nuriati, u'll be going for the whole month!! and i definitely will miss u...no more random and spontaneous trip for us for the winter..how i wish we could play2 snow together2...take more animun pics together... but worry not, we'll plan more and more journeys together after u get back here, dear!

Muntah Darah

isk takut gile saye rase nk balik keje taun dpn...takut rase mcm sgt laaaa kekurangannye ngan budak2 grad mesia...kat mesia kan org stadi gile2nye la... mmg apal satu2 buku teks itu...mmg mantap...saye ade terbace status seorang kawan nih yg dh muak stadi, stadi sampai nk muntah darah...aduuuh..camtuh ke org patut stadi? wuaaa....pastuh plak uni tuh gune buku nelson utk paeds..saye try la google tgk mcm buku tuh agak extensive... lg la rase cuak..kami pakai buku sunflower aje...mmg simple dan best...tp org lain pakai buku nelson...wuaaa...honestly, tau tak saye suke gile paeds sampaikan saye bace 2 kali buku sunflower tuh..2 kali!!! tp still saye rase takkan bole lawan budak grad mesia...tuh saye rase laa...saye patut jadikan ia motivasi utk saye...tp sbb takde exam pon..mmg bermotivasi nk bace buku tp takdela sampai nk stay lame2 dpn buku kan..duk relax2 bace buku sambil tgk cite la ape la..naaaak muntah darah gak.. naak naaak naaak....

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa tensi nye saye

lps ilang kemuncak homesick tibe2 rindu lain plak menjelma

camane hati saye nk bertahan lame camnih...

asyik rentung terbakar aje menahan rindu

ngapaan sih?

letak je tepon terus rentung

gimana nih?

apaan lg..

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...

rindu ini membunuhku...

hati ini bagaikan dihiris2 memikirkan kerinduanku ini

tak tahan menanggungnye lagi..

homesick secara mendadak!

tidak pasti mengapa..

tp sgt terase ingin bergomol2an bersama mereka

saye kegersangan di sini tanpa kasih syg

setiap hari saye mintak nk tgk webcam aisyah main comp

rindu..

nk bace buku pon nk aisyah temankan..

tp minggu dpn aisyah dh start skolah balik

lps berbulan2 die cuti..

aaa air mata, jgnla menitis..

sayonara nakanaide... 

tuh saye kene ucapkan utk diri sendiri kot...

saye rindu baba

saye rindu mami

rindu semua....

Selamat Hari Lahir

Selamat Hari Jadi Sayang Kekasihku Buah Hatiku Intan Payung Pengarang Jantungku...

Terima Kasih kerana dilahirkan...

kepada Makcik...Terima Kasih kerana melahirkan budak manja ini..

:)

Makcik jangan risau, saye akan cube sedaya upaya menjaga budak nakal ini sepertimana Makcik sudah menjaganya selama ini...

p/s: btw that's not my desktop..comp i takde vista2 nih..comp i xp je..

rase nk nangis sgt duk dgr lagu i will always love u

lirik die saaangat sayu...

die ckp,,kalo die masih stay ngan laki tuh, die hanya menjadi halangan kpd laki tuh je

jd die pon amik keputusan utk pegi

bukan senang die nk pegi..berat hati die

setiap langkah die tinggalkan laki tuh mmg sedih 

die akan tetap syg laki tuh sampai bile

die akan bawak sume kenangan diorg bersama

die sedar yg die bukanlah org yg laki tuh perlukan

die doakan kebahagiaan laki tuh

wuaaaa nape saye emo nih

mmg tak tahaaaan rasenye

takde kaitan pon nk sayu2 plak saye nih

ape masalah ntah saye nih

stress mls buat MCR kot..

tp mmg banjir melihat setiap patah kata lirik lagu tuh

:(

weeekend tk productive!!

