i hate mourisa.i dont like ryan.

but caleb's 'purple eyes' reminds me of toknyang(why does it has to b on cales's????).

hihihi, still remember when we talked in anat museum.

i did this 1 caress test..n guess what..

wants to know which woman r u most like???

congratulations! based on your answers, you are most like

BROOKE DAVIS

You are most like Brooke Davis;

a dedicated leader who is sophisticated,

sometimes restless, cultured, and delicate.

You enjoy shopping and having fun.

hmmm..wondering whether its' true or m i hallucinating??

hmm.. the result is supposed to be today but... the fac DECIDED to make us wait a little longer.. to test our patience and perseverence..hahahaha.. it's 18days late!!!

it seems like 24hrs isnt enough ~what a cliche!~ i woke up at 9/10, then my day is full of everything.. i havent got time to feel bored, in fact i have so much more things to do in queue =))

i'm scared~a real scare~ that i'll wake up one day realising it's already feb. hmm.. i guess this is when i need to apply mindfullness..hihihi.. i have a big jigsaw puzzle to solve.. 4(at the mean time) malay novels to read.. and uncountable english books to read... i really need to read english books.. my english is so in the 'beginner' state. u can tell from my blog la.reading is fun if everyday is like today...i mean, holiday! not any holiday, but summer holiday!!!!!!!! hmmm... what am i going to cook for lunch? hmm.. have something in mind but let us just wait.. just eat what i'm gonna cook..they arent fussy, are u? :p hey, realised the caption 'NAAUC TRANSPORT OFFICER'? hahaha.. google that n see what will u find.. hihihi.. such a small thing being discovered is such an achievement for me.hihihi.i didnt remmber what that naauc stands fr..but it's like national association of australian uni college .. hahaha.. it may sounds like that.. every yr, there'll b a convention held at one of the participating colleges.. so this coming 2007 convention will b hosted by mannix college..ring a bell???n we know tok nyang right.. but i didnt expect him to be the commitee members or sth.. but he did! and kakak-tok-nyang is the merchandise officer.. i didnt know other committee members. but i guess tok nyang n her kakak was very close bcoz they do such things together(of coz!).

bebel

#these posts is written after i tried to read a veryboring story.

okey, i forgot to add in the list of foods i've eaten : laksa-laksa :p

....and i also met Dao Ming Szi...okey, met figuratively la.. he's in The Hospital.. but i cant stand that drama..sooo slow.... n sooo not real.. he's not meant to b a doc. he shud be like Dao Ming Szi,foreva.okey,sounds gdix..but i really am when it comes to those guys in the TV... the list in my xanga answered all.

and also..i've been reading novels these days.. n things kept me wondering.. there's always caption like 'saye suke awak sbb keikhlasan awak,kejujuran awak n bla bla bla..awak jd diri awak sendiri.blablabla..' can ppl see the honesty???can ppl see purity?? how do they judge the partner have been their trueself??how can they say others have not been their trueselves?? bcoz it's in the novels then they can say everything they want..they've been giving false hope to readers.. of cos the main character can say their partner can be trusted n all bcoz the writer of coz could make sure their loyalty etc.. but in real world, can 'trust' be something big like what have been exaggerated now?? dont get me? hmmm.. how to xplain this... i had come across a few 'tips kebahagiaan' or ape2 yg swaktu dgnnya.. n trust will surely b in 1 of them.. hmmm... suddenly felt so mls to cont my xplanation.. after all it's not related to me at all.. :D

i realised that i dont normally write when i'm in great condition.yeah,everything is great now.altho not as perfect as sometime before... i spent my time doing things i've always long for..reading novels,watching tv,gossipping,eating n sleeping... my 24hr seems to b full. but my laziness still win over all other things. i didnt do the cleaning,mopping,sweeping etc..but at least i ORDERED my sis to do all those work..they shud be really thankful to have a wonderful big sis like me who knows to delegate tasks very well...can u count how many sis in the world who knows to delegate works?majority of them only know to do the works themselves..why dun they adopt my way...DELEGATE!hihihihi...wonder why..wonder how..

