ok.. kalo die pon bersungguh2 blaja sume2 tuh.. saye pon kene la smangatblaja juge kan.. caiyo2!!!

kawin susah. tak kawin susah. kawin dua lg susah.

“Kenapa kau menangis? Kau cemburu?”Aisha mengangguk. Aku memeluknya, “Maafkan aku Aisha, semestinya kau tidak menikah denganku sehingga kau menderita seperti ini.”“Kau jangan berkata begitu Fahri. Menikah denganmu adalah kebahagianku yang tiada duanya. Kau tidak bersalah apa-apa Fahri. Tak ada yang salah denganmu. Kau sudah berusaha melakukan hal yang menurutmu baik. Rasa cemburu itu wajar. Meskipun aku yang memaksamu menikahi Maria. Tapi rasa cemburuku ketika kau berada dalam kamar dengannya itu datang begitu saja. Inilah cinta. Tanpa rasa cemburu cinta tiada.”

kelas dr aishah

aishah siman: hu hu hu..
aishah siman: mmgla
aishah siman: nanti dia rs x dihargai la plak
aishah siman: soklan bodoh mcm dh makan ke?
aishah siman: sihat ke?
aishah siman: penat ke/.
aishah siman: tuh kena la tanye

sharahaila: ooo camtuh kite ade tanye jugak kot
sharahaila: kene tanye lg la psnih
sharahaila: sblum nih kite conscious laa

aishah siman: kena tanye gak pasl family

easter is in the air

saaangaaaaat sukeeeeeee.. it's all started from last nite la.then happiness bertimpa2 even i only had 3-4hrs of sleep. bgn pg. mandi.siap2 utk g bendigo~naik v-line.no words cant describe the feeling. listened to mushy2 songs on the way in the train.sangaaat into the mood la! it's like we r travelling to some wonderland or somewhere of that sort. everything amused me. even the colours of the grass, trees, sky, clouds..everything ok! bendigo was much much more saikou. they preserved all the classic building, n yes they do look classy!

easter breaking

i just realised that my posts are getting more and more on my inner-scream.getting less and less about wards and med stuff.i could infer few things from that.it's either i'm getting used to the ward and nothing really amused me anymore or i'm getting less motivated on ward. i'd prefer it to be the former although it's not really the case now.
few updates abt the ward :

• saw Dr.P, Dr.T and C a few times having coffee together at the zouki.love them!they really made a good team
  
• Dr. S T and Dr. C S is quite good but they didnt really ask us questions so i think i'm not gaining as much as giha n kemal n osama gained because Dr. S H asked them a lot of questions and gave them tasks to be looked up.
• i hate ethics classes.some ppl agreed on debates for next session.oh how i wish i can just be invisible there.
• already felt comfortable with S for cbt and hoped that she'll be tutoring us for the whole yr. it's not that another S isnt as good as her but we have to start it all over again to get the 'comfortness'.
• today's cbt is cancelled bcos S didnt realised they'll be extremely busy this afternoon before the long weekend.met her on the way back from 'looking for the patient'. the patients on bed 1 & 4 must be waiting for us. =( . hahah it's not that i'm soo eager to have the tute, but it's a lucky day bcos the ward clerk was very very generous and kind to offer us pleasent options for the patients.

now i should easter-breaking happily!!!!

cintaku forever

hmm... how can ppl be so sure that their love is forever?
kalo tgk pd prasaan skrg of course la kan sgt sng mulut bicara
tp sbnrnye btol ke bole forever.
i mean if sorg tu mati.. nk hidup as a loner sampai tua ke

hhmm... walopon tajuk tuh catchy n i really like that
cintaku forever
tp tk brani la nk jamin
cume bole confirmkan yg saat ini.. masih valid 'cintaku hanya utk mu'
kan?

kanda dan dinda

Setapak melangkah
Dua langkah ingatan kanda pada dinda
Adinda bersumpah, jikalau kekanda tidak kembali
Adinda akan menyusul kekanda
Menginjak pada tanah yang sama
Bernafas pada udara yang sama B
erlayar berbelok-belok
Sauh dibongkar di tempat tenang
Yang tinggal hati tak elok
Yang pergi hati tak senang
Bila sampai waktu, kita akan bersama

i really have a big problem now!