:((

esok g skolah

takde motivasinyeeee

sbb mls nk wat MCR

takut takde patient

n takut termintak dokter yg strict

aaaa pllleeeeease...

missing uuu shatun!!!

motivating monday...

i had a great monday this week...i was really2 lucky that day...as i always said before..everything's unpredictable and u really have to pray hard for good things.. usually there will be silence of awkwardness everytime i reached the staff base in the morning..there will be nothing to do...i'll pretend to look for patient for myself on the computer and etc.. but suddenly Colin, the consultant,  greeted me and asked me to follow him.. i tagged along while he attended an asthmatic patient..then i volunteered to cannulate and take bloods from the patient.. luckily the director was in front of the cubicle when i was going in and out the cubicle...so at least he saw me doing stuff.. (that's all 5th yr are about..sucking up and pretend: p) 

after i finished with that asthmatic patient, i warmed myself up with few history taking (which i rarely do even though i'm in ED)...then i pretended to be busy in front of the doctors (when in fact i was doing nothing except for going back and forth looking for patients)..so i managed to stay until ~3pm (quite an achievement since i usually sneaked out at ~2pm :p)..then my partner told me that he's leaving soon because he's gonna catch 3.15pm bus.. so i thought i should just wait until he's gone in case he ask for a ride to the station..dont get me wrong, i dont mind at all to even drive him to his home but not this week..my driving is not smooth these 2weeks because i stupidly fueled my car with 95petrol to its 'fulltank'.. my engine is really manja..she will be nicer if i feed her with 98petrol (v-power) which is way way more expensive..

back to the point, i waited until about 3.30pm kot..then i quietly took my bag and TRIED to sneak out through a small corridor, hoping that i wont be seen leaving that early by any doctors....as i confidently walked out, one of the nice consultant who i worked with in the morning saw me..he was being nice by giving way to me..then suddenly i heard from my back 'can u stitch?'..i wasnt really sure whether he was talking to me or not...then i smiled n just replied 'never tried one...are u going to stitch someone? can i tag along?'...wuaaaaa bestnyeee......then i quickly put my bag down again and get ready for the excitement...i know it's not a big deal for other students in other hospital..but in The Angliss, these chances dont come that often... i thought i'm only gonna watch the consultant stitching him up..but then he asked me 'what size of glove are u sarah?'..wuaaa....bestnyeeee.... i helped him!!!!!! eventhough i did only 2 stitiches out of 7 in total... but at least i stayed for something...i've watched doctor's stitching before this but there were never ideal situation where the doctor could let student do it..it's either because the patient is a kid who couldnt tolerate suturing or the wound is too complex...but this time, i was really2 lucky i guess..

then it's already ~4.30pm..woweee...never stayed that long except for tutes... then as i walked out tfrom he stitching room, one of the resident saw me and said 'i'm doing a manipulation in a few minutes if u wanna watch..'...OMG! sudah jatuh ditimpa tangga (in a positive way)...ofcourse i'll say yes.. so i waited to watch LAMP (local anaesthetic for manipulation and plaster) procedure, using Bier's block..i've seen one before but this kind of thing will never bore me...suddenly i became so reflective..i thought it's soo good to be in Angliss...it's quite a small hospital..fairly small ED..all the doctors know who u are and they are all willing to do anything for u.. as i'm not attached to any doctors, i am free to see and do as i please.. so i've always been greedy by tagging along with a few doctors at the same time.. since it's a small ED, i guess i could see everything that's happening..i'll always be called if there's any defibrillation, LAMP..and the other day the intern was so nice to call me whenever she's gonna catheterise any patients when she knew that i've never done one.. 

BUT...the luckiness doesnt usually last long..i wasnt very lucky today..it was quite a quiet day for me..even though i planned to take history from an interesting patient, i was being held up with another stitching...i didnt stitch this time..i assisted the intern..but i was so happy because it was my own effort to chase that patient and asked the consultant whether i could tag along or not...knowing me to be so not proactive and timid, asking for opportunities is quite a big thing ok!.

and i'm praying for a better tomorrow..ya Allah..semoga esok lg byk peluang pembelajaran untukku..dan semoga dapat buat MCR satu lg esok..then i'll be fine.. the director mentioned that he's passing us already..he even offered to do the reference thing..but i dont need one.

love love hugs hugs!!

hasil google

if only i can get these for my kids...(future kids hahaha)

saye takdela stuju nk spoil anak..

