ku baca surat yang tak pernah sempat aku poskan....Assalammualaikum,Buat pertama kalinya, dalam hidup ini.....zie merasakan satu kebanggaan kerana berjaya mencuri hati abang...Tak sangka dalam karenah kita bersama..kita mampu pertahankan tugu ini selama setahun...Sungguh zie tak duga, tugu yang rapuh dan hanya menunggu masa untuk tumbang ini mampu bertahan sebegitu lama....Nak tau kenapa zie sayangkan abang?Segalanya pasti terjawab kalau abang cuba untuk mengingati setiap saat kita berchatting. Kemesraan yang terpamir dalam setiap tutur cara abang menjadi sumber kuasa buat azie. Abang bukanlah sebarangan yang mampu mengucapkan sayang kepada insan lain. Abang punya prinsip diri...Tak semua lelaki mampu mempertahankan prinsipnya ketika berkasih...Tapi abang mampu....dan percayalah...zie kagum dengan abang!Biar orang kata abang ego...zie tak endah...kerana zie harus terima semuanya...yang baik dan yang buruk...mengubah seseorang mengikut citarasa kita, bukanlah berkasih namanya..Abang,Adakalanya zie takut..takut sekiranya perhubungan ini berakhir..krn kasih zie terhadap abang sudah terlalu mendalam. Zie tak mampu untuk menahan...kerana setiap hari, kasih ini makin mendalam....Tapi bang....andainya perpisahan terjadi jua...zie pasrah....dan sanggup melepaskan abang. Cukuplah sekadar penerangan ringkas dari abang....Ikhlas dari hati ini....terima kasih menyayangi diri ini...HAPPY ANNIVERSARY 1st..~Zie~Walaupun dia hadir hanya bagai ilusi tapi cintanya realiti buatku...
08 July 2005
A young wife sat on a sofa in Bukit Timah on a hot humid day, drinking Iced tea and visiting with her Mother.
As they talked about life, about marriage, about the responsibilities of life and the obligations of adulthood, the mother clinked the ice cubes inher glass thoughtfully and turned a clear, sober glance upon her daughter."Don't forget your girlfriends," she advised, swirling the tea leaves to the bottom of her glass. "They'll be more important as you get older. No matter how much you love your husband, no matter how much you love the children you'll have, you are still going to need girlfriends.
Remember to go places with them now and then; do things with them. And remember that "girlfriends" are not only your friends, but your sisters, your daughters, and other relatives too. You'll need other women. Women always do.
"'What a funny piece of advice,' the young woman thought. 'Haven't I just gotten married? Haven't I just joined the couple-world? I'm now a marriedwoman, for goodness sake, a grownup, not a young girl who needs girlfriends!Surely my husband and the family we'll start will be all I need to make my life worthwhile!'
But she listened to her Mother; she kept contact with her girlfriends and made more each year. As the years tumbled by, one after another, shegradually came to understand that her Mom really knew what she was talking about. As time and nature work their changes and their mysteries upon a woman, girlfriends are the mainstays of her life. After 50 years of living in this world, here is what I know about girlfriends:
Girlfriends bring you chicken curry and scrub your bathroom when you need help.
Girlfriends keep your children and keep your secrets. Girlfriends give advice when you ask for it. Sometimes you take it, sometimes you don't.
Girlfriends don't always tell you that you're right, but they're usually honest.
Girlfriends still love you, even when they don't agree with your choices.
Girlfriends laugh with you, and you don't need canned jokes to start the laughter.
Girlfriends pull you out of jams
Girlfriends help you get out of bad relationships.
Girlfriends help you look for a new apartment, help you pack, and help you move.
Girlfriends will give a party for your son or daughter when they get married or have a baby, in whichever order that comes!
Girlfriends are there for you, in an instant and when the hard times come.
Girlfriends will drive through blizzards, rainstorms, hail, heat, and gloom of night to get to you when your hour of need is desperate.
Girlfriends listen when you lose a job or a friend.
Girlfriends listen when your children break your heart.
Girlfriends listen when your parents' minds and bodies fail.
Girlfriends cry with you when someone you loved dies.
Girlfriends support you when the men in your life let you down.
Girlfriends help you pick up the pieces when men pack up and go.
Girlfriends rejoice at what makes you happy, and are ready to go out and kill what makes you unhappy.
Times passes.
Life happens.
Distance separates.
Children grow up.
Love waxes and wanes.
Hearts break.C
areers end.
Jobs come and go.
Parents die.
Colleagues forget favours.
Men don't call when they say they will.
BUT girlfriends are there, no matter how much time and how many miles are between you. A girlfriend is never farther away than need in her can reach.When you have to walk that lonesome valley, and you have to walk it for yourself, your girlfriends will be on the valley's rim, cheering you on, praying for you, pulling for you, intervening on your behalf, and waiting with open arms at the valley's end. Sometimes, they will even break the rules and walk beside you. Or come in and carry you out.
My daughter, sisters, mother, sisters-in-law, mother-in-law, aunties, nieces, cousins, extended family, and friends bless my life! The world wouldn't be the same without them!!
As they talked about life, about marriage, about the responsibilities of life and the obligations of adulthood, the mother clinked the ice cubes inher glass thoughtfully and turned a clear, sober glance upon her daughter."Don't forget your girlfriends," she advised, swirling the tea leaves to the bottom of her glass. "They'll be more important as you get older. No matter how much you love your husband, no matter how much you love the children you'll have, you are still going to need girlfriends.