siannye nye blog ku ini..busy la.. tak smpt nk rase bosan utk tulis2 kat sinih.. so far, evrything is so great...yeah great. and almost perfect...

foods yg dh rase sjak balik :

1. roti tampal n roti sardin
2. nasi kerabu
3. nasi berlauk
4. pulut yg warne coklat tuh
5. sgale masakan raye : rendang, ketupat, satay n etc
6. tomyam cik
7. nasi lemak ayam pg

wuaaa bestnye makan..takkan same kalo wat sendri kat oz..pastuh there's one more yg nk mkn..tp tk smpt bli mase balik kb arituh...iaitu.. jala emas n buah tanjung.. *gulp*gulp*

last night in halls

why in the world i need days to finis packing?soo stress about packing as if i'm taking an xm... okey, tomorrow at this time of the day i'll b the happiest person in the world... :D welcomed by my beloved family at the KLIA. but wut am i doing now? i'm supposed to wash all the dishes n clothes n pack them up already. i've been procrastinating for days already.. but this is the last call, by hook or by crook i need to do it tonite.. erm.. this is the last nite i'll b in halls.. bye bye halls.. it's not really big thing being in halls except that i don have to think about the bills... hot-showering for hours without bothering the dollars.. computers r on 24/7.. drying clothes without calculating n etc... so.. nxt yr i really have to b wise with my dollars.. dont forget ur dream,nyang.. jpon la.. mesir la... oz tour.. okies need to stop.. sth came up.. to b contd....

can u smell the summer?

erm..it's very tiring to write about yesterday's osce..can just wait n tawakkal..after the osce we went to the Den@library.. had latte..then got headache..what a combination! today went to DFO.tomorrow going to the city for baklava... wuaaa packing is soo not fun!!!

'stop, in the name of love..before u break my heart'

ok,that's obviously not my line..

Dengan menyebut nama Allah yg Maha Pemurah lg Maha Penyayang

1. BUKANKAH KAMI TELAH MELAPANGKAN UNTUKMU DADAMU?
2. DAN KAMI TELAH MENGHILANGKAN DARIPADAMU BEBANMU
3. YANG MEMBERATKAN PUNGGUNGMU
4. DAN KAMI TINGGIKAN BAGIMU SEBUTAN NAMAMU
5. KERANA SESUNGGUHNYA SESUDAH KESULITAN ITU ADA KEMUDAHAN
6. SESUNGGUHNYA SESUDAH KESULITAN ITU ADA KEMUDAHAN
7. MAKA APABILA KAMU TELAH SELESAI DARI SESUATU URUSAN,KERJAKANLAH DENGAN SUNGGUH-SUNGGUH URUSAN YANG LAIN
8. DAN HANYA KEPADA TUHANMULAH HENDAKNYA KAMU BERHARAP

i cant wait to write about more cheerful things other than stressful exam stuff.i just need to wait for 2 more days..after that..yeeeehaaaa...cant wait...cant wait... act i need to sleep now coz i need a night-sleep, but i couldnt close my eyes.. i've been under that quilt for more than 1hr.. so i decided to do some more works... wuaaaaaaaaaaa.........risau........... jgn la ngantuk mase OSCE nanti....