tp yg saye tau saye akan lengkapkan diorg ngan semua bende yg bole membantu imaginasi mereka

saye takkan pentingkan kecik2 ajar membace ke ape

tp saye harap saye dpt instill minat membace or mengexplore dr awal

bli mainan byk2

yg penting saye tanak bg diorg main video game or computer game

dh besar2 nanti kalo pandai sendiri tuh nk wat camane kan

tp takdela saye nk bg kecik2 diorg pandai ngadap komp

oh btw, gmbr diatas itu saye jumpe ketika menggoogle..

saye suke!!

sesuai la kan kalo nk anak ramai

tuh kene tempah..ade kat US

tk beniat pon nk..tp yg seakan2 pon bole...

satu utk bilik boys..satu utk girls...

lately i've always asked myself

'am i narcicistic?'

i know i talked too much about myself

but that's because i cant stop talking

but i think some ppl had it enough from me

i'm not suprised if someone actually say

'pls la sarah, why does everything has to be about u?'

(hopefully never la kan) 

i've been restraining myself quite hard not to write about myself

but my entries ended up on my life, still..

when i read good blogs of other ppl, i envied them

they could write interesting things that need not to be all about themselves

even if they are telling about their life, there were actually points to be ponder upon

for eg: if i'm about to write about a patient i met

i write about how i feel about them

how clucky i was seeing them bla bla bla

but other ppl my write it differently

they might see different side of the encounter with the patient

from now on, i'll try harder not to be sooo 'it's all about me'

i wanna write solid things

to show that my brain does work on other things apart from love!

hahahaha

Breakfast at Tiffany

nape lagu2 best sume sedih2

takde ke lagu utk saye melayan perasaan yg best tp bahagia

sekarang saye duk dgr lagu  breakfast at tiffany

blaja dr aimi

plg best dr lagu tuh dlm kete kalo g trip aa

lagu tuh rancak

tp rupe2nye sediiih sgt lagu tuh..

mengenai sorg laki nih yg tgh nk ditinggalkan gf die

gf die ckp diorg have nothing in common

so laki nih desperate nk cari ape yg diorg have in common..

so satu2nye bende yg diorg ade adelah..diorg sume movie 'Breakfast at Tiffany' tuh

tuh movie 60an kot..

terase plak nk tgk muvi tuh

movie tuh ade je kat megavideo tuh

laki dlm lagu tuh rase satu2nye persamaan tuh patut jd motivasi utk diorg workout their problems

die tanak aa break ngan gf die tuh

siaaaan die...

sedih...

huhuhu rindu la plak...

saye nih sudah tentu bias...mmg tk suke kat pompuan dlm lagu tuh
sbb u dont need to like common things to be together
mmg bermasalah kalo same..sbb nanti berebut
seriously, mmg kene be opposite with each other
tp tk patut contradicting laa..
masing2 terime je la masing2 seadanya...
cik PaRah dan en.PaRah mmg sgt berbeza
mungkin sbb tuh bahagia :p
tp masalah timbul bile satu2nye persamaan kami terjadi dgn serentak
saye rase kami sama2 manja
mmg sgt sukar
kerana apabila die nk merajuk mestila saye lg la terase nk merajuk sbb sedih
jd vicious cycle
kalo saye merajuk dulu pon die akan jd merajuk sbb sedih saye merajuk
apakah??
tp takkan merajuk lame pon
tak mampu
tak mampu tdo mlm tau tak!
oleh itu dlm relationship, kite gunekanlah lock-and-key enzyme theory
perlu complementary conformation!!
tp induced-fit theory of enzyme skrg dikatakan lebih tepat kan
tp both theories mmg sesuai utk relationship
u dont need to be the exact twin of each other...

ramblings

if only la kan saye ade mase 48 jam sehari

24 jam saye nk tdo, 24jam lg saye nk bace buku

saye tanak makan, tanak mandi

makan nanti gemuk ;p

bace buku terasa amat tenang...