Remember to go places with them now and then; do things with them. And remember that "girlfriends" are not only your friends, but your sisters, your daughters, and other relatives too. You'll need other women. Women always do.
"'What a funny piece of advice,' the young woman thought. 'Haven't I just gotten married? Haven't I just joined the couple-world? I'm now a marriedwoman, for goodness sake, a grownup, not a young girl who needs girlfriends!Surely my husband and the family we'll start will be all I need to make my life worthwhile!'
But she listened to her Mother; she kept contact with her girlfriends and made more each year. As the years tumbled by, one after another, shegradually came to understand that her Mom really knew what she was talking about. As time and nature work their changes and their mysteries upon a woman, girlfriends are the mainstays of her life. After 50 years of living in this world, here is what I know about girlfriends:
Girlfriends bring you chicken curry and scrub your bathroom when you need help.
Girlfriends keep your children and keep your secrets. Girlfriends give advice when you ask for it. Sometimes you take it, sometimes you don't.
Girlfriends don't always tell you that you're right, but they're usually honest.
Girlfriends still love you, even when they don't agree with your choices.
Girlfriends laugh with you, and you don't need canned jokes to start the laughter.
Girlfriends pull you out of jams
Girlfriends help you get out of bad relationships.
Girlfriends help you look for a new apartment, help you pack, and help you move.
Girlfriends will give a party for your son or daughter when they get married or have a baby, in whichever order that comes!
Girlfriends are there for you, in an instant and when the hard times come.
Girlfriends will drive through blizzards, rainstorms, hail, heat, and gloom of night to get to you when your hour of need is desperate.
Girlfriends listen when you lose a job or a friend.
Girlfriends listen when your children break your heart.
Girlfriends listen when your parents' minds and bodies fail.
Girlfriends cry with you when someone you loved dies.
Girlfriends support you when the men in your life let you down.
Girlfriends help you pick up the pieces when men pack up and go.
Girlfriends rejoice at what makes you happy, and are ready to go out and kill what makes you unhappy.
Times passes.
Life happens.
Distance separates.
Children grow up.
Love waxes and wanes.
Hearts break.C
areers end.
Jobs come and go.
Parents die.
Colleagues forget favours.
Men don't call when they say they will.
BUT girlfriends are there, no matter how much time and how many miles are between you. A girlfriend is never farther away than need in her can reach.When you have to walk that lonesome valley, and you have to walk it for yourself, your girlfriends will be on the valley's rim, cheering you on, praying for you, pulling for you, intervening on your behalf, and waiting with open arms at the valley's end. Sometimes, they will even break the rules and walk beside you. Or come in and carry you out.
My daughter, sisters, mother, sisters-in-law, mother-in-law, aunties, nieces, cousins, extended family, and friends bless my life! The world wouldn't be the same without them!!
06 July 2005
NIH RESULT AKU
BARU KUAR TD
BIO PENDING LG
PASTE KAT SINI SNANG SUPAYA BEBILE BOLE TGK LG.
The following provisional results are available for the subjects you entered in the MAY 2005 examination session as at 6 July, 2005.
Session
MAY 2005
Candidate
000592 104 (cbj078)
Name
AWANG DAHLAN, SARAH
Category
DIPLOMA
MALAY A1 SL
7
ENGLISH B SL
7
BUS.& MAN. SL in ENGLISH
6
BIOLOGY EE in ENGLISH
A
BIOLOGY HL in ENGLISH
P
CHEMISTRY HL in ENGLISH
7
MATHEMATICS HL in ENGLISH
6
THEORY KNOWL. TK in ENGLISH
C
Additional/Extra subjects
None
EE/TOK points:
+2
Total points:
0
Results:
Results pending
BARU KUAR TD
BIO PENDING LG
PASTE KAT SINI SNANG SUPAYA BEBILE BOLE TGK LG.
The following provisional results are available for the subjects you entered in the MAY 2005 examination session as at 6 July, 2005.
Session
MAY 2005
Candidate
000592 104 (cbj078)
Name
AWANG DAHLAN, SARAH
Category
DIPLOMA
MALAY A1 SL
7
ENGLISH B SL
7
BUS.& MAN. SL in ENGLISH
6
BIOLOGY EE in ENGLISH
A
BIOLOGY HL in ENGLISH
P
CHEMISTRY HL in ENGLISH
7
MATHEMATICS HL in ENGLISH
6
THEORY KNOWL. TK in ENGLISH
C
Additional/Extra subjects
None
EE/TOK points:
+2
Total points:
0
Results:
Results pending
http://www.abundantfun.com/poems/poemsfriend.html
http://cancerweb.ncl.ac.uk/omd/
saje jek paste..
takut hilang.
takde mood a nak wat blog2 nih..
tgk r kalo i changed my mind
skali air bah,skali pantai berubah.
http://cancerweb.ncl.ac.uk/omd/
saje jek paste..
takut hilang.
takde mood a nak wat blog2 nih..
tgk r kalo i changed my mind
skali air bah,skali pantai berubah.
24 June 2005
::i'll be fat::but i'll be happy::
wuuuuuuuuaaaaaaaaa....
aku akan jd sgt gmoks..
side effect OCP tuh adalah jd gmok..
aku asyik rase nak mkn jek..
lps mkn skit rase muak..
pastuh rase lapar plak..
dahla 3 mth course ubat tuh...
siap nak kene sambung sampai 6 bln la plak...
buntal btol la aku lpas nih...
wuuuaaa..dah takde sape nak nanti[do i mind?], sape nak jwb??
ahaks..
aku akan jd sgt gmoks..
side effect OCP tuh adalah jd gmok..
aku asyik rase nak mkn jek..
lps mkn skit rase muak..
pastuh rase lapar plak..
dahla 3 mth course ubat tuh...
siap nak kene sambung sampai 6 bln la plak...
buntal btol la aku lpas nih...
wuuuaaa..dah takde sape nak nanti[do i mind?], sape nak jwb??
ahaks..