exam freak

i havent write anything since the xm. it's not really bcoz i'm busy practising OSCE...it's more like i'm busy freaking out. i've wasted 5days after the exam ronggeng2 watching all sorts of things..cite indon,japanese,movies,etc..maybe i was still in the state of denial bcoz the OSCE's stem was so not fair... it's so much of talking.. there's no bonus station like CPR or other clinical skills.station 1&2 needs us to perform clinical xm to the shoulder and back and leg. and the stem was quite confusing bcoz we r'nt really sure whether we need to do the neuro or musculoskeletal xm. wuaa.. station 3...hmmm..we r the GP,the patient has all sorts of medical condition..bipolar affective disorder,cataract,cardiac failure,osteoarthritis...we need to talk about his driving.. he involved in a few accidents n bla blabla.. maybe bcoz of his cataract or bipolar..nout sure.. i'm afraid of he'll be a 'hard' patient... i'm worried if i stuck halfway lost of words to continue the conversation bcoz there wasnt really any fixed script for this station.i'm really not good in conversation.. really, even in real life i cant bring the conversation on if i'm with ppl i din know. station5..she's a medical student..need to talk about the craig hassed's stuff... basically the ESSENCE.. dont forget to ask the caffeine q.. hahahah.. for this one i really need tp wtite down n make a structure of the conversation in case i got stuck.. station 6.. this one should e really easy for the locals. it's HOPC station for leg pain..arhhhh.. i'm really scared... oki sarah, dont forget to ask 'is there anyhting else u wanna share with me?'... and lastly station 7.. MSE station..wuaa... never expect this station.. evrybody was surprised bcoz they was never in the osce in past yrs.. ok, just relax... just carry the conversation untilthe 5th minutes.. then we have to report to the examiner.. that list of things shud be memorised by tonite... i'm really scared..

ya Allah, guide me..

then what will we have to say.. for busy life void of mercy...

stress

saye sgt takut skrg nih

sdikit tensi (sdikit je?)

esok sudah exam

saye blom bace :

law n ethics

sociology

MSE

saye juge risau kalo2 sleeping habit saye takle dibaiki pd mlm pekse... n saye juge risau jika kecepatan pemikiran terjejas dgn tido yg tdo btol ini!!!!

2 days before exam

i received a shocking news last nite.adi involved in an accident a day before raya.he's still in ICU. cant open his eyes n cant talk. he's in critical condition.quite worried about him but cant do anything besides doa. worried about jun as well.she didnt sleep last nite after the news till subuh.she was crying all nite.i cant think of anything to console her.i knew that i'm not good at it. but i'll always be there for her if she needs anything.worried about her coz she cant concentrate on studying.the exam will be on the day after tomorrow. i went to library alone today,thinking of getting jun kebab.i know she wouldnt eat anything.but i bought nasi instead bcoz kebab's stall was closed. went to jun's room. i know i have nothing to say, but i just want to keep her company. just listen to whatever she wanna say. it was just like the cerpen2 i read.. but in the cerpen the hero will fully recovered at last. i hope for that cerpen-like ending for adi n jun. they are besfrens. nobody wanna lose the besfren,rite. i will also b like jun if i'm in jun's shoes. nauzubillah.

at the library... desks in the quite study area are all occupied. hurrm... monashians become nerdies ^_^. so i just take a seat at the desk in front of the group-study room. i can see the ppl going to the end side of the library where i always sit. and.... suddenly....huhuhu.. kakak-tok-nyang passed by... hurmm, i was wondering whether tok-nyang was also in the library.n wondering whether i overlooked him at that end-side of the library... after enough wondering, i moved on with my studies. there's still alot to do!! this sem's craig hassed's, revisit muscles n pharmaco , ian's MSE... and again, suddenly, kakak-tok-nyang walked pass in front of me.. i was looking at her n she saw me.. she waved her hand.. said hi.. n i waved back.. i tot she'll just gonna leave but... she came to my desk n ask how i'm going... then she said she's doing the pharmaco n 'that's not very exciting'.. yeah, pharmaco isnt very exciting when exam is just 2 days away... she said good luck before she left.. hmmm... it's weird how she can affect me although she's only the 'kakak'.. ^_^ chaiyo2!!!

kapal pecah

saye takkan kemas bilik sampai exam

saye mls

saye hanya akan basuh pinggan nasi sahaja

bekas2 sume tidak perlu disusun

quilt tak perlu dilipat sampai rabu

lalalalala

too much studying is really not good for me~

i cud be insane

but a pt to be argued is.. have i really studied too much??

i shud say i havent.to b honest.

how can u have too much study when u can finised hundreds of drama episodes??

to do some maths.. 1 episode = approx 1hr

1 series = approx 15 episodes

5 series = 1 x 15 x 5 = how many hours have i wasted??

