I'm Back

erkkk when was my last entry on this blog?

I am now back in Malaysia..

alive and kicking!!

the same life again,

work and work..

in the labour room..

the same thing day in day out..

my result of my masters were out last 2 weeks!

Alhamdulillah, got the Distinction award..

the year was full of emotions

and I have another 2 months (November and December) to conclude my 2015..

the year that has marked three decades of my life.

and i'm hoping the year will end with good news, about my life and my career...

Day 8

Day 8 - Thursday 27th August 2015

Breakfast - Muesli with hot milk and honey + milk tea 

Lunch - squash soup with 2 bread rolls with mixed salad from the canteen 

Dinner - 2 plates of basmati rice + daging kicap + ayam goreng + sayur lemak putih  + akok + milk tea 

Fruits - mandarins + apple + strawberries

The dinner was a heavy one *_* cant help it, rezeki got invited by Mummy's friends 

Day 7

Day 7 - Wednesday 26th August

Breakfast - scrambled egg with stir-fried vegies

Lunch - rice with serunding and stir-fried vegies (red cabbage + carrot + onion) + fresh tomato

(yes, onion di kire sayer okeh!)

Dinner - Tortilla wraps with roasted chicken + salads

Fruits - plums, apple, dried fig and apricot

The First Week.. Let's see..

as expected, rancangan saya untuk update my daily meals kat sini tergantung sahaja

susah jugak sebab saya bercita-cita tinggi, plan nak upload siap bergambar semua kan..

so sebelum terlambat, saya cuba recall balik semua meal sejak Day 1 sebaik mungkin

Day 1 - Thursday 20th August 2015

Breakfast - telur rebus ngan milk tea with honey

Lunch - nasi with ayam bakar with salads

Dinner - salads with tuna

fruits - nectarine + dried prunes

Day 2- Friday 21st August 2015

Breakfast - Tesco swiss-style Muesli - tatahu pon ape beza swiss style dengan yg lain 

Lunch - Salads and tuna 

Dinner - tak ingat

fruits - nectarine + dried prunes + figs + apricots + blueberries

Day 3 - Saturday 22nd August 2015

i missed my 'before breakfast' Mistry's drink mix sebab berkejar nak catch early train to Southampton pukul 5 pagi - sangat kecewa sebab saya dan pre-mixed them sebelum tidur

Breakfast - Tortilla warp with roasted chicken with salads

Lunch - Nasi Lemak with rendang ayam - sangat sangat sedap Papa masak

(excuse the lemak sebab sekali sekala berjalan kan)

Dinner - Garlic nann with chicken curry

Fruits - dried prunes and figs + oranges 

snacks : kuih raya ..hehe..

and tidak dapat melawan nafsu saya minum the sugar-laden mango 'juice'

and saya tak dapat menolak Chocolate bar kerana benda depan mata ..huhuhu kecewa..

tapi saya makan 6kotak kecik tu je :p

and missed 'before bed' Royal Jelly in Honey with Hot Milk

Day 4 - Sunday 23rd August 2015

Breakfast - Toast bread with tuna and curry

Lunch - 'Turkish' rice with chicken + salads

Dinner - tak igt - swetcorn on the cobs bakar (from frozen)

Fruits - tak ingat 

Day 5 - Monday 24th August 2015

Breakfast - Muesli with hotmilk

Lunch - tak ingat - 

Dinner - nasi and serunding kot

Fruits : blueberries + nectarine + plum

Day 6 - Tuesday 25th August 2015

Breakfast - Muesli with hot milk

Lunch - chickpeas with tuna and salads

Dinner - Chicken Briyani --> can't resist sebab rasa lapar sebab lunch sepatutnya dengan nasi and kesian Paih tak makan nasi lagi sepanjang hari 

Fruits - blueberries, nectarine, dried prunes

even though the menus are not perfect, but at least it was waayyy better than our meals before this

we are finding a hard time to resist sugary drinks and heavy dinner

sometimes it was just irresistable because of the timing .. 

the menus looks simple but it demands a lot of our rush hours to prepare them so that I wont end up buying outside foods.

just think about preparing a salad for my lunchbox..i need to heat up my milk for breakfast while washing all the vegies and cut them into small pieces and some of them need steaming etc 

then packing..

and for dinner, we are so tempted to just ignore the salad preparation  and just eat whatever

that's it so far..

how long this will last i'm not too sure, but just let us keep an optimistic mind this time..