....erm...
I Love You More
by Angie
Do you think I've told you
That "I love you" enough?
Have I let you know without you
Life would be extremely tough?
You're everything that gives me
That ONE reason to live
And all I have for you in return
My heart and soul I give
You're all that makes me happy
And you're all that makes me smile
You show me you'd do anything
And go that extra mile
I love you more than you could know
You are my one true love
Our hearts they beat the same beat
Our hands fit like a glove
You shield the rain, and stop the pain
And keep me safe from harm
There's no place I'd rather be
Then held tightly in your arms
I love you more than yesterday
And I think it's time I told
You're the one I want FOREVER
The one I'll ALWAYS hold
by Angie
Do you think I've told you
That "I love you" enough?
Have I let you know without you
Life would be extremely tough?
You're everything that gives me
That ONE reason to live
And all I have for you in return
My heart and soul I give
You're all that makes me happy
And you're all that makes me smile
You show me you'd do anything
And go that extra mile
I love you more than you could know
You are my one true love
Our hearts they beat the same beat
Our hands fit like a glove
You shield the rain, and stop the pain
And keep me safe from harm
There's no place I'd rather be
Then held tightly in your arms
I love you more than yesterday
And I think it's time I told
You're the one I want FOREVER
The one I'll ALWAYS hold
21 June 2005
lari selesai ke
btol ke masalah dpt selesai dgn sendirinye..n kite lari dr selesaikan
tp ade kalanye cara kite selesaikan masalah nampak cam kite lari jek
tp maybe pd pertimbangan kite, tuhla the best way solving the prob
cam ape yg dah berlaku nih, aku tak rase lari..cume i cudnt selesai dgn cara wat takde pape jd
1 ingat bole ke kwn cambese?
bg aku takle
bukan aku tanak tau pape jd kat die
bukan ego nak tunjuk takde ape kesan
let times heal la
thanks la sbb kate we r still frens
bg 1 bolela camtuh
dahla..byk manfaatnye sabar nih kan?
frenster tuh kurang r
kat status tuh takde choice r
sbb tuh aku wat married
aku nak carik single but not available
ade tak?
heheheh..
smileee
tp ade kalanye cara kite selesaikan masalah nampak cam kite lari jek
tp maybe pd pertimbangan kite, tuhla the best way solving the prob
cam ape yg dah berlaku nih, aku tak rase lari..cume i cudnt selesai dgn cara wat takde pape jd
1 ingat bole ke kwn cambese?
bg aku takle
bukan aku tanak tau pape jd kat die
bukan ego nak tunjuk takde ape kesan
let times heal la
thanks la sbb kate we r still frens
bg 1 bolela camtuh
dahla..byk manfaatnye sabar nih kan?
frenster tuh kurang r
kat status tuh takde choice r
sbb tuh aku wat married
aku nak carik single but not available
ade tak?
heheheh..
smileee
20 June 2005
lame udahnye
hhehehe...lame gak aku dah tak tulis nih...ntahla..takde mood plak...nanti aku tulis la bile free..nih takde privacy lg..
tp kan.. i hope i'm ok..
i love u all...
tp kan.. i hope i'm ok..
i love u all...
19 June 2005
day trip
uiks..awalnye awak bgn sarah::
terpaksala..kan nak g kemaman
ade appointment ngan giny[tatau eja..tau sebut jek..alaaa, pakar o&g tuh]
ngantuk nye dlm kete tp mls la nak tido
sbb nanti muke bgn tido bile sampai jumpe doc
yg malangnye, pg tuh perut buat hal..bapekali stop kat gas station utk g toilet
the last masuk toilet ialah mase sblum masuk jumpe doktor tuh
doc tuh namenye dr.roziana
die ex student my mum
mude2 lg dah jd giny
die spm 86 dulu..she's the only student in mrsmkt yg scored A1 for bio
terer tak???terer la kirenye tuh
sgt sonok r g checkup tuh
takyah bratur pape
trus jek masuk bilik die
dahla bilik die kat dewan bersalin
hehehehe
pastuh die clerk aku
mmg biase jek teenagers ade hormonal imbalance
tp cam tak best tak amik treatment pape kan
pastuh die wat ultrasound
cam org pregnant la plak
alaa, mcm dlm first touch tuh
i could see my uterus n ovary
fuyooo..sgtla interesting
everything is normal jek
then doc tuh decide utk bg hormonal treatment
die bg ocp[oral contraceptive pills]
treatment tuh utk 6 mths
tp pills tuh die baru bg stakat 3 bln
then die akan bg refer letter utk aku bwk ke aus nanti r
pastuh die amik blood aku
die kate snang skit nak wat report nanti
dua kali gakla die cucuk aku
nsb baik tak sakit sgt
kalo tak sure aku nangis
sob sob sob
sambil tuh aku nampak ade baby baru lahir kene tolak dlm troli die
comeellnye
pastuh dgr ade org azan..ayah baby tuh kot
can u imagine the experience in dewan bersalin
ssoooo undescribable
pastuh g amik ubat
doc tuh ikut skali r