that's if i watched 5series, while the fact is i have loss count the series i watched.

but obvioulsy more than 5!

okay, put it more positively, the time is not wasted but just not being used more productively.

sleeping could aslo be productive bcoz u could wake up fresh n move on with life effectively after that.

so i've sacrificed hundreds of hours on the drama.

the justification is - i need refreshements n i cant sleep without them.

whatever la sarah, let bygone be gone.

but, i think today i'm gonna watch 3 more fullhouse !!

just hoping that it wont affect my results~

hmm.. rethink bout it, how can u tawakkal when ur usaha is not enough

but how do u know u had usaha enough??

*sigh*sigh*

~jgn mengeluh~

a few entries previously r taken from dakwah-info.com

it has been a while i didnt go there.

i didnt go for jemaah prayer tonite, really feel guilty.

but i was late.

astarfighullah.

so to ease my mind, i went to dakwah-info.

just realised how lagha i was recently.

~moga air mata ini bisa menjd saksi~

usaha semata tidak bernilai di sisi Allah jika kita hanya mengharapkan usaha kita sedangkan kita lupa untuk meletakkan Allah sebagai yang Menentu.

Jangan sekali kita meletakkan usaha kita menjadi neraca hasil kerana bukankah itu seolah kita mengiktiraf diri kita bagaikan berkuasa dan tidak perlu mengharap pada Ilahi?.

Andai inilah yang kita lakukan, secara sendirinya kita menghitamkan hati kita dengan riya’ dan takabbur.

Sedangkan hasil suatu itu adalah ketentuanNya,

nikmatnya untuk memberikan menurut pertimbanganNya.

Mungkin terjadi, mungkin tidak

Betapa bertuahnya kita menerima hidayah Allah swt di samping ramai lagi manusia di sekeliling kita. Kita juga telah dipilih Allah untuk memahami suatu pemahaman Islam di mana ramai orang Islam masih kabut dengannya. Kita telah dipersilakan Allah utk berjuang di jalanNya sedangkan tidak ramai orang Muslim yang mengetahui tanggungjawabnya. Allah telah merahmati kita dengan satu jalan yang tidak ramai mereka yang boleh bersabar dengannya, jalan tarbiyyah ke arah mardhatillah. Sedangkan ramai umat Islam masih terkapai mencari solusi permasalahan peribadi mahupun permasalahan antarabangsa.

Ya Allah..sudilah pandang kami yang tidak berharga ini..jadikanlah kami hambamu yang terpilih…

urusan kesurirumahtanggaan

~domestic chores~

lalalalalala

library

yeyey~berjaya spent the whole ptg kat library

eventho my ptg started quite late

woke up at 12++ /nearly 1pm :D

so went to library at about 2

was thinking not to go at 1st coz it's raining

tp rintik2 je. bole je nk test payung baru kan :p

then it stopped.

in-room-study is extremely slow

so at last, went to library.

alhamdulillah finished all theme3 lecture notes

(except for cranial nerves coz it's too long)

but stil a lot to memorise.

aslo returned ken jones' green book.

so for tonite... epidemiology n summary notes!!

wah, when's anat?????

"yaAllah, lapangkanlah dada hambaMu ini"

takutnyeeeeeeee saye nk exam.

takut.it's not that i didnt study but i'm not confidence with the berkah of what i did.

i've been watching drama for months.

cant be helped.

now on ken jones abnormal behaviour.

printed the summary n hope can finish it by tomorrow.

i need to keep going.

need to move on to anatomy really soon!!!!