wuaa, camane nih.

what if he misunderstood???

getting better

yeyeeey!!i've finished my pbl for tomorrow's class.
it's really nothing to be celebrated abt, but in current situation i really shud be happy for that.
i havent really do any good thing at all in these few days.. or maybe in this past week.

ok now i shud move on to the delirium and maybe talley for rheumatological xm.

happy birthday omma

hari ini hari ulangtahun kelahiran mama! sgt rindu juge. smlm mama sms mengatakan die berada di penang.sibuk sungguh ye. ingin menampal lirik lagu sheila on 7 'just for my mom' tuh pon tidak rajin kerana perlu melalui internet explorer. tidak mengapalah, saye akan mendengar lagu itu sepanjang hari.

sihat

lega mendengar khabar yg die sihat.hihi.tp saye pule yg kurang sihat.cuaca terlalu panas membuatkan kpale saye juge panas.smlm start sakit tekak.tp alhamdulillah beransur elok skrg. new rotation juge bole tahan,tp kami tidak menanti sampai petang.adekah kami perlu?tidak tahu la, mungkin ade perkara yg akan timbul sepanjang tenghari ke petang, ikut nasib la kan, tp saye malas rasenye nk risk mase saye.sungguh byk lg keje2 saye yg lain tidak selesai,bak kata org2 terdahulu, we have to find the right balance for the time spent in the ward and our own time.

tp yg menggembirakan saye adelah saye dpt mengambil darah pakcik tadi.kesiah pakcik itu. die menghidap kanser esofagus. die sangat kecil dan hilang byk berat badan. dia hidup seorang bersama anjingnye.ksian dan simpati.

i'm still not ok
immunocompromised
i knew the reason
but i cant do anything about that

private practice

just started my new series
private practice
(melbourney hot can be the excuse not studying for the whole day)
argh.. sgt pnas dan kering
i cant stay put
can do nothing
it's already autumn but why??

rhythm of the falling rain

Listen to the rhythm of the falling rain,
Telling me just what a fool I've been.
I wish that it would go and let me cry in vain,
And let me be alone again.

Now the only girl I've ever loved has gone away.
Looking for a brand new start!
But little does she know that when she left that day.
Along with her she took my heart.

Rain, please tell me, now does that seem fair
For her to steal my heart away when she don't care
I can't love another, when my heart's somewhere far away.

Listen to the rhythm of the falling rain,
Telling me just what a fool I've been.
I wish that it would go and let me cry in vain,
And let me be alone again.

Rain, won't you tell her that I love her so
Please ask the sun to set her heart aglow
Rain in her heart and let the love we know start to grow.

masaki, yutaro,rie,yuka,sarah,tatsuya

who's my lucky charm?

but sarah is ok

burger ayam

ngantuk.silap la, sape suruh mkn burger tuh.
byk penambah rase yg memamaikan.wuaagh..
nk study la
.tgh ade mood nk study nih
tp mamai, camane nih.

neuro exam of upper limb

whooaa.. fortunately i volunteered for the neuro xm.
if not i wont realise how much i need to improve.
even small things like checking for the tone, there's always room for improvements.
the tutoralso has been really goooood.

~need to get back on the track~
status : lookind fwd to sth good

watashi wa mata nihon-ni ikitai

i'm ssooo glad that i volunteered to be involved with the japanese students from saitama uni although we were quite nervous at the beginning because we didnt really know what to be expected from us. but when they broke us into small groups, we had a good time eventhough we did went out of the track most of the time.ok let me recall their names..yutaro,yuka,rie,tatsuya and masaki.
they are really2 nice ppl.then we had lunch together at the airport lounge.had a GREEEATT time~ plus they r soo kakoi!