tp tak tenang kalo bace buku lps bgn tdo

duk pk 'addduuh napelaa lame sgt td tdo, kalo tk dh bole bace brape chapter extra lg dh :('

hahahaha

biasela kan tuh

monolog dalaman saye tk henti2 bermasalah

and this coming 2 weeks, gerenti every posts will be my whining about MCR

kalo pk skrg mmg motivated sgt2 nk stay lame2 kat spital

sbb pk dh nk tinggal 2 minggu je lg nk blaja mcm2

rase ruggiiiii sgt dh 4 minggu tp tak optimise btol2

ade 2 MCR ok nk kene buat

and hopefully stp hari nanti ade dokter yg best2 n case2 yg best

semuanya unpredictable..

ade hari yg u'll feel like 'waah, i've done a lot!'

ade hari yg rase 'waaaa, napela mls sgt nk grab the opportunities nih?'

tp bile bace buku rase tenang jeee

rase mcm banyaaak nye bende menarik 

tp kalo g sim day..jumpe budak2 omputih lain yg mcm nerd

dgr diorg nye knowledge tuh rase kite nih sgt inadequate plak kan

tp nk sedapkan ati..'takpe2, saye nk balik keje kat mesia'

:))

yeaaay, saye nk berkhidmat utk rakyat saye!!

we were wondering how does it feel like to be gediks and self capturing pics with the usual 'waaah cun kan i?' pose
it all started when i have a bandaid right on my cheek after i 'ruptured' my jerawat besar
izzah : 'sarah, patut amik gmbr la ade bandaid camtuh'
sarah: 'aah, izzah tlg amik kan gmbr kite ek'
izzah : 'eh amik la sendiri mcm org2 dlm fb tuh'
sarah : 'mane laa kite reti..kite kan duk kutuk2 org2 gedik camtuh'

then i got into my routine position..on my bed under my quilt, in front of the laptop
i switched on the camera
i captured few pics n sent to kemal
kemal: 'nih dh syok sendiri ke'
sarah: 'camnih ek rase jd poyo gedik dpn camera'
kemal: 'kite tk reti pon nk gune camera kat laptop nih'
sarah: 'kalo kemal reti mesti tk benti snap gmbr sndiri kot'
kemal: 'aah, nsb baik tk reti kan'

ahahahahahha..
sesungguhnye saye tidak la gedik
saye tidakla perasan cun
saye tidakla syok sendiri
gmbr diambil hanyalah experiment smata2

saye golongan sosial kelas bawahan

oooomg!!

baru je pk dh mengidam pelik2

tgh2 tgk cougartown tuh ade plak scene pompuan nih mkn onion ring

die ade satu plate besar penuh ngan bende2 bergoreng

aaaaaaaa...kenape saye terseksa beginih...

if only saye nih kaye gile kan..skrg nih jugak saye drive ke clayton bli bbqchicken dan segala mak nenek goreng2 tuh...

tp kalo nk bli mkanan kene pk dulu..duit tuh kene jimat...

duit tk brape nk cukup...

overhead tinggi...

sedih tk bunyinye? tahan mengidam sbb takde duit..

siannyee saye...

Kitab

saye nih mmg jenis mengidam tibe2 camtuh je

kdg2 tuh mengidam bende yg tk logik2 nk ade kat sinih

ade yg sng je nk ade tp perlu effort utk mendapatkannya

smalam tibe2 terliur nk home-made chocchip cookies

yg sgt senang buat tuh

yg buat mcm mase nk raya slalunye tuh

yg bile bakar tuh bau semerbak satu rumaaah

sedaaap

ala2 rasa mcm famous amos cookies tuh

tp famous amos tuh mahal sgt la plak utk bingeing kan

so smalam tgh2 mengidam tuh terus la kuarkan butter

tp sblum tuh kuarkan dulu kitab cookies yg sudah 2 taun dibeli ini

sudah dibeli 2 taun tp tidak pernah dibuka skali habuk pon

saye mmg suke mengumpul buku resepi

pantang nampak jual buku resepi tgh sale

tp takpe, tk bukak skarang pon masa2 depan nanti ade la kan masa utk bukak :)

be optimistic!