Allahumma najjihna pi kulli imtihaaan..

najjaahan mumtaazan baahiran.

hihihi, here's the explanation for previous entry

the pic isnt related to the words

the words r from hye-won when he told min-hyuk that she's gonna stop loving him

she's gonna let him go

not related to me as well

but it just captured my attention

esp the words 'i kinda respect myself too'.

aja aja!fighting!

i'm all over him~he's the perfect bf~but not perfect husband la

ok, i missed special entry for raya

nothing much happened, but all events r meaningful.

the smayang raye was extraordinarily best.

perut buncit the whole day!!

but 2nd day ade lecture n spent in library

3rd day pon kat library

today is the 4th day.. supposedly kat library jugak, tp ngantuk.

hopefully bole spent spjang ptg kat library gak la esok.

really need to finish revising theme3

wuaaa, craig's, ken jones', epi, anat!!!

http://www.d-addicts.com/forum/torrents.php

new baby

Welcoming Umar Al-Faruq to the world.

congrats kak ana n husband. 3.7kg healthy baby boy is such a bless.

cant wait to see Muhammad b Abdullah but i didnt buy anything for him yet.

cik lalah will definitely find something for u.

okay, havent done any reading yet today =(

missed imaging lecture - overslept.

pcl was so damn bored but ok more informational than with susan.

last sem's pcl party is so much more fun.

but elliot's cake was ok.only that it's too sweet.

the interview was ok.

didnt prepare anything for it, so hentam je.

but, only at this pt realised that 'city of monash' isn't suitable for me.

i din like working in the office like that.

i want more hands-on. i mean not in the project.

i tot cpp will just b like CAS.

but it is definitely not~

i really wanna go on the field.

meals on wheels, respite care, home care~they all sounds interesting.

i dont wanna be the one in the office working out the plan.

i just wanna be out there caring for them

*sigh*

focus group ~ our next yr's project. whoa, really not my thing~

i can imagine that i'm really gonna hate it.

tuesday will b a nitemare.

okeh2, good part.

went to the glen.

cant be helped. spent.

but it's for the good cause.

purse for my Tok $65~hope Tok will like it~genuine handcrafted leather tuh Tok~

bought 'cakes&sponges' book ^_^

jgn hangat2 taik ayam nk wat kek ye.

also bought 2 nike cute little backpack~light blue n light pink~sgt cute

lastly, bought auto umbrella~pink~

ops, not to forget, deliciously thick raisin toast~

nantuks~really worried that i didnt spent much time on study.

tomorrow afternoon need to go out to clayton.

need sarawan.chicken.

also wanna have a good morning sleep (read : don wanna wake up too early. 10 or 11 is fine. u r too much la sarah).. but the prob is, i'll get stressed out every time after i woke up that late. but the fact is that i really love that sleep. sleeping in the morning is one of the most precious nikmat that i have to thank to Allah.

raye~i'm not really in the mood to celebrate.

okeh, truth : i wanna celebrate it but not here n now.

i cant wait to be back at home~raye~

heaps more studying need to be done.

weekly lecture notes, epidemiology, anatomy, pharmacology neal, ken jones n craig

yeyey, just finished 32cups of honey cornflakes for tomorrow's pcl farewell party =))

will feel guilty if i come empty-handed.

dahla slame nih jd passenger je.

a very quiet innocent passenger :D

~tomorrow : cpp interview & g bank~

erm, wut shud i bluff about aged care??

okey, how shud u answer to why r u interested in volunteering at the community based aged care when ur main reason is just bcoz it's the course's requirement?

ok la fine, put more sincerity bcoz u r not really forced to.

it's ur choice to pass 2nd yr or to just stay in yr 1, rite.

why did i choose aged care?

bcoz it's the easiest i reckon.

the elders lg kurang songeh compared to teenagers.

u just need to keep them company while they keep talking about all sorts of things.

okies, wish me luck in tomorrow's interview ^_^

~mode : lagu raye~

planned to get to bed early.

but.plan is always a plan.

~good news : duit mara dh masuk~

confused : masuk 100% plak tuh..

okies sarah, jgn lupe plan utk nk jimat.

jgn lupe $3000~~~ hihihihi

rumah kami nanti cantik~

kak ana dah in labour.

welcome to the world, umar.