New Journey

So on monday I went to this small pharmacy on my way to the train station from the hospital...

I was so attracted with the wide range of herbal and natural products on its shelves

and great selections of organic health foods as well..

and there's one man asked me for any help,

he looked old and 'knowledgeable'

so i told him what i was looking for

he told me that he opens 'clinic session' every Wednesday afternoon 

so there I went!

i told him my problem and he started scribbling a lots of things on a piece of A4 paper..

he listed down the 'suggested' daily meal plan for me..

and most of the things are in consistent with my scientific readings..

 he added few supplements if i'm interested..

and I decided to give the plan a try

i've integrated his meal plan with my other sources. 

so here I am on Day 2 of the Healthy Eating 

i planned to track my journey by updating this blog with what i had ..

Rewind..

yes i know it's almost towards i can't not to share this..

i've never thought the font can be seasonal, but these definitely make me feel like spring again!

have i shared our spring photos? 

i will !

and this is where i got this fonts

oh i need a happy vibe please!!

weekend is here..and it's for our bucket list activities!

a colleague of mine kind of remind me not to be too stressful with the research..

enjoyy the journey, he said.. (he's a psychologist okayy!)

either you had a good time or bad time throughout the process, you'll end up at the same finishing line.. so why not choose the better option..

but a little bit of pressure is sometimes necessary to pump some adrenaline in..

Tengok ni tengok ni..cantik kan combination warna-warna bedsheet and quiltcover baru kami ^_^ beli murah-murah je kat supermarket..rambang mata! 

Dah Summer, so saya cuba la pakai seluar ni...mase kat Malaysia haritu beli muat-muat lepas tu tak muat langsung dah.. Masuk peha pon tak brape bole.. Sekarang?? Pandanglah Lihatlah.. 

Namun.. Ini semua tidak bererti kerana hakikatnya bahagian perut telah semakin berlapis kembali kerana dua tiga bulan kebelakangan ini saya tidak menahan diri dari pemakanan tidak sihat langsung...saya merasakan saya berhak untuk makan cekelat banyak-banyak kerana ingin menghadapi pembelajaran dengan lebih gembira... 

Jom kita lihat sampai bilakah saya muat seluar ini..

Tat Telur

I bought this for my lunch (sori tak puasa) but then i thought of my Paih..so i put it back in my bag and i'll just wait for iftar.. Sweetnyee i :p 

These 2 egg tarts (fancily packaged) only cost 85pence! I was wondering about the  price in Malaysia, 3 kuehs for RM2 (pls insert the cyanosed-suprised emoticon here).. Can we survive and have a good life after this? I'm not expecting a 'perfect' one, but at least enough for our basic WANTS after spending on our basic NEEDS.. 

The Road Less Travelled..

Yeay, I've got NHS Trust ID today, after months of waiting for the Honorary Contract approval.. It's weird though, being on the other side of the fence..seeing Doctors do things that I normally did before.. In a way, I felt relieved because I don't have to deal with the 'hmmm, the CTG isn't looking that good..but...' , 

but i miss the part where i could say to patients 'everything looks good from the scan..' Or 'enjoy your pregnancy journey'.. Or the best part is 'look, that's the heart beat!!'

... The road diverged in a yellow wood... Whatever path lies ahead of me, I hope I will wake up in the morning feeling 'yeay, another day !!!' (I'm really not a morning person, i snoozed my alarm 4-5 times every working day!!!)

Seriously, the only thing that matters to me is being able to wake up every morning looking forward what life can offer me... And that is the only reason I'm going through this now.. For a better 'mornings'...

Bola

Seriously saya bukanla peminat bola, boleh bilang dengan jari berapa kali saya pernah menonton perlawanan bola.. Namun, alang-alang di negara orang kan, kita singgah sahaja lah apa-apa yang patut.. Ini adalah 2 minggu lepas.. Ketika itu saya memakai baju kurung kerana baru pulang dari kelas.. Saya memakai baju kurung pada hari terakhir kelas rasmi dalam program sarjana ini kerana sahaja ingin menunjukkan kepada rakan-rakan antarabangsa bahawasanya inilah pakaian harian saya di Malaysia.. Saya menerangkan pada rakan-rakan saya bahawa ini adalah 'pakaian selamat'..iaitu pakaian serba boleh, you will never go wrong in this Baju Kurung (at least for me la).. Boleh untuk rasmi, tidak rasmi, ke wad bersalin, berlari-lari keliling hospital,  masuk pejabat.. 