lps dh ready nk buat tuh baru pk butter sgt kerasss

slalu panaskan je dlm microwave

tp utk buat cookies saye tk brani la plak

takut tk cukup naik ke ape ke

tk cukup ilmu lg kan.. 

kene ikut skema je..dh biase dr kecik kene kuarkan butter sampai lembut

tp kalo nk buat kat oz yg bersuhu beku skrg nih mmg susah la kan

so skrg dh nk sparuh hari la kan saye kuarkan butter tp tetap jua beku

mahu tidak mahu kene la lembutkan skit ngan microwave

eh bukan butter menjadi ceritanya

tp idamanku!!

tgh2 tk abis craving nk chochip cookies tuh kan..

tibe2 rase nk megi

tanak sebarang megi

nk megi brand megi perisa kari

ade je kat kedai tuh haa

tp saye tk pnah la nk bli megi kalo g kedai

slalu pk 'eh junkfood tuh..tayah..tayah..'

tp time2 mengidam tuh mule la meleleh airliur kan....

tp serius kalo bli megi mmg rase bersalah gile

tp kalo mkn tgh mengidam skali staun tuh ok kot :p

pastuh tibe2 plak ngidam nk kepok sira

eeeemmmm...sedapnyeeee.....

tgk kak keri cam ade advertise kepok keping

tp tuh kene goreng dulu aa..

kak keri ckp bole je order yg dh goreng 

tp segan la kan...

perut, behave la skit....

Rajin..dimana kamu?

encik rajin, dimanakah kamu? mengapa encik malas yg sering menjenguk saye?

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sesungguhnye komp ini tk byk gmbr...
sume gmbr2 dlm komp shatun
tp saye nk jugak main2 edit gmbr nih..
saye bosan teramat sgt
encikPaRah sedang di masjid sekarang ini..
jd saye seperti seekor cacing kepanasan rase resah gelisah

tiada kerja betul saye ini...tk pepasal terosakkan template blog saye ini..terpaksa cari template lain..penat ok!

Loving It to Bits

bile di pk2 kan..emergency medicine mcm agak menarik sbb ade the excitement of diagnosiing fresh patients..patient dtg tuh hanya dgn presenting complaints and kite yg kene start pk the differentials... tp takdela bermakna saye minat nk futher dlm emergency..saye tetap nk buat paeds.. emergency medicine mungkin best bile menjadi student kat The Angliss je kot..takde pressure kalo silap wat pape sbb ade dokter atas utk guide... arituh bessst sgt ade sorg patient umur 19bulan dtg sbb die jatuh dr katil..alhamdulillah die takde pape...mula2 tuh die mmg vomited with every feeding.. tp pastuh die takde pape dh..saye tag along senior reg tuh..tgh2 senior reg tuh explain things to the parents, baby tuh duk tgk saye n buat2 hidung n mulut..die cam masamkan idung n mulut die pastuh gelak2 bile saye tiru die..tp saye senyap2 je la..inappropriate plak kalo tgh2 dokter bercakap tuh saye bising2 ngan budak tuh kan... n budak tuh tibe2 mendepakan tangannya kat saye utk saye dukung...pastuh seronoknyeee saye dpt dukung budak tuh...rindunyeeeee....n tgk2 name mak budak tuh Sarah jugak :))

byk jugak bende bole blaja kat Angliss tuh kalo kite rajin menyibuk2kan diri...yg bestnye sbb takde pressure sgt...tp saye mungkin tk kisah jika disuruh amik history patient, cume saye plg tk bole kalo ade org nk tgk saye amik history..konfirm otak saye berfikir ligat..tkle fokus.. tp saye berazam utk at least sehari amik 1 history..mmg ED kat spital lain, lain caranya..tp saye suke je Angliss nih..ikut pace kite..n baaaaaanyak sgt learning opportunities..takdela membabi buta je....sume all in one..kite g try buat something..and look them up on the net time2 tuh jugak.. then grab a doc to discuss..then cek balik on the net bende2 yg dokter suruh tau...saye rase cara belaja camtuh sgt best aa....tp i have to admit yg budak spital lain esp Dandee akan lg mantap aa skills-wise...

