My Dreams..

bekerja mmg memerlukan kesabaran yg amat tinggi

ketahanan mental

bukan setakat utk tahu ilmu

itu adelah the least challenging..

tp cubaan2 lain termasukla tekanan masa, tekanan bos2,

daaan tekanan menyampah dgn parents2 yg pelbagai peel

saye nyaaampah sgt ngan parents yg bajet lg tau jaga anak

ok, saye tau saye takde anak lg..

tp kalo tanak dgr ckp dokter, tayah dtg jumpe dokter ok!

plg tak suke duk ward 1TB sbb budak2 kat situ separa sihat

and setiap hari akan ada case yg parents nak mintak bawak anak balik walaupon takle discharge lg

tak best sbb ward tuh takde MO

so ia sangat menyusahkan jika keje kite ini bertambah hanya utk melayan parents yg poyo2 dan berlagak 'saya tak kira, saya nak bawak anak saya balik jugak..saya tanggung sendiri la risiko'

siap ada yg kata 'saye tahu laa nak jaga anak kuning cam mane..saye dah ade ramai anak'

heellooo, mmgla sume budak akan kuning

tp tak sume budak akan jd kuning yg merbahaya

dah kalo anak ko yg kali ni sampai kene masuk spital, maksudnye mmg kene masuk laaa

takdenye kami sesuka hati sahaja nak tambah2 keje nak tambah patient dlm ward kalo tak perlu kan

siap ade sorg bapak tuh ckp 'dokter, kuning nih banyak cara nk berubat, dokter jgn igt dokter sorg je tau cara..kami nk berubat cara kampung..dulu ore2 jemur jah anak kuning'

helllooo, dulu ozon tak nipis ok!!

and kalo dah tahap tinggi kene phototherapy tu maknenye kene duk spital la kan

takpela ibu ibu bapak bapak yg kadang2 hanya pk diri sendiri

pk diri sendiri malas nak ulang alik spital

pk diri sendiri malas nk nunggu kat spital

pk diri sendiri tak tahan berjauhan ngan anak

cube la ko pk anak ko tuh mmg sakit and perlu rawatan yg terbaik

nyampah ok!!

Malang Tak Berbau

Seawal 5 pagi hari Ahad tanggal 22 Januari 2012,

kami dikejutkan awal2 pagi kerana kejutan yg amat menyedihkan

amat memilukan

adik ketuk2 bilik saye n tanye

'kak lalah, abe ih ade tak? die kuar bawak kete mak ke?'

saye terbangun dengan terkejutnye

rupa2nya kereta mami sudah tiada di halaman rumah

sgt speechless!

kunci rumah satu bunch and kunci My Jazz pon tiada!!

amat terkejut

kerana rumah tidak bersepah2 pon

tidak seperti disepah2kan oleh PENCURI laknatullah

kemudian saye terperasan pintu kat verandah belakang tak berkunci

mmg lg la speechless mase tuh sbb pk kecuaian sendiri

namun bile diingatkan balik, mmg Baba dah kunci pintu tuh

and kami cek2 tingkap ditepinya, terdapat kesan cungkil2

aaaaaa tertekannyaaa!!

it was a depressing robbery!!

my mami's CAR!!!

it's not even 2 yrs old yet

and it's not the 1st time..

2 yrs ago..the same thing happened to our Vios

and now, it's our Altis

kami sangat2 diselubungi ketakutan kerana merasakan penjahat laknat itu akan bole datang bile2 masa sahaja kerana the whole bunch of kunci rumah ada dgn die..

tp kitorg dh tukar sume padlock and tambah kunci2 lain dh..

tp still, the trauma is still around..

sgt sgt trauma n paranoid..

saya and paih sgt2 la cuak skrg kerana seperti menanti saat penjahat itu datang lg and try kete kami pule..nauzubillah...

the whole set of lock system sgt mahal..more than RM2k..

tak mampu lg skrg nih..

so skrg hanya tambah steering lock and tambah alarm system/security system

sedih sgt2 bile pk kan sume nih...

dahla mami skrg pokai gakla sbb kenduri anak-anak tak putus-putus..

so mmg agak kesempitan

tp sbnrnye perasaan takut lebih dr perasaan sedih la

sbb mlm tuh mmg ramai org kat rumah

sbb beya n nazri pon dh pulang

so luar rumah tuh kereta mmg penuh

so die patut tahu tgh full house

but he still took the risk

so die nih mcm jenis berani apa saja la kan

and that night adik slept at about 2 am

and i slept quite late too

and didnt hear a thing!

buutt..

the scary part is..

we actually did hear something..

at about 11.30pm-12am..me, adik n esyah were upstairs

dekat ruang tamu atas nih

and bunyi2 kat pintu/tingkap bawah

we were not sure sape..

and we thought it might be sape2 la kan sbb tgh ramai kan dlm rumah

but it's kinda weird la..sbb mcm bunyi skit2 camtuh...

but kitorg mcm ignore je sbb mmg i pk that's baba

and adik/esyah pk it's beya/nazri

so...i now think...that sound was probably that laknatullah's sound

berani kan die..

writing this pon dh cukup scare me..

he took my handbag with all the worldly treasures in it..

and took adik's laptop..

and adik's phone..

hmm bile dh nk jadi kan,,mmg terjadi..

cubaan Allah...

selama2 ini tak pernah Paih tinggalkan kunci kat luar bilik...

but that night camane ntah paih tinggal je atas almari kat tempat kunci2 lain

and selama nih saya tak pnah tinggal handbag luar bilik..

tp mlm tu saye tertinggal handbag kat ruang tamu atas depan tv..

they took our things..

and left us with only these..

jumpe kat veranda blakang rumah..

and he took paih's sliper jepon..

and left his on the tembok...