Prektis makes Perfect!

This is my first meal of the day, yes at 5.45pm!! 

Practising for Ramadhan, I guess. 

This is my second day of 'project-term'. (No that is not my experiment in the photo). So I will spend 9-5 in Royal Free Hospital for the project. Ramadhan is coming, and I can only du'a that I'll have the energy to face the day without my usual morning coffee (maybe that is good for me).

despite my believe that PCOS women should avoid caffeine, I can't help but rely on multiple daily dose of caffeine to keep me going, sometimes i feel like i need an infusion-pump with me for continuous intravenous supply.

Oh about coffee, why does it matter in PCOS? Hmmm.. They dont have definite conclusion,yet, but the theory is that it will make your body to produce more insulin, especially the insulin in PCOS women are 'less-sensitive'. Peaks of insulin are not good for you, not good for androgen (male hormone) in particular.. 

Having said that, i rather choose my sanity than the molecular stuffs in my body (as usual) 😆😆😆 

Massive Clearance

I have restrained myself from unnecessary shopping for almost a year, and it is do-able!! Was not that bad as i expected it to be..

But I went Clarks outlet last weekend and i found £10-£15 flats! Omg! So that's it, i broke the dry-spell! Did not regret it at all as i keep on thinking i have to pay RM200-RM300 for each pair when I go back home.. 

And now I am not going to buy any new flats for 5-6 years..yes, my shoes last that long especially in Aisya's care.. 

Small little things..

Ohmy.. What happened to this blog now? Seriously I had a LOT of things planned for my blog entries..but then it got 'basi' already.. 

So this is me now, still in denial, finding 'things' to do before focussing on this..

It's June the 10th already and I it seems like everything is sooo fast (apart from the weather, people are still wearing jackets and coats on!!!).. 

My imagination of strolling down the London parks randomly aimlessly was proved to be 'indah khabar dari rupa'.. Yes we have bright sunny days in between the cold cloudy weeks, but I have never been that lucky to be free on those days.. 

Exam in 4 days.. 

Selasa..

Rabu...

Khamis...

Jumaat exam!!! 

Eh rasa2 macam tinggal banyak hari lagi nak study..rupe-rupenye 3 hari je...

I feel like sharing this paragraph on this page with all.. Comparing the scale for family unit from different background...'you almost need an electron microscope to study the modern western family these days'... 

I was thinking on how small our unit became now, and how small it will be in the future..the size might not be in numbers, but in our closeness and 'discloseness'.. 

I am concern with the fact that we sometimes feel 'complete' with our own nuclear unit, while in the past the extended members are so much more 'needed'.. With this in mind, personally, i think that we have to deliberately make an effort to make everyone around us feel needed and appreciated.. 

Hip hip hooray!!

(I found this in the draft box, unpublished entry since 2 weeks ago)

So it's official now!! It's the end of Term 2! Time for our springbreak! 

Felt so overwhelmed with the idea of going back home! So many things to do! So many foods to cross off the craving list! 

See, we can always complain eventho it's something great.. 

I will definitely have an awesome break!! See you guys soon!

Family and The Sun

There is no greater joy than being around families..i thought i would have updated my every move here, but it turns out that there's still no single entry on my springbreak yet! 

So this is a must! My phone camera-roll is going to burst soon! His every smirk and smile are worth keeping.. 

Night Stroll

nah amik kau sebijik penuh muka i!

sebagai seorang kakak, i laa yang duk kawal abis semua adik-adik

make sure semua bangun semua sihat

saya laa yang call adik-adik sana sini

nak harap adik call saya?

tunggu kucing bertanduk

adik, memang laki i muka tak senyum ah amik gambar

nape ntah..

saje nk buat muka kesian kan..