okeh duk membebel2 seronok ED, tp nanti kang tk smpat abis bace buku Case Files nih...harapnye sempat khatam la...and harapnye sume lekat la dlm kpale... amiin...betulkan niat...

one day i might delete this post...

nk kawin tk senang rupenye :(
dulu saye pk perkara plg susah dlm nk kawin adelah nk mencari cinta sejati
tp....walaupon cinta dh ada, chemistry dh ada, restu dh ada...
adeeeeee je bende lain yg buat rase the whole thing is imperfect
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

saye menulis sebegini langsung tk berniat nk menimbulkan tanda tanye
tk berniat nk tarik perhatian
tp saye tahu satu hari saye mungkin akan menyesal jika menulis sewenang2nya
tp keinginan utk meluahkan kekecewaan itu tetap ada..
dulu saye sering memandang serong terhadap org2 yg nk tarik perhatian dgn buat2 misteri
namun saye tk beniat nk menjadi misteri
saye bukanla perahsia
semua masalah saye dikongsi..
tp masalah sebegini mungkin lebih pintar tidak dibuka

saye hanya mampu berdoa agar segala yg saye rase sekarang hanyalah salah sangka semata2
saye tk mampu berpatah balik
saye sering berkata yg saye sudah terlambat sbb sudah di tahap family semua2
namun sbenarnye..saye tk mampu berpatah balik kerana saye yakin saye tidak akan menemui cinta lg sehebat cinta ini..hahahah mcm lirik lagu adam plak..

it is indeed a hardship..
harder than the relationship itself
:(
sian my liver..atrophy setiap masa...
cirrhosis mengalahkan chronic alcoholics
at times, i was thinking can i just rewind everything and be heartless?
but i am not.

could this be signs of more problems to come?
seems like i'm letting my mami down.
or am i being too emotional and too sensitive.

yaAllah, ease our way, ease their hearts.

we spent most of our time apart - distance-wise
it's not a hard thing to do
but it's not easy either
have faith, dear!

tatau nk tensi ke tak

ntah knape saye ade sedikit kerisauan dlm hati..risau apekah perception dokter2 kat ED..adekah mereka sudah cukup nampak kehadiran saye? mereka mmg slalunye tidak menjejaskan, tp who knows..anything can happen...saye nih mmg ade sedikit kerisauan jika semuanya terlalu cruisy..mcm tk logik..too good to be true...sbb saye nih bukannye org yg slalu dpt semua bende dgn mudahnye...semuanya diuji dulu...previous students sume slacking kat Angliss ED mungkin mereka bernasib baik..kot2 tibe2 saye menjadi yg tak bernasib baik kan...jd saye rase saye patut pegi skolah lg awal esok2 pg walaupon hanya duduk melangut takde patient...

saye tau saye mmg sgt la tidak mengimpress locals kat sinih... dokter2 tau org mlayu pendiam...tp go with the flow je la kan..asalkan abis med school...tp td agak demotivated ngan martin yg suke mengajar itu...die mmg suke mengajar..tp kdg2 die sengaja downkan student utk student blaja..die tk jahat..contohnye mase die ajar2 kitorg..bile tk dpt jawab die akan ckp 'ok u guys are failing ED rotation now..u need to revamp your status...impress me!'..mmg die suke ckp camtuh..suke mencuakkan student bahawa student akan fail rotation itu jika tidak tau sesuatu yg die tanye oleh itu die nk kite tunjukkan yg kite tau pastuh..die buat hypothetical situation je, takdela die nk failkan student...bukan die yg tanda PIA pon... tp sometimes agak down bile kite sorg yg kene drill td n the whole staff base memasang telinga... down down down..!