sonok r jd cikgu nih sbb doc pakar pon ex student n they all respect teachers gile2 r
pastuh kitorg same2 g lunch
just 3 of us
talked about a lot of things
many interesting stuff about med field
also about isu sosial semasa
n bla bla bla
then singgah kuantan
singgah umah auntie nora
mkn spaghetti plak
dahla tgh kenyang
tgk gambar die mase die g taj mahal n sydney
sonoknye
pastuh singgah g giant plak
shopping sakan la
keperluan beya nak masuk kptm la
dah mlm barula sampai umah
pnat
terpaksala..kan nak g kemaman
ade appointment ngan giny[tatau eja..tau sebut jek..alaaa, pakar o&g tuh]
ngantuk nye dlm kete tp mls la nak tido
sbb nanti muke bgn tido bile sampai jumpe doc
yg malangnye, pg tuh perut buat hal..bapekali stop kat gas station utk g toilet
the last masuk toilet ialah mase sblum masuk jumpe doktor tuh
doc tuh namenye dr.roziana
die ex student my mum
mude2 lg dah jd giny
die spm 86 dulu..she's the only student in mrsmkt yg scored A1 for bio
terer tak???terer la kirenye tuh
sgt sonok r g checkup tuh
takyah bratur pape
trus jek masuk bilik die
dahla bilik die kat dewan bersalin
hehehehe
pastuh die clerk aku
mmg biase jek teenagers ade hormonal imbalance
tp cam tak best tak amik treatment pape kan
pastuh die wat ultrasound
cam org pregnant la plak
alaa, mcm dlm first touch tuh
i could see my uterus n ovary
fuyooo..sgtla interesting
everything is normal jek
then doc tuh decide utk bg hormonal treatment
die bg ocp[oral contraceptive pills]
treatment tuh utk 6 mths
tp pills tuh die baru bg stakat 3 bln
then die akan bg refer letter utk aku bwk ke aus nanti r
pastuh die amik blood aku
die kate snang skit nak wat report nanti
dua kali gakla die cucuk aku
nsb baik tak sakit sgt
kalo tak sure aku nangis
sob sob sob
sambil tuh aku nampak ade baby baru lahir kene tolak dlm troli die
comeellnye
pastuh dgr ade org azan..ayah baby tuh kot
can u imagine the experience in dewan bersalin
ssoooo undescribable
pastuh g amik ubat
doc tuh ikut skali r
sonok r jd cikgu nih sbb doc pakar pon ex student n they all respect teachers gile2 r
pastuh kitorg same2 g lunch
just 3 of us
talked about a lot of things
many interesting stuff about med field
also about isu sosial semasa
n bla bla bla
then singgah kuantan
singgah umah auntie nora
mkn spaghetti plak
dahla tgh kenyang
tgk gambar die mase die g taj mahal n sydney
sonoknye
pastuh singgah g giant plak
shopping sakan la
keperluan beya nak masuk kptm la
dah mlm barula sampai umah
pnat
27 May 2005
zaman gile2 ku
dean cain + any clark kent + hans isaac + jimmy shanley + lucas + sein + zul yahya + azhar sulaiman + weng chai dlm square pegs + leon lai + tai dee dlm fate twisters + ari wibowo + laki td yg patah kaki dlm cite kol 8
ntah sape lg aku pon tak ingat::tuh sume lelaki2 yg pnah aku suke::hehehehe..macamane ek aku terpikir nak senaraikan balik sume tuh??sbnrnye byk lg tp aku pon tak ingat *sigh*
tp kan..there's only One in a million, kan??there'll be only One that meant a world to ones,kan?
let the world deceived by u, but not ur heart
aku pnah tulis ayat nih kat peyus
"it really hurts to smile when ur heart aches"
got wut i mean?
ntah sape lg aku pon tak ingat::tuh sume lelaki2 yg pnah aku suke::hehehehe..macamane ek aku terpikir nak senaraikan balik sume tuh??sbnrnye byk lg tp aku pon tak ingat *sigh*
tp kan..there's only One in a million, kan??there'll be only One that meant a world to ones,kan?
let the world deceived by u, but not ur heart
aku pnah tulis ayat nih kat peyus
"it really hurts to smile when ur heart aches"
got wut i mean?
~suke ati aku la
erm..nih antara list bende2 yg aku suke la sgt kalo dpt adiah::bukan nak mintak, tp suke ati akula nak suke ape kan,nih kan blog aku::huhuhu::
[x]novels~love story yg romantik
[x]kain untuk buat baju kurung~kene colour lembut
[x]cd cite romantik yg aku suke
[x]ape2 yg dibuat sendiri~eg:cross-stitch,jigsaw puzzle,cards yg comel
[x]anything with cartoon characters on it
tp kan..kene bg tuh ngan a big bouquet of red roses la...sonoknye..
~bangun2..stop dreaming~
takpe kan wat list tuh sbb aku tak bg add blog nih kat sesape pon esp buah hati aku::mati aku kalo die tau add blog aku nih::tp kan,kalo die nak bg pape pon aku tara kisah::tak bg pape pon tara kisah::yeke?
tp aku suke la cara die wish bday..msg yg sweet..thanks 4 making my day~
[x]novels~love story yg romantik
[x]kain untuk buat baju kurung~kene colour lembut
[x]cd cite romantik yg aku suke
[x]ape2 yg dibuat sendiri~eg:cross-stitch,jigsaw puzzle,cards yg comel
[x]anything with cartoon characters on it
tp kan..kene bg tuh ngan a big bouquet of red roses la...sonoknye..