Here Comes The Sun

Cuaca sangat nyaman dan indah..

tak sangka akan sangat menghargai matahari seperti ini

matahari Melbourne menyinar sepanjang tahun, walaupun pada Winter..

oleh yg demikian tak sangka begitu rupanya rasa tanpa Matahari..

walaupun ada hari-hari yang masih sangat sejuk, tapi sekurang-kurangnya adalah jugak yang bersuhu above 10 degrees.. 

hari semakin panjang..

memberi harapan until dating dengan teman lelaki ku..

tapi teringat pulak tak tulis entry pasal Winter Holiday haritu pon lagi

sangat sangat banyak gambar jadi fikir nak pilih yang terbaik la konon..

kat Facebook pon takde langsung pasal Winter trip tersebut..

trip of a lifetime la konon!

tapi ketika itu, negara dilanda kemurungan kerana bah besar..

bah terbesar dalam sejarah..

kami turut bermurung di sini...

okeh di sini saya kongsikan bersama lirik The Beatles..

Here Comes The Sun..

Here comes the sun

Here comes the sun,

and I say, It's all right

Little darling

It's been a long, cold lonely winter

Little darling

It feels like years since it's been here

Here comes the sun

Here comes the sun,

and I say, It's all right

Little darling

The smiles returning to the faces

Little darling

It seems like years since it's been here

Here comes the sun

Here comes the sun,

and I say, It's all right

Agak-agak la kan.. Kalau bace journal sambil tengok Cerekarama, mane yang lagi menang? 

Walaupun MUNGKIN akan lagi banyak fokus pada Cerekarama, tapi kalau tak start bace journal langsung tak gerak gak assignment kan kan? 

Sikit-sikit lama-lama jadi bukit !! (Self-justification) hihi.

Spring is in the air!!

The fact that the spring has arrived makes me craveee for ice cream!! 

Luck

Main sudoku ni kira ikut nasib la. Ada kalanya dapat yang snagat-sangat senang walaupun kite dah pilih tahap kesukaran yang sama. Bile nasib dapat yang senang tu 5-6 minit dapat selesaikan level 'intermediate'.. Tapi kalau nasib tak baik tu saya pernah sampai 25minit kat satu sudoku..

Ni contoh bila nasib tak berapa baik. 19minit baru sampai tahap tu dah terpaksa guna app yang tulis-tulis nombor kecik untuk possibilities setiap petak.. Tekun kan saya! Hihi..

Btw, saya memang telah re-addicted terhadap sudoku ni.. 

Sekian terima kasih

Kenapa perlu tahu definisi PCOS?

(kiut-kiut rupenye poster kalau Google Image utk PCOS)

Apa yang public tahu mengenai PCOS?

rasanya di zaman sains dan teknologi ni ramai yang tahu PCOS kan

tapi istilah itu tidak semudah itu utk didefinisikan..

PC - PolyCystic

O - Ovaries

S- Syndrome

so akan ada keadaan dimana seseorang itu PCO namun tak semestinya ade PCOS.. 

definisi yang paling diterima umum untuk PCOS ni mengikut Rotterdam criteria - sempena mereka bersidang di Rotterdam pada tahun 2003.

mereka telah mempersetujui bahawasanya untuk meng-diagnos seseorang dengan PCOS haruslah memenuhi sekurang-kurangnya 2 daripada 3 criteria die bawah

 1.  menstrual irregularities/oligo/amenorrhea/chronic anovulation

 2. hyperandrogenism

3. polycystic morphology on ultrasound

(from Google je)

so untuk kriteria pertama tu - definisinya agak luas - pendek kata, period tak teratur laa.. tapi harus diingatkan tak semua period tak teratur tu ade PCOS - lenkali la plak kongsi cite detail pasal ni kan

kriteria kedua - bermaksud simptom-simptom yang menandakan terdapat peningkatakn hormon androgen. androgen ni orang selalu sebut hormon lelaki, tapi sebenernya dua-dua jantina pon menghasilkan hormon ini..tapi bergantung pada jumlahnya pulak sikit ke banyak kan.. contoh-contoh simptom nya adelah berbulu lebat (tapi tak semua yang bebulu lebat adelah kerana hyperandrogenism kan, ade yang kerana genetik), jerawat, rambut botak (male-pattern baldness), central adiposities (kegemukan bahagian abdomen) dan macam-macal lagi la..

ketiga pula - kelihatan cyst-cyst pada ovary yang memenuhi kriteria sekurang-kurangnya lebih 12 cyst yg bersaiz 2-9mm.. 

tapiii harus diingatkan bahawa tidak semua PCOS akan memiliki dan memanifestasi semua ini .. dan juga tidak semua yang memiliki ciri-ciri tersebut adelah PCOS kan..