tp arinih yg saye agak seronok adelah saye mengdiagnose sorang pacik nih ngan compartment syndrome...bukanla saye yg manage die..tp saye ngan partner pegi amik history pacik tuh...and from the history saye mmg cam ade high suspicion for compartment syndrome and saye bitau partner saye...die ckp die tk terpk pasal tuh pon..he was thinking more about fracture etc... then mase die discuss ngan senior reg tuh saye pegi kat patient lain utk masukkan catheter...pastuh partner saye bitau la yg senior reg tuh stuju ngan compartment syndrome...isk rugi!!! ruginye saye tk dpt sampaikan kat senior reg itu yg itu saye nye diagnosis..saye bukannye jenis yg suke take credit for anything ke apeke, tp saye harus regain my pride and dignity in front of that doc.. jgnla partner saye amik credit utk diagnosis tuh..bukannye ape, ade tau jenis org yg baik akan ckp kat dokter 'sarah was thinking about compartment syndrome etc'.. slalunye camtuh aa...ntah laa..saye harus berkerja dgn lebih keras utk bersinar di depan senior reg itu...

satu lg, saye dpt masukkan catheter airinih!!!

r.i.n.d.u

Motivation

minggu ini saye berazam utk ke ED setiap hari
harapnye dpt ikut kemal pegi awal2 stp pagi
sbb saye kol 10 pon bole nk g
tp utk bgn tuh agak perlukan kekuatan kalo takde specific time utk bgn
saye motivated utk kene berjimat cermat bulan ini juga
kerana bil saye TERlebih
mengapa ntah
padahal saye dh rase cukup terseksa dgn masa utk bersama yg terlalu limited
adakah jika setiap masa dpt bersama kami akan bankrupt?
oleh yg demikian saye juge harus tabah breakfast yg sihat2 kat umah pg2
supaya kat spital tayah bli lunch
slain dpt jimat, dpt juge mengelakkan penggemukan
kerana chips di TheAngliss sgt sedap
seeedaaap...
sekarang saye tgh dilemma adekah patut saye abiskan masa utk buat modules
sbb saye tatau adekah modules utk akan dilihat?
tp kalo tk buat rase tk sedap ati...
tp tgh buat akan pk buang masa...
tp masa yg digunekan utk bermonolog nih pon dh cukup terbuang dah ;p

antara tanah melayu dan tanah abo

for some reason couldnt be disclosed, i went to Happy Apple Cafe again
nastsukashii..
bertahan 2jamsetengah je pon
tp at least pegi laa kan
instead of kat bilik..stengah jam bace buku 2jam beronggeng :p
Happy Apple Cafe tuh kan cam kat level scary skit
bukan scary ape..
dlm cafe ok je
kuar cafe nampak koridor yg ala2 mcm kat mesia tempat org kene ragut la ape la
hahaha over tuh
dlm spital tuh mmg slamat je
tp in short level tuh tak cun pon
buruk, tersorok, bole sesat etc
hari2 skolah ok je la sbb ramai org
tp kalo cam td saye pegi lpas magrib
ari plak wiken
takde la saye takut pon tp terpk, patutkah saye takut
hahahaha
sbb setiap kali lalu tuh saye perlu lalu 'Mortuary'
stp kali lalu saye sering mencari2 rase seram dan gerun dlm diri
namun setakat ini belom ketemu
bukan bercakap besar
tp cube membayangkan kalo kat mesia, nampak pekataan 'Rumah Mayat' sure la cam nk kecut je kan..
saye tertanye2 apekah yg mengubah persepsi takut kite apabila berada di sinih?
kalo kat mesia, duk dlm bilik mlm2 pon tk brani nk tgk tingkap luar
kalo nk kuar dr bilik sendiri nk ke bilik lain pon cepat2 je lari sbb takut tgk tangga la ape la
tp kat sinih alhamdulillah berdikari dgn amannya...
cume dulu pernah sekali tuh mimpi ngeri so mmg takuttt sgt
tp time terjage dr tdo tuh je la
camane saye nk melatih perasaan tak gerun ini apabila di malaysia?
mmgla selame nih takde masalah sbb sentiasa ade org teman
tp lambat laun kene berdikari kan
balik keje mlm2
tuh bukan stakat takut antu..manusia berperangai antu lg takut kot kat mesia
camane kalo asben outstation?
takkan nk duk dlm slimut je dr sblum magrib sampai subuh
uuuu scarryyy.....