~bangun2..stop dreaming~
takpe kan wat list tuh sbb aku tak bg add blog nih kat sesape pon esp buah hati aku::mati aku kalo die tau add blog aku nih::tp kan,kalo die nak bg pape pon aku tara kisah::tak bg pape pon tara kisah::yeke?
tp aku suke la cara die wish bday..msg yg sweet..thanks 4 making my day~
26 May 2005
Time
I've been passing time watching dreams go by
All of my life
Lying on the sand watching sea birds fly
Wishing there could be
Someone waiting home for me
Something's telling me it might be you
It's telling me it might be you
All of my life
Looking back as lovers go walking passed
All of my life
Wondering how they met and what makes it last
If I found the place would I recognize the face
Something's telling me it might be you
It's telling me it might be you
So many quiet walks to take
So many dreams to wake
And there's so much love to wake
I think we're gonna need sometimes
Maybe all we need is time
And it's telling me it might be you
All of my life
I've been saving love songs and lullabies
And there's so much more
No one's ever heard before
hehehehe...tuh lirik lagu it might be you..peyus yg ckp psl cite tuh..slame nih aku slalu tgk kat info jek..tajuk die attarctive tp mase aku tgk artuh, tgh babak ape ntah, cam tak best..so aku tak tgk la..
tp mlm nih peyus ckp psl cite tuh::nak plak try tgk::peyus kate romantik...
hehehe..sonoknye::at least bertambah la bende tetap yg aku nak buat stp hari::
lagu die kire oraitla..sweet..
teke aku wat ape nih..aku tgk cite lame ape ntah::kat prima::biase la::takde keje::
cam lapar::nak g wat toast la + minum air soya
eeee..faizal husin dulu2 lawak la gaya die..tp mmg gaya2 zaman dulu lawak la...tak larat aku tgk cite tuh..melissa saila pon rambut kembang gile lg..
I've been passing time watching dreams go by
All of my life
Lying on the sand watching sea birds fly
Wishing there could be
Someone waiting home for me
Something's telling me it might be you
It's telling me it might be you
All of my life
Looking back as lovers go walking passed
All of my life
Wondering how they met and what makes it last
If I found the place would I recognize the face
Something's telling me it might be you
It's telling me it might be you
So many quiet walks to take
So many dreams to wake
And there's so much love to wake
I think we're gonna need sometimes
Maybe all we need is time
And it's telling me it might be you
All of my life
I've been saving love songs and lullabies
And there's so much more
No one's ever heard before
hehehehe...tuh lirik lagu it might be you..peyus yg ckp psl cite tuh..slame nih aku slalu tgk kat info jek..tajuk die attarctive tp mase aku tgk artuh, tgh babak ape ntah, cam tak best..so aku tak tgk la..
tp mlm nih peyus ckp psl cite tuh::nak plak try tgk::peyus kate romantik...
hehehe..sonoknye::at least bertambah la bende tetap yg aku nak buat stp hari::
lagu die kire oraitla..sweet..
teke aku wat ape nih..aku tgk cite lame ape ntah::kat prima::biase la::takde keje::
cam lapar::nak g wat toast la + minum air soya
eeee..faizal husin dulu2 lawak la gaya die..tp mmg gaya2 zaman dulu lawak la...tak larat aku tgk cite tuh..melissa saila pon rambut kembang gile lg..
lonely~
erm..suke sgt lagu nih..maybe sbb uniknye ade suare cam katun kot...lagu nih cam rancak tp sbnarnye lagu sedey la..
tgk v.clip die ok gak..cume kalo org yg nyanyi tuh hensem skit..lg feel..
"hey,jgn ade diskriminasi rupa""
jom la nyanyi::eh td tgk mentor, fo'3 nyanyi lagu c.i.n.ta...xpdc nye yg lame2 tuh..pastuh tringatla kat anim..arituh kitorg g karaoke booth tuh nyanyi lagu tuh la...::matila kalo family tau::mase nyanyi lagu tuh, ade org kat booth sebelah tuh::laki la::die tumpang nyanyi ngan kitorg, kalo ikutkan aku, aku tak suke layan org camtuh, tp anim layan jek, lantakla, aku tak kisah papepon::
Lonely im so lonely,
I have nobody,
To call my owwnnn
Im so lonely, im mr. Lonely
I have nobody,
To call my owwnnn
Im so lonely,
Yo this one here goes out to all my playas out there ya kno got to have one good girl whose always been there like ya
Kno took all the bullshit then one day she cant take it no more and decides to leave
I woke up in the middle of the night and I noticed my girl wasn't by my side, coulda sworn I was dreamin, for her I was
Feenin, so I hadda take a little ride, back tracking ova these few years, tryna figure out wat I do to make it go bad, cuz
Ever since my girl left me, my whole life came crashin
Im so lonely (so lonely),
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girl
Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girl
Cant belive I hadda girl like you and I just let you walk right outta my life, after all I put u thru u still stuck
Around and stayed by my side, what really hurt me is I broke ur heart, baby you were a good girl and I had no right, I
Really wanna make things right, cuz without u in my life girl
Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody to call my own)
To call my own (to call my own) girl
Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girl
Been all about the world ain't neva met a girl that can take the things that you been through
Never thought the day would come where you would get up and run and I would be out chasing u
Cuz aint nowhere in the globe id rather be, aint noone in the globe id rather see then the girl of my dreams that made me
Be so happy but now so lonely
So lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own)
Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girrll
Never thought that id be alone, I didnt hope you'd be gone this long, I jus want u to call my phone, so stop playing girl and
Come on home (come on home), baby girl I didn't mean to shout, I want me and you to work it out, I never wished Id ever
Hurt my baby, and its drivin me crazy cuz...
Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own)
Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girll
Lonely, so lonely
So lonely, (so lonely),
Mr. Lonely, so lonely
So lonely, so lonely, (so lonely), Mr. Lonely
tgk v.clip die ok gak..cume kalo org yg nyanyi tuh hensem skit..lg feel..
"hey,jgn ade diskriminasi rupa""
jom la nyanyi::eh td tgk mentor, fo'3 nyanyi lagu c.i.n.ta...xpdc nye yg lame2 tuh..pastuh tringatla kat anim..arituh kitorg g karaoke booth tuh nyanyi lagu tuh la...::matila kalo family tau::mase nyanyi lagu tuh, ade org kat booth sebelah tuh::laki la::die tumpang nyanyi ngan kitorg, kalo ikutkan aku, aku tak suke layan org camtuh, tp anim layan jek, lantakla, aku tak kisah papepon::
Lonely im so lonely,
I have nobody,
To call my owwnnn
Im so lonely, im mr. Lonely
I have nobody,
To call my owwnnn
Im so lonely,
Yo this one here goes out to all my playas out there ya kno got to have one good girl whose always been there like ya
Kno took all the bullshit then one day she cant take it no more and decides to leave
I woke up in the middle of the night and I noticed my girl wasn't by my side, coulda sworn I was dreamin, for her I was
Feenin, so I hadda take a little ride, back tracking ova these few years, tryna figure out wat I do to make it go bad, cuz
Ever since my girl left me, my whole life came crashin
Im so lonely (so lonely),
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girl
Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girl
Cant belive I hadda girl like you and I just let you walk right outta my life, after all I put u thru u still stuck
Around and stayed by my side, what really hurt me is I broke ur heart, baby you were a good girl and I had no right, I
Really wanna make things right, cuz without u in my life girl
Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody to call my own)
To call my own (to call my own) girl
Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girl
Been all about the world ain't neva met a girl that can take the things that you been through
Never thought the day would come where you would get up and run and I would be out chasing u
Cuz aint nowhere in the globe id rather be, aint noone in the globe id rather see then the girl of my dreams that made me
Be so happy but now so lonely
So lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own)
Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girrll
Never thought that id be alone, I didnt hope you'd be gone this long, I jus want u to call my phone, so stop playing girl and
Come on home (come on home), baby girl I didn't mean to shout, I want me and you to work it out, I never wished Id ever
Hurt my baby, and its drivin me crazy cuz...
Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own)
Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girll
Lonely, so lonely
So lonely, (so lonely),
Mr. Lonely, so lonely
So lonely, so lonely, (so lonely), Mr. Lonely
pls dont mind with my grammatical errors~~
sonok gak dok umah jauh dr org nih~~ade privacy skit~
nak kuar pakai shorts pon takpe~jemur kain pakai pape jek pon takpe~
ptg2 kuar amik angin dpn nih pon takyah pakai tudung tp kalo dah turun bawah bukit skit pakaila~
tpt nih pon org tak ramai~kalo kuar pepagi tuh mmg takde org r~lintas jln slambe2 jek~
cume kengkdg boring takde nak gi memane r..
cpt pk nak wat ape lg mase cuti nih..
nak kuar pakai shorts pon takpe~jemur kain pakai pape jek pon takpe~
ptg2 kuar amik angin dpn nih pon takyah pakai tudung tp kalo dah turun bawah bukit skit pakaila~
tpt nih pon org tak ramai~kalo kuar pepagi tuh mmg takde org r~lintas jln slambe2 jek~
cume kengkdg boring takde nak gi memane r..
cpt pk nak wat ape lg mase cuti nih..
uisk~pheww~
::still about yesterday::
alas,i cant lift up my body::come on la, baru jek 30mins dah pnat::
i dozed off in front of the tv::n mom called::
clean the house a lil::
cooked for lunch::ayam merah::hope it wont be too hot like the other night::
i asked baba to buy sayur::he brought back daun sup::wut am i gonna do with daun sup??
i chopped it n just sprinkle them onto my ayam::uisk::be creative la::but our meal will still lack of fibre::i remind him to buy cabbage or carrot for tomorro::or else everybody in the house will be sembelit:: huhuhu ::lack of fibre n roughage::
did u notice that i hadnt taken my bath yet??~huhu~tp wangi gak
at 3::the attic cat::i like korean drama::but they are almost stereotype::there'll be arich guy with a comot girl::the rich guy will bully the comot girl::the comot girl had no choice:: i've seen enough of that type::but still, i like korean's::
i fall asleep at 4 n i missed the 6o'clock series::wuuuuuuuuuuaaaaa::
alas,i cant lift up my body::come on la, baru jek 30mins dah pnat::
i dozed off in front of the tv::n mom called::
clean the house a lil::
cooked for lunch::ayam merah::hope it wont be too hot like the other night::
i asked baba to buy sayur::he brought back daun sup::wut am i gonna do with daun sup??
