i'm back

i'm having a mug of coffee~planning to stay up~lalala

i donno what call me back to be here.. i've always thinking of writing something here, but there's also something that stopped me*nightmare*..but maybe now i'm quite stress with the xm coming up a few more days, so i end up here.
donno why all of a sudden, i have a thought that i'm so grateful to be here..monash mbbs.. it's not that i wasnt grateful before, but i just tookit for granted.. i feel like 'i'm happy with bla bla bla..' but the thought just now was so different. i thought about how exciting medical course is, bcoz u got to meet a lot of ppl.. n the public will b involved every now n then throughout the course..yeah i know, that's quite lame reason to be excited about the course u r taking.. but i donno how to put it into words.. n i think what sparked the though was my today's neuro site visit. there was nothing special about that, but.. how to say.. erm.. ppl will say that i'm jiwang or etc, but, yeah, nothing is wrong with being sentimental, rite. the experience to be there at The Alfred.. discussing about neuro at that doc's lounge(or wuteva the real name of that room)... walking through the wards.. n everything la.. it's something really GREAT to be pondered upon.
erm, i dont think i'm getting my point clear here.. but who cares *_*

there's one time during sem 1 that i went 'if only i cud turn back the time, i wudnt have choosen to be here,medic monash'.. hahaha.. that was in a kind of distressful time of the sem.. i normally will utter that before theme 2 tutes.. yeah, theme 2 tutes were.. were.. *i don want to put a bad words here*...
this sem, there's no particular tutes that i'm so phobia of.. but, there's no tute that i'm really fond of.. i've persistently complaining about my tutes for this sem esp pcl... 'epi tutor was so not helpful la, pcl tutor was so boring la, n bla bla bla'.. astarfighullah.. that complains really show how ungrateful i am.i really shudnt!!! syukur with what u had now, coz u will only know that u have it when it's gone...

~okies dokies.. shud get back to my revision of population health notes~