ini kisah tentang bulan

touched by aimi's video
with 'tentang bulan ost' as the background

"ini kisah tentang bulan
bulan bintang jadi kawan"

i was born to love u

~listening to the Queen 'i was born to love u'..seriously, only takuya in my mind~

got a new spirit today after a long chat with along
she got us worried
in fact, we should be worried.
cant waste any more time.
everything's going in faster pace.
not a single thing wait for us.

so i'm now copy-pasting the patho cases
going to print them in student union tomorrow morning
(if only i wake up early la kan)

i really had missed a lot on patho
all owing to my procrastination

no more procrastination,sarah!!

oh have i wrote on my new job
i did apply for a job as a cleaner last week
yup, seems like a 'low' job, but not to me
as long as i use my time wisely and gain some money, it's fine with me
the house is quite big but i only need to vacuum and mop the downstairs.
and wipe the stovetop.
it's simple.
at least i'll have extra $160 per month
(it seems nothing compared to our allowance of $1200/month)
but i'll feel more appreciative of what i gained from my own hardship
haha hard la sgt kan

~anyway.. hail happy to everybody~

saye tunggu

selamat pengantin baru

isk cane bole lupe nih nk wat entry utk ah kawin
selamat pengantin baru

Fatihah & Ammar

i'm sooo happy for them
n happy for myself too.

never thought that she* knew me

*doesnt refer to fatihah.. 'she' is someone i need to tackle :p

i wont last a day without u

a phrase in m2m song
"u never know what u've got till it's gone"

i was seriously frantically scared of the fact that i'm losing it
kehulur kehilir mencari2
mcm kucing hilang anak
nsb baik i can hold back my tears

after all the SCARY search, i found it just here
here.
in my own bathroom

i learned how much it meant to me
it meant a lot
because it meant him

alhamdulillah

teringat sampai nk nangis

code blue

ok,trying to recall every details that happened yesterday.it was quite and exciting day (tiring of course!).from 8am-6pm,i just had around 30mins of seating time.(huhu, hoped some calories were burnt). started in the morning before neuro unit had their ward round. i was looking at of the stroke pt's file,then the intern/resident came and she said that she needed that file for the round and we are invited to follow her.of course la kan we wont miss this opportunity.it was kinda really exciting because she was explaining almost every single thing she's doing to us and i had the chance to write in the report.seriously!!i'm very the very excited to sign my surname in the file.i never really used my surname on its own before this! then after seeing a few stroke patients, our neuro unit started their round and we followed them.but it's not as usual bcos we didnt start the round in the ward but at the ED. before that there's one neurologist(whom i dont know his position) reported to us the lists of casualties that we have to see.there's actually 3 pts atthe ED..three!! at the..ED!! a lot of things happened and i think this entry will be extremely long,so i'll just make it into dot points
- suddenly the ED nurse ask us, the meddies, to help gowning this 1 emergency pt who came with severe renal colic.cant really describe how i fell being involved in an emergency for the 1st time.plus the fact that it's soo unexpected.eventho it seems like nothing to help the gowning, but still, it's something big from a view.so touched and feel appreciated when the ED nurse thanks us for being extra help and nathalie did say ' well done'.for such a simple thing, well done?? i'm soo touched!!!
- watched another lumbarpuncture
- there's one new elective student from england into our unit.cant really describe how 'jaw gagging' i was to hear her british accent.quite enjoyed the round with her because at least i'm doing something by filling her in with info as we went on.she said she'll be lost if we didnt fill her in.no worries, mate.we r also a student!
- chris said that my jaw can be repaired with $17,000!!
- saw a nystagmus. intranuclear opthamoplegia to be exact!

-went back home and didnt go straight to my usual 'sleep'. did soem ironin and organising the wardrobe and bookrack.
-went to sleep at 3am bcos tried to finish up reading the ebcp.