ini sekadar perkongsian la..takle nak dijadikan penulisan saya ini sebagai bahan asas/rujukan untuk rawatan diri sendiri plak kan.. (kalau ade orang terbace entry ni laa..)

okeh tu kriteria untuk nak memenuhi diagnosis PCOS sahaja..

kalau dah PCOS sekalipun, memang setiap individu berbeza

agar sukar untuk dikatakan semua PCOS harus 'classical' seperti yang kita selalu anggap

'berbulu, gemuk, tak subur'..

kerana PCOS adelah keadaan yang 'heteregenous'

saya memenuhi kesemua kriteria diagnosis PCOS di atas..

ovaries saya adelah typical textbook picture of pearl necklace sign..

so ape manfaatnya mengetahui diganosis tersebut?

kebanyakan simptom PCOS harusla di tackle secara individu..

kalau masalah jerawat, bole cube COCP..

kalau masalah fertility, bole cube ovulation induction..

tapi ade juga orang PCOS yang tiada yang ketara langsung...

pentingnya diagnosis ini adelah kerana kesedaran terhadap risiko-risiko yang berkaitan keadaan ini

contohnya risiko-risiko mendapat diabetes dan penyakit seperti jantung atau stroke

tapi bukanla untuk menakut-nakutkan semua orang kan..

cume kene sedar dan cube untuk membuat LIFESTYLE MODIFICATION !

ayuhhhh!!!

(saya dah belly threadmill tapi berape kali gune?? hihihi)

Berasap Kepala

It has only been the second day of the module but the timetable already looks like this.. (The red ones are the amended lectures/tutorials).. 

Bento

I'm definitely not a morning person! I snoozed my alarm for at least 4 times before i could eventually get the strength to wake up..

But i'm ever so lucky to have Paih to pack my bento and make me coffee.. I qas not a coffee person but life has been so demanding, and i need it.. 

This entry is just to shout my appreciation towards my boyfriend forever! 

My morning

My morning!! The blind is still off not to wake Paih up..

Fefeeling nak nyanyi lagu The Climb by Miley Cyrus laaa...lg best kalau duet ngan Balqis...

No sip, just gulp!

Nampak milkshake ni yellow-tagged kat Asda and omg!! Sedap gile! Sangat creamy!! Sangat milky!! 

It says 'shake shake shake & then you gulp'! Rase nak nyanyi shake it off, shake it off sambil shake tu sebab sangat high lepas minum sedap sangat kottt .. 

Sunday Morning

Simple breakfast on Sunday Morning.. 

After the whole day spent in the British Library the day before (yes,it was saturday!!and yes we r that nerd *_*), we decided to laze around on Sunday.. We spring-cleaned our room, and it's sparkling clean now!!

As we did the cleaning and rearranging, we realised how disorganised we were just because we thought we would move out anytime soon, so we didnt buy any bookcases, storage boxes etc.. 

But, the chance of moving out seems so slim now as we are getting comfortable with this place..so we decided to just get anything necessary to keep the place nice to see..

How do you get rid of the mess on dressing table and study table? How do you make sure your study area looks presentable? Hmmm that's tough.. And it is near to impossible to keep them organised alll the time if you are a person like me.. I would admit that i'm a bit weird  about this, but i need to leave my books or study place exactly the way it was opened and clutttered when i was on my last line of the books/papers/website.. If someone has removed or even changed the angle of my stuff, i need to start all over again to get the feel of previous readings.. (Tak paham takpe).. 

So let say i was reading this.. My paper and highlighter was on that angle, so i need then to stay that way when i want to resume my readings..i'll feel something is not right if it has changed...

Therefore....my desk will never NEVER ever look organised! *sigh*sigh*.. 

Oh get back to the spring cleaning, so we went to Homebase (they have storewide-15% yesterday!!), and we bought several baskets to DECLUTTER our mess! 

I've read an article in Good Housekeeping about how sometimes it is just impossible to organise everything, so you just need to DECLUTTER! means keep the clutters and mess in an organised confined space/area/box (depends on the stuffs).. For example, i have a bowl on my table just to throw in EVERYTHING - keys, lanyards, brooches.. Just because it is impossible for me to straight away arrange my things neatly right after i reach home! 