(die masuk pintu blakang and kuar pintu depan, so main rembat je sliper paih)

love letter

one day paih mms'ed me this pic

i thot it's just a photo of his fav sight

the pic in the phone looks so small that i didnt even think it's special

after a few weeks then only i knew he's trying to be sweet by sending hidden msg from the titles of songs he was listening

then i tried to be sweet too :p by capturing the pic of song titled 'kau kekasihku' 

Before...

loook look at my muscle and fat of my arms..

i've stopped weighing myself since like 5 months ago

seriously!

i'm sooo in denial

i'm sooo stressed with this

but..Ya Allah, let this be the 'before' picture of me

i really wanna trim off some of the extras

the weird thing is, even though i ate a lot,

really A LOT!, but i've always ate that much previously

why now they became the accessories?

and..i'm not that 'sitting around goyang kaki' at work

we rarely could even sit!!

i walked like almost all day long - all day means can be up to 24 hours..

whyyyy whyy even that cant burn up all the extra calories?

soo we've decided to invest on something

i cerewet..nak bli threadmill kene bli tv..

sbb tanak bosan mase tgh lari..

so akhirnye we've turned the living room upstairs into our 'little penthouse'

it's very convenient

but..will the work-out be effective if...

i ate NASI at 12mn then went to sleep straight away (it happened all the time)

i ate 2bungkus of nasi for lunch (it happend most of the time)

i indulged in chocolate A BAR at one go (i try to make it not happen, but failed)

all these unhealthy lifestyles cant be helped anymore

i've always find good excuses to make it sounds fair ;p

i ate at 12mn after work because i cant go to sleep with perut kosong, i'll be sedih with perut kosong

i ate 2 bungkus of nasi with extra kuih muih to get enegy for next task, so that i can be more active to run here and there at work

i ate chocolates because i like it and i said that i dont wanna be sad by abstaining myself from the pleasure of life (yes, choc is one of the pleasure of life)..

but..at times i cant even look at the person in the mirror..

it's too depressing :(

seriously depressed with my weight..

favourite sight



saye sgt suke tgk ini

serious tatau nape, the sight of towel collections sgt menenangkan bg saye

ini saye melipat baju kat umah mami

2minggu tak lipat baju hehehe :p

so bertimbun2 la segala kain-main

towels nih sume mami punyee

saye masih menumpang

tp saye belom suke tgk towel nih sume dlm lemari tuh

sbb kedudukan die sgt tinggi

and bile campo2 org lain punye lipatan mcm tak cantik plak kan

kene sorg je lipat sume towels tuh

indahnyeeeee...

bahagianyeeee...

The Girl in The Past

as i went through all my boxes and bags,

i realised there's soooo much memories to be just ignored and left wilting away under the stairs or under other bunches of worldly possessions that used to be part of us

then another dream sparked!

hehe

i think..i need to talk paih into buying us a nice white/solid wood cupboard

or display cabinets

so that i can rearranged my life on the shelves

seriously, i cant just let all my cute flowery notebooks, souvenirs and what not, dumped there

ok, 1stly, where should we start our search?

i dont wanna try the Ghazali Perabot or anything like that

hmm, maybe i shud try the kedai cine with the 2nd hand furniture from singapore

their woods are very solid and smart

the other day we went to search for something to put our new TV on

there's this one nice long cabinets with unique small drawers

it's pinewoood!

but the only think that's holding us is it's too tegap to be transferred to our 'penthouse'

tak mampu kot org nak angkat melepasi selekoh kat tangga umah tuh

so we passed! :(

but this time i'll start searching more seriously

Buuuulaaan Madu di Awan Biru..

setiap hari pulang ke rumah duk borak2 ngan paih mesti sentiasa pk pasal nak g jln2 bercinta di tempat yg tayah pk keje langsung..
after months...akhirnye saye dpt amik cuti yg sesuai dan selari dengan cuti paih
Akhirnye kan!
nak pegi jauh2 pon takle nk komited awal2 beli tiket kan sbb takut tibe2 saye tak dpt cuti plak
nak g terlalu mewah sgt plak bukan kaye sgt
then one night paih betol2 nekad utk book je mane2 hotel yg die jumpe
so we booked Kampung Air Waterchalet!
mmg best sgt sgt sgt!
we should go for honeymoon more often...
that's why saye sgt berharap kami akan dimurahkan rezeki agar dpt pegi bercuti lg :)