"setiap anak yg lahir adalah suci maka ibu bapanyalah yg mecorakannya samada menjadi seorang yahudi, nasrani atau majusi" - Riwayat Al-Imam At-Tabarani

o i dinno that he's evan.

my 1st impression about him wasnt a postive one coz..

i dono, it's just natural to think negative :p.

but after all, he's not that heartless n unfriendly person like i tot before.

actually, i'm also wondering why in the world am i writing about him.

ok, my justification is.. maybe bcoz i just know his name today.

n he was the tall guy in front of me in the liz's lecture that i was talking about yesterday.

he kind of made jokes to me during the lecture.

n he was also the guy with tok nyang when 'nyang, tok nyang & cadaver'.

hahaha.

he's not really significant tho.

it's hard

alhamdulillah i let giha to have that seat.

but still,it's hard.

it tests ur lacrimal gland,really.

'oh si baju hijau belang putih sluar kuning'

just finished the table for drugs at adrenoceptors.~today's lecture~

talking about lecture, there r some ppl who come to the lecture just for the sake of coming. ok, we can put in a positive way 'o maybe they have good brain to integrate two things at the same time :talking to their frens while listening to the lecturer'.. but in fact, that's so impossible coz the lecture wasnt about ken jones stuff or craig hassed's.. it was about drugs n receptors will all the list of bla bla bla. if they dont want to listen, pls dont come~wow, that's harsh~ but seriously, it's quite annoying trying to elicit lecturer's voice in the midst of the noise. n to make it worst, today, i sat at the very back of the lecture theatre, with a rall guy in front of me blocking the slides, n all the distractions of ppl moving.. i love liz's lecture, but today... i missed half of it =(

~i'm sooooooo missing home~miss cite mlayu ^_^

i'm back

i'm having a mug of coffee~planning to stay up~lalala

i donno what call me back to be here.. i've always thinking of writing something here, but there's also something that stopped me*nightmare*..but maybe now i'm quite stress with the xm coming up a few more days, so i end up here.
donno why all of a sudden, i have a thought that i'm so grateful to be here..monash mbbs.. it's not that i wasnt grateful before, but i just tookit for granted.. i feel like 'i'm happy with bla bla bla..' but the thought just now was so different. i thought about how exciting medical course is, bcoz u got to meet a lot of ppl.. n the public will b involved every now n then throughout the course..yeah i know, that's quite lame reason to be excited about the course u r taking.. but i donno how to put it into words.. n i think what sparked the though was my today's neuro site visit. there was nothing special about that, but.. how to say.. erm.. ppl will say that i'm jiwang or etc, but, yeah, nothing is wrong with being sentimental, rite. the experience to be there at The Alfred.. discussing about neuro at that doc's lounge(or wuteva the real name of that room)... walking through the wards.. n everything la.. it's something really GREAT to be pondered upon.
erm, i dont think i'm getting my point clear here.. but who cares *_*

there's one time during sem 1 that i went 'if only i cud turn back the time, i wudnt have choosen to be here,medic monash'.. hahaha.. that was in a kind of distressful time of the sem.. i normally will utter that before theme 2 tutes.. yeah, theme 2 tutes were.. were.. *i don want to put a bad words here*...
this sem, there's no particular tutes that i'm so phobia of.. but, there's no tute that i'm really fond of.. i've persistently complaining about my tutes for this sem esp pcl... 'epi tutor was so not helpful la, pcl tutor was so boring la, n bla bla bla'.. astarfighullah.. that complains really show how ungrateful i am.i really shudnt!!! syukur with what u had now, coz u will only know that u have it when it's gone...

~okies dokies.. shud get back to my revision of population health notes~

" Katakanlah: jika bapak bapak, anak anak, isteri isteri kaum keluargamu, harta kekayaan yg kamu usahakan, perniagaan yg kamu khawatiri kerugiannya dan rumah rumah tempat tinggal yg kamu sukai, adalah lebih kamu cintai daripada Allah dan RasulNya dan (dari) berjihad dijalan-Nya, maka tunggulah sampai Allah mendatangkan keputusanNya. Dan Allah tidak memberi petunjuk kepada orang yg fasik." (Q.S.At-Taubah[9]:24)