So yes, since reading the article few years back, i feel 'less bad' about being the way i am, realising that i'm not alone in being 'cluttered'.. 

Shakespeare in Love, Noel Coward Theatre

i could not say that i have a lot of experience about plays or theatres

this was my second play i've ever watched my whole life..

(the first was Macbeth by Shakespeare when i was in Monash)

so we did not expect much from this, 

and it makes us enjoy every little bit of the play to the max!

Balqis even reminded us to 'look nice'..

maybe because we've seen in the movies that people wear nice dresses to the theatre..

so here i was, not with my usual 'floor-sweeping' oversized jeans, 

but with something nicer (i think).

we were so tempted to sneakily snap photos/selfies inside the theatre, but we didn't..

the interior was very classic, as it was opened since 1903!!

(not that i know what other theatres looked like)

so here are the photos that i took from the net so that you can better imagine it 

^_^

and here is the opening scene of the play..

if only you have the chance, grab it!

it's worth your every minute and penny!

(but we got the ticket for free, hihi)

picture source :
MFP
RogovoyReport
TheatreTrust

Visit Malaysia

I have been telling Paih about this Visit Malaysia Ad on the London Red Buses since last year everytime they pass by... I was wondering what people know about Malaysia, and what makes people attracted to visit us afte looking at this ad...

I'm not an expert, but would people expect that we have endless colourful celebrations all year round?  They are lucky if they come around Hari Merdeka, can wait for the parade and all.. But otherwise, hmmm.. 

Yes i get the idea that we want to portray our cultural diversity with multiracial background, but hmmmm... 

Okeh thats just my thoughts on this..

Btw, i really hope that one day i will have the chance to join the crowd in watching the real-life 'perbarisan hari merdeka'.. That has always been my childhood dream.. I can still remember my childhood 'pagi merdeka', watching the perbarisan on the TV and sing along 'inilah..barisan kita..yang ikhlass berjuang..'

Teal Ribbon - PCOS Awareness!

i was preparing my slides for my project dissertation

and i've just discovered that PCOS has its own 'coloured ribbon'..

its a TEAL ribbon!

one of my favourite colour

i'm not a good writer

but suddenly it appeared to me that i should use my blog to spread awareness about PCOS

i'm not ashamed of my PCOS..

i have a lot to say about it..

why do i think awareness about PCOS is important?

for me, it's not only about your irregular period..

not only about your sub fertility..

not only about your cysts..

it's a lot more than that

every parts of your body are saying something about your PCOS..

it involves EVERYTHING you have to know about your health...

it affects your insulin, and later you are more susceptible to diabetes

..and subsequently put you at risk of cardiovascular disease

not to forget the risk of getting endometrial cancer (scary huh?)

but it's not all nightmares..

people with PCOS are believe to have 'thrifty gene'..

the gene for survival..

when i did some Googling about PCOS websites/blogs

i noticed that most of them are for advertorial purposes

people are selling diet plans/supplements/weightloss tips etc..

and i thought, why don't i share my stories.. 

not only my personal stories, but bits and pieces of things along my research journey..

my research is quite molecular..

too subspecific.. but to get to that point, i discovered new things everyday..

it will be A LOT if i would start talking about it now..

i will write about it bit by bit later..

btw, my blog colour theme matched this PCOS campaign right?!

^_^

so does my macbook cover and mouse!

pic source :

inspiredcases

pinterest

Merah Jambu

pink sangat tak slides saya?

saya dah plan dah nak bitau awal-awal mase presentation tu yang saya sengaja buat pink..

so takdela orang fikir saya bajet kiut kan.. LOL

short informal presentations je pon ni

tapi saya terlebih rajin la spend masa buat sendiri background ni

background UCL yang ready-made takde warne soft pink

dan jangan risau, tiada maklumat pesakit pon pada slides yang saya screenshot ni..

so sekarang ayuh kite mencari bahan untuk diisi pada slide itu pula!

*sambil mendengar lagu Celine Dion*

The Year of Fruits or Flowers

Selamat Ulang Tahun Sayang! 

Baru 4 tahun keee kite kawin? Rase macam dah kawin 100 tahuunn je.. Bukan dah bosan, tapi macam dah tak ingat hidup tanpa awak! 

According to tradition, on 4th anniversary   we should give each other fruits and flowers, so we'll do the shopping 1st thing in the morning tomorrow!