i chopped it n just sprinkle them onto my ayam::uisk::be creative la::but our meal will still lack of fibre::i remind him to buy cabbage or carrot for tomorro::or else everybody in the house will be sembelit:: huhuhu ::lack of fibre n roughage::
did u notice that i hadnt taken my bath yet??~huhu~tp wangi gak
at 3::the attic cat::i like korean drama::but they are almost stereotype::there'll be arich guy with a comot girl::the rich guy will bully the comot girl::the comot girl had no choice:: i've seen enough of that type::but still, i like korean's::
i fall asleep at 4 n i missed the 6o'clock series::wuuuuuuuuuuaaaaa::
make my day..pls~
uisk..pnat la..i've wrote a very long post last night::but suddenlu the page turns to "cant find server::oh how great is that::
so i'm gonna write a short2 one n publish them one by one so that i wont be so frustrated::
actually i really wanna tell about yesterday::the making of nasha::
yesterday morn::i woke up early::if 8.30 am could be considered as early::
i straight away donned a t-shirt n jeans::put a tudung comot2ly::not to forget my handphone::still hoping that somebody will make it ringing::
we[me n beya] walked down the hill [our house is on the hilly part of the mrsm] ::we crossed the road::n we was wondering where is the main gate to the park::at last we got on the track::
only about 10 mins after that, we found a playground::pheww, what a relieve coz i've been missing a swing ride for quite a long time::i've been loving swing rides in my entire life::
then we jog again::brisk walking actually::wowo, guess what's there::that park have a lake::not really scenic though::but ok la::thank God there's nobody::everybody was at work we guess::
only 30mins a day??could that bring put nasha in u??
i hope so::but something is better than nothing::
i hope to wake up early in the mornings::so i went to sleep early at nights::but it didnt work:: i woke up at 9++ this morning::wuuuuuaa...i wanna weigh down!!!
in 3 mths time::the scale will say 45kg::
huhuhu~
so i'm gonna write a short2 one n publish them one by one so that i wont be so frustrated::
actually i really wanna tell about yesterday::the making of nasha::
yesterday morn::i woke up early::if 8.30 am could be considered as early::
i straight away donned a t-shirt n jeans::put a tudung comot2ly::not to forget my handphone::still hoping that somebody will make it ringing::
we[me n beya] walked down the hill [our house is on the hilly part of the mrsm] ::we crossed the road::n we was wondering where is the main gate to the park::at last we got on the track::
only about 10 mins after that, we found a playground::pheww, what a relieve coz i've been missing a swing ride for quite a long time::i've been loving swing rides in my entire life::
then we jog again::brisk walking actually::wowo, guess what's there::that park have a lake::not really scenic though::but ok la::thank God there's nobody::everybody was at work we guess::
only 30mins a day??could that bring put nasha in u??
i hope so::but something is better than nothing::
i hope to wake up early in the mornings::so i went to sleep early at nights::but it didnt work:: i woke up at 9++ this morning::wuuuuuaa...i wanna weigh down!!!
in 3 mths time::the scale will say 45kg::
huhuhu~
23 May 2005
wowo!!
at last!!!i'm out of that school..wowowo~what a wonderful world it is outside here..
almost 2 months i left this blog alone~sob sob sob~but now..u'll never walk alone..this is the walk that we'll never forget..A WALK TO REMEMBER~a walk towards 20's::i'm not yet 20::
right after the business paper..we got rm20..wowo..i was rm20 richer~then i waited for ili n jon at the concourse::we're planning to have our last lunch together::maggi n vanilla coke::lululu..i've waited for so long::
we salam2 ngan a few teachers::syahdu::
had our maggi n coke in jon's room::i brought my videocam::abadikan kenangan anda bersama sony~~
wuuuaaa..sangat la sedey..
while waiting for the warden, we were picniking in front of ili's room::with all her bags::writing up all the autographs::her bags(pillows inside) as the desk::huhuhu::
i prayed that the warden will be kind enough to let me free without charging any penny, but unfortunately, our common room is so lousy..so need to pay for it::thank God pn.mazlina didnt notice all the 'tape' on my study carol::biasela,i love to paste things::the ad about i talk maaa...::
then, i went to pay rm3 at the warden's::wut else huh? oh ofcourse the most tiring part had come::carrying all the boxes n bags to the corridor~wut a 'rational' rule to 'let' the parents come in so 'near' to our blocks..
at about 4.30, mama yah msged::she's on her way::we mk's waited at the pondok..taking pics::
on the way back to serdang, we stopped at putrajaya::had our tea at The Baker's Cottage:: i cant describe the feeling::feel free..n easy::happy::splendid::
i watched tv::ayah nun cooked for us::one of the twins prepare the iceshake::everything goes fine::
the next day i went out for a date::date with hanim::my bestfren when we were in lower form::abang picked me up at ayah nun's house::i just left a msg through kak su to mama yah that i was going out::we went to metro kajang::hanim worked at the card booth::
a new experience for me::like other independent girl::with hanim look after the booth::we went for a walk around the mall(not really a mall, a complex i suppose)::we had icecreams + waffles::we chose a sweatshirt for me, a pink one::we went to karaoke::pheww, another new experience::but not the karaoke in the pub or club::only the karaoke booth la::we had lunch at the foodcourt::we spent the whole day together::i'll be missing her::
then on the way back, abang stopped at the mfi::for his report stuffs::i reread seredup kasihmu::i read conan::i woke up late::i went out from the room during lunch n tv times::
that nite. went to midvalley::pheww, at least something cool happened::had our dinner at nando's::huhuhu,nice + cool~
ah~tired already~cont next time la~
almost 2 months i left this blog alone~sob sob sob~but now..u'll never walk alone..this is the walk that we'll never forget..A WALK TO REMEMBER~a walk towards 20's::i'm not yet 20::
right after the business paper..we got rm20..wowo..i was rm20 richer~then i waited for ili n jon at the concourse::we're planning to have our last lunch together::maggi n vanilla coke::lululu..i've waited for so long::
we salam2 ngan a few teachers::syahdu::
had our maggi n coke in jon's room::i brought my videocam::abadikan kenangan anda bersama sony~~
wuuuaaa..sangat la sedey..