~menghirup rindu yg sesakkan dada~

p value

quantifies the prob that an observed difference between 2 study grps might have arisen due to chance alone, assuming that theree is in fact no difference between the groups.

the same route

yes yes!
we went to have The Walk again

so happy with myself bcos i managed to finish preparing for the dinner
then i BAKE a cake.yes, BAKE ok!
sashiburi, my mixer!

after all that kitchen mitchen stuff i went for The Jog with jun

not again!

spent 3/4 of the day gossiping at muni's place (plus some % at mine).
gge and sujay were here again!
so to make up for the wasted time, i tried to stay up and do some 'good thing'.
but i still think nothing can undo the time that passed by bcause again, its just like a vicious cycle.
if i stayed up late, i'll end up sleeping the whole next day
and then not feeling good with everything around.

this morning, AGAIN i woke up late.
jun woke me up with her all dressed up already
AGAIN, felt very guilty to be the one to put the blame when we're not early to the ward
of course la we werent late.
but still...

not many patient today.
just 1 new.
maybe being addmitted over the weekend

so took some history from 2 pts
1 for me 1 for jun
i got a very simple one
she's actually from rheumatology unit.
n that was the 1st time i wrote notes with that green 'incare progres' sheet.
felt soo goood.
yes, it's really good.

kekki kekkon

i'm sooo ngantuk.
nemui desu :p

but cant help to feel good of being such a good girl preparing hard for..
hhahaha...

cant wait to upload it here but i cant find where did i put my cable
:(

yuki no furanai machi

yup, clayton is a town without snow
:p

white white white

time saye ****** nanti2 kan,
saye nk wat cupcakes cam nih ah.
mintak SuTi watkan ke.
tempah ngan shalia nih ke.
ape2 la kan.
time ***** pon bole wat bg kat special guests.
huhu,sooo dreaming of a white *******.
huhu, gatal!

Arigatou to kimi ni iwareru to nandaka setsunaisayounara no ato no tokenu mahou awaku horonigaiThe flavor of lifetomodachi demo koibito demo nai chuukan chiten deshuukaku no hi wo yumemiteru aoi furu-tsuato ippo ga fumidasenai sei dejirettai no wa nande?arigatou to kimi ni iwareru to nandaka setsunaisayounara no ato no tokenu mahou awaku horonigaiThe flavor of lifeamai dake no sasoi monku ajike no nai dokusonna mono ni wa kyoumi wa sosorarenaiomoitoori ni ikanai toki dattejinsei suteta mon janai ttedoushita no? to kyuu ni kikareru to "uun. nandemo nai"sayounara no ato ni kieru egao watashi rashikunaisinjitai to negaeba negau hodo nandaka setsunai"aishiteru yo" yori mo "daisuki" no hou ga kimi rashii janai?The flavor of lifewasurekakete ita hito no omoi wo totsuzen omoidasu korofuritsumoru yuki no shirosa wo omou to sunao ni yorokobitai yodaiyamondo yorimo yawarakakute atatakana miraiteni shitai yo kagiri aru jikan wo kimi to sugoshitai"arigatou" to kimi ni iwareru to nandaka setsunaisayounara no ato no tokenu mahou awaku horonigaiThe flavor of life

flavor of life

For some reason it's painful when you say "Thank You"The unbreakable magic after "good bye" is weakly bittersweetThe flavor of lifeNot friends, but not lovers, we're inbetweenI'm dreaming of the day of the harvest of fresh fruitWhy is it so vexing?For some reason it's painful when you say "Thank you"The unbreakable magic after "good bye" is weakly bittersweetThe flavor of lifeWords of invatation that are simply sweet are a sensationless poisonMy interest is not peaked by things like thatLife isn't something that you throw awayWhen things don't go your wayWhen I'm suddenly asked "what's wrong?" I just say "no, nothing"The smiling face that disappears after "good bye" isn't like meThe more I wish that I want to believe, the more painful it isIt's more like you to say "I like you" more than "I love you"The flavor of lifeWhen you suddenly remember people you were about to forgetI honestly want to be happy when I think of the whiteness of the snow that builds upMore than diamonds, I want a soft, warm futureI want to spend my limited time with youFor some reason it's painful when you say "Thank you"The unbreakable magic after "good bye" is weakly bittersweetThe flavor of life