while waiting for the warden, we were picniking in front of ili's room::with all her bags::writing up all the autographs::her bags(pillows inside) as the desk::huhuhu::
i prayed that the warden will be kind enough to let me free without charging any penny, but unfortunately, our common room is so lousy..so need to pay for it::thank God pn.mazlina didnt notice all the 'tape' on my study carol::biasela,i love to paste things::the ad about i talk maaa...::
then, i went to pay rm3 at the warden's::wut else huh? oh ofcourse the most tiring part had come::carrying all the boxes n bags to the corridor~wut a 'rational' rule to 'let' the parents come in so 'near' to our blocks..
at about 4.30, mama yah msged::she's on her way::we mk's waited at the pondok..taking pics::
on the way back to serdang, we stopped at putrajaya::had our tea at The Baker's Cottage:: i cant describe the feeling::feel free..n easy::happy::splendid::
i watched tv::ayah nun cooked for us::one of the twins prepare the iceshake::everything goes fine::
the next day i went out for a date::date with hanim::my bestfren when we were in lower form::abang picked me up at ayah nun's house::i just left a msg through kak su to mama yah that i was going out::we went to metro kajang::hanim worked at the card booth::
a new experience for me::like other independent girl::with hanim look after the booth::we went for a walk around the mall(not really a mall, a complex i suppose)::we had icecreams + waffles::we chose a sweatshirt for me, a pink one::we went to karaoke::pheww, another new experience::but not the karaoke in the pub or club::only the karaoke booth la::we had lunch at the foodcourt::we spent the whole day together::i'll be missing her::
then on the way back, abang stopped at the mfi::for his report stuffs::i reread seredup kasihmu::i read conan::i woke up late::i went out from the room during lunch n tv times::
that nite. went to midvalley::pheww, at least something cool happened::had our dinner at nando's::huhuhu,nice + cool~
ah~tired already~cont next time la~
18 May 2005
plan ur works.work ur plans
erm..here's the list of things i wanna accomplish in 3 mths time~really hope so~
# memule nak update frenster::add sesape yg patut::tgk page sesape yg patut::tukar profile::tukar photo
# pastuh update blog nih
# nak jumpe kengkwn lame~ikut mak mase mak ade meeting kat kl
# shopping baju yg cutting die cam reject shop nye
# bli byk suar2::jeans ke,but pls not blue jeans
# most important::bli undies byk2*wink*wink*
# blaja masak lauk2 mlayu::cthnye laksa ke, gula ke, mi bandung ke,kuih2 melayu mcm onde2,puding2
# tulis cerpen::then ltak kat tokeikedai::biarla cam bodo jek cite tuh::at least aku suke
# call ppl selagi promotion yg flat rate tuh tak abis
# kmaskan sluruh rumah::fuih,nih yg plg tatau bole wat ke tak
# joging stp pagi kat park dpn umah tuh
# try risik2 dr dak2 melbourne ape2 yg patut
# tido sepuas hati
# makan sepuas hati
# tgk tv sume yg nak tgk
# carik sbyk mungkin cerpen kat internet::bace la ape lg
# shopping!!!!!
# nikmati stp saat sepenuhnya
~wuwuwuaa...udah penat la..byk sgt plannye...maklumla dah abis pekse..sume pon nak buat..tp kan ade satu bende yg patut masuk dlm list tp tanak r ltak
~let my heart does the talking~
# memule nak update frenster::add sesape yg patut::tgk page sesape yg patut::tukar profile::tukar photo
# pastuh update blog nih
# nak jumpe kengkwn lame~ikut mak mase mak ade meeting kat kl
# shopping baju yg cutting die cam reject shop nye
# bli byk suar2::jeans ke,but pls not blue jeans
# most important::bli undies byk2*wink*wink*
# blaja masak lauk2 mlayu::cthnye laksa ke, gula ke, mi bandung ke,kuih2 melayu mcm onde2,puding2
# tulis cerpen::then ltak kat tokeikedai::biarla cam bodo jek cite tuh::at least aku suke
# call ppl selagi promotion yg flat rate tuh tak abis
# kmaskan sluruh rumah::fuih,nih yg plg tatau bole wat ke tak
# joging stp pagi kat park dpn umah tuh
# try risik2 dr dak2 melbourne ape2 yg patut
# tido sepuas hati
# makan sepuas hati
# tgk tv sume yg nak tgk
# carik sbyk mungkin cerpen kat internet::bace la ape lg
# shopping!!!!!
# nikmati stp saat sepenuhnya
~wuwuwuaa...udah penat la..byk sgt plannye...maklumla dah abis pekse..sume pon nak buat..tp kan ade satu bende yg patut masuk dlm list tp tanak r ltak
~let my heart does the talking~
17 March 2005
esok kene berjuang
ehhehe...cam bagus jek gune ayat berjuang
carik smangat nak kene g skolah
byk keje yg tak buat
erm..tp okla kot, bile balik skolah kene pulun abis2 sbb dah membazir sminggu
sminggu nih mmg cam ape jek
buat pape pon berangan jek
mesti mengelamun
tgh buang sampah kat luar umah pon bole mengelamun
parah tuh
kan?
carik smangat nak kene g skolah
byk keje yg tak buat
erm..tp okla kot, bile balik skolah kene pulun abis2 sbb dah membazir sminggu
sminggu nih mmg cam ape jek
buat pape pon berangan jek
mesti mengelamun
tgh buang sampah kat luar umah pon bole mengelamun
parah tuh